.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

Chaotic family matters.

Been hearing alot about the chaos of families.
Mine is part of those dramatic stories.

Finance big bang.
Extreme emotions blowing up here and there.
Mind challenging periods.
Depression, suspicions, fingers pointing.
Everyday is shouting and crying day.
Daddy, mummy, brother, me.

I need your coverage God.
If only I have a job mummy don't have to work.
Then she won't find herself so tired all the time..
Which leads to her moodswings and suspicions that makes the whole atmosphere in the family so intense.
We need more of your love in us,
so we will not break each other in this period,
but bond stronger with one another.
I need your rebuking and correcting even more,
for I need to learn hard about doing more for the family.
No matter what, I hold on to you.

Give my best to family, work, and ministries.
Help.

Genesis Jorris 1:18:00 PM

Jesus Betrayed by Judas
by Max Lucado

When betrayal comes, what do you do? Get out? Get angry? Get even? You have to deal with it some way. Let's see how Jesus dealt with it.

Begin by noticing how Jesus saw Judas. "Jesus answered, 'Friend, do what you came to do.' " (Matthew 26:50)

Of all the names I would have chosen for Judas it would not have been "friend." What Judas did to Jesus was grossly unfair. There is no indication that Jesus ever mistreated Judas. There is no clue that Judas was ever left out or neglected. When, during the Last Supper, Jesus told the disciples that his betrayer sat at the table, they didn't turn to one another and whisper, "It's Judas. Jesus told us he would do this.

"They didn't whisper it because Jesus never said it. He had known it. He had known what Judas would do, but he treated the betrayer as if he were faithful.

It's even more unfair when you consider the betrayal was Judas's idea. The religious leaders didn't seek him, Judas sought them. "What will you pay me for giving Jesus to you?" he asked. (Matthew 26:15) The betrayal would have been more palatable had Judas been propositioned by the leaders, but he wasn't. He propositioned them.

And Judas's method ... again, why did it have to be a kiss? (Matthew 26: 48--49)

And why did he have to call him "Teacher"? (Matthew 26:49) That's a title of respect. The incongruity of his words, deeds, and actions--I wouldn't have called Judas "friend."

But that is exactly what Jesus called him. Why? Jesus could see something we can't...

Jesus knew Judas had been seduced by a powerful foe. He was aware of the wiles of Satan's whispers (he had just heard them himself). He knew how hard it was for Judas to do what was right.

He didn't justify what Judas did. He didn't minimize the deed. Nor did he release Judas from his choice. But he did look eye to eye with his betrayer and try to understand.

As long as you hate your enemy, a jail door is closed and a prisoner is taken. But when you try to understand and release your foe from your hatred, then the prisoner is released and that prisoner is you.

Forgiveness is the key. Forgive and forget.

Genesis Jorris 1:59:00 AM

An upcoming movie only in December, but Im all excited over it and the scenes of the preview are playing merry-go-round in my brain.

Named as 252, it represents a code that symbolises "signal of life". Zooming in on the survivors from a badly hit Tokyo by the disastrous typhoon, it depicts the intensity performed by the hyper rescue squad who aims to make the impossible to be possible. To save those trapped in a fallen subway station within the limited time before another brutal punch from the life-taking typhoon, the team have to struggle in having faith in what they will be attempting. Definitely a movie that will shakes your heart and bring tears to your eyes as it not only carries excitement, but also touches the deepest humanity of fragile beings.

Quoted from SciFi Japan:

252: SIGNAL OF LIFE (252: Seizonsha Ari), the biggest disaster drama ever to strike the screens of Japan, will move everyone to tears. It’s a drama of extreme conditions, told from both sides of the rescue operation in the aftermath of a disaster; the survivors trapped in the collapsed subway station and the rescuers attempting to save them against the devastating force of nature. This spectacular catastrophe was shown for the first time at Cannes Film Market and attracted international attention. 252: SIGNAL OF LIFE tells the story of a natural disaster, and this global concern is realistically depicted with a Hollywood-scale production. The ferocity of nature has been visualized in an unprecedented scale through real scenes and CG. This is the story of the greatest escape drama and a high-risk rescue operation, with life or death for the survivors divided by only 18 minutes!

You can find out much more about the details of this movie from the following link:
http://www.scifijapan.com/articles/2009/01/23/252-signal-of-life-production-notes/

Who wants to watch with me? Ha. It's still early! We can make reservations!

Genesis Jorris 2:24:00 PM

A great late night movie to end the fellowship day:

12 rounds.

I find that the movie is pretty engaging,

the plot is detailed and I can see the producer's intelligence through it's ability in ensuring all gaps of the show are well covered and transit smoothly. Praise God for such talent in the media industry. Perhaps for some they might just focus on the action and trails, but for me my emphasis lies always in the story plot. This movie blew my mind off with it's intriguing surprise at the most unexpected conclusive stages. I love the actor John Cena, though he's not my type of guy, laughs. A movie worth watching and it's definitely worth spending the money. I'll give it a rating of 7.5/10.

And thanks Colin for driving me back home! Though interestingly, we got stopped by the police at the roadblocks near Toh Guan area. Anyway, we were intending to pull by the bus stop for me and Ephraim to align and return to our houses. But it was a pretty rare sight that I caught today! Helped me to make a new conclusion about Singapore Police force~

SG Police is pretty POWER!

Why do I say so? Cause one of the police was performing the usual procedures with us, checking our IC with the HQ as to whether we have any criminal records or perhaps we are some illegal immigrants. And also, double confirming whether Colin's license is valid and accurate. Then out of a sudden, another group of police shouted and informed to the rest of their colleagues they spotted a vehicle moving backwards after finding out that there is a road block. Immediately they sense something wrong with this act of guilt performe by the vehicle, and they run into their car to chase after that vehicle!

Cool~ The thing is, me and Ephraim were wondering since it's so far away, would they have spotted clearly how that vehicle look like (the distance is like a flyover away...), and that means even if they managed to quickly drove to that spot which the suspected vehicle slipped away, they can't identify it. So, yeah... But anyway, it's just that I thought in Singapore, our police won't get this "intense". Maybe Im wrong afterall! LOL.

Anyway, today's sermon was good. Praise God for Jasmine =)

Genesis Jorris 3:55:00 AM

It was a fruitful night with cheryl's mum cooking,
spending time with her family members,
that's her mum and her younger sister.

The food was simple yet delicious,
there was sour plum chicken and steamed egg with minced meat.
We ate together around the living room table,
watched TV together and hang around like a family.

And there and then me and cheryl had a fruitful time in her room,
sharing lotsa stuffs about our family life and reflection on camp.
I really want to praise God that He had done a great thing in her heart,
stirring her to continue and strive her best in her life.

Cheryl, Im proud of you!
Continue to grow stronger alright?
God is going to use you greatly and powerfully,
regardless of what happen in the past.
You are a new creation in Him, and He is there with you. =)

Love you!

Genesis Jorris 11:43:00 AM

Something really strikes my heart and I believe this is what God wants to tell everyone who had been at the VISION FARM for the last three days:

The Camp has ended but the true purpose of the camp has just Begin!

It is true that the 3 days 2 night camp have marked it's grand ending, and now everyone is back with their daily life and routine. However, God really rings in my heart that we should not let the camp remain as just a fruitful and memorable experience, but to allow it to impact and inspire us in our daily life. I really believe that God has spoken His word to many who has turned up for the camp, and surely His word are meant to be apply for the best of our lives. Regardless of the heart condition that you carry when you arrive at the camp site, if God has spoken to you, surely you are refreshed by now!

For me, I believe what that God has strikes my heart and touched my innermost being is His assurance of His providence. He has dropped His word in my heart that, regardless of my inadequacy, He can still use me to do great things for His kingdom. Quoted from Jasmine during the response time, she was saying: God pick the weak to be use for His kingdom purpose, so that at the end of the day, He will be glorifed. Was really touched by God because before the camp, I am exposed to many feedbacks, self-reflection and experiences regarding my weaknesses and blindspot. Thank God for His spoken word.

Im not sure about you, but surely after this camp, I really want to be determine in meeting the objectives of my life. They are as follow:

- Find a job and begin exploring my divine career (wait upon the Lord for direction)
- Be more observant of my own behavior, speech and way of dealing with issues
- Blindspot: Disrespectful tone of speech; occasionally swayed by emotions
- Usher ministry: To groom the leadership team and grow the ushers in quantity and quality
- Image ministry: Pioneer the standards and explore ways of improvements
- Expand my non-believer friends circle
- Improve my relationship with family members

These objectives to me, are hard to meet as of current, and I indeed do have doubts about how am I going to achieve them. But truely I believe and want to continue to put my faith in God, trusting that he will provide for me everything that I need in order to fulfil these goals at the end of 2009.

To all the other campers, I pray and encourage you that you will let the camp work in your life because God has worked in you through the camp. =)

Genesis Jorris 6:24:00 PM

You! Make my world colorful~

You're like the BLUE sky in my world, never ending and always there.
PINK? Just like that pink cap, Im in love with You lots lots.
Striking color, let it be RED! You grab my attention like those classic sexy red lipstick.
Are you talking about PURPLE? You soothes my mind like those lavender.

Hmmm... If I were to be environmental friendly, you will be the GREEN im looking for!
Just like the fur on my lovely KIKI, you will be that brown I always remember.
When Im hungry I think of macdonald, your YELLOW will surely noted. =)
There and then when I open my closet, nothing but your BLACK I will see!

I daydream sometimes about those sunflower fields, ORANGE I see, so are you.
When I grow old and those hair turn WHITE, you will still stand by my side. =)

You are the rainbow and I am the rain.
You color the gloomy me.

Genesis Jorris 1:59:00 AM

Holding on to You!

The Q&A session:

What do you do when you are stretch like a rubber band?

Pray to God that you won't snap!

What should you do when you found your cup drying?

Sing to God and you will find your cup overflows!

What to do when you're so lost about what to do with so many things on hand?

Ask Him to help you carry some on your hands so you have time to figure out!

What to do when you're cravin for Chilli padis with sorethroat but got to sing later?

Pray to God and He will satisfy your stomach and throat at the same time.

(that's what he did for me... SUPERNATURAL: Chilli padis healed my throat!)

What to do when you don't know what to do?

Ask Him for wisdom and knowledge lar!

What to do when at the end of the day you finish everything?

Praise Him and give thanks. =)

PS: I have successfully graduated from SP this morning. Results are out. =)

Genesis Jorris 3:53:00 PM

Camp is coming.

Wow. Time flies really fast!

Had been busy preparing for the camp stuffs and all...
That I really forgotten about the time.
It had been taxing recently with all these things going on,
and furthermore I need to look for a Job!
Haha..

But well I thank God for the opportunity to serve,
and the chance to witness the many backstage HEROES. heh.

Well just want to say,
everyone! Let's really anticipate for the camp!
Believed it's going to be really exciting and fruitful.
God is going to move in the camp,
and that's what most important yeah!
woohoo~

Love HIM love HIM! keke.

Genesis Jorris 12:09:00 PM

I think I am a born thinker?
Often questioning over things in this world.

I find it weird about how humans behave in a certain way,
so intriguing, their thoughts and how far they could assume.
I wonder does other species, like animals?
can think in such a way as well, but they chose not to.

maybe it's better not to be able to think as much?
so there will be lesser trouble and conflicts in this world.

I once thought that if humans do not possess such complicated mindset,
wouldn't it be better?
There won't be conflicts cause nobody would thought of having one.
There won't be misunderstandings for assumptions will not have took place.
All those hurting incidents wouldn't take place too,
cause nobody would thought of doing it.

But then I think again,
if humans can't think as deep as we are doing today...
Nobody would thought of loving another?
Nobody would be motivated to encourage and care for each other.

I tried to think as well why are there sufferings in this world?
When there is such a loving and great God around.
Never can I figure out the answer,
if I have I think I'll be some tip top theologist today.
In my thoughts I wonder too, why in church, hurting people still exist?
When a church exist for the purpose of love.
Sometimes I don't understand why as well,
why christians would fight against each other for glory?
Have not they understand the basics of love that God wants us to possess..

I can't ask anymore why. because I am part of those things that had took place.

hmmm...
At the end of the day, I don't get all my questions answered.
In fact, most of them remain unanswered. Humans aren't that smart afterall.
You know what? I learn, don't try to be GOD.
For His thoughts are not our thoughts, neither His ways our ways.

It's not about putting our faith in Him in ignorance.
It's recognising His sovereignty and thus what ever instill for us,
we trust in Him and not question His authority.

A random post.

Genesis Jorris 12:43:00 PM

I want to break free.

Away from the worries of this world,
no temptations and problems will be my obstacle.

I can jump on the sunflower field,
enjoying a cup of tea from freshly plucked red tea leaves,
sun bathing under the sun from sentosa,
loving the chilling breeze in Korea.

A cup of frappucino with God,
on the comfortable sofas of starbucks.
With my little notebook I write love songs to Him,
expressing my heartfelt joy for His presence in my life.

I want to shout out loud at some open green field,
telling God how much I love Him and need Him. =)
Gazing upon the beautiful nature I want to be amaze,
by His works and creation of the world.

Loving.

Genesis Jorris 4:17:00 PM

A post dedicated, to my dear dog. Kiki.

She was there visiting, for CNY. =)

Pretty disturbed by her "grandpa", my dad, who's playing computer games at the other side.

Her Baby photo. Cute right? =)

I got to say I miss her.

Now that she's gone... I don't want to even think.

Call me emotional, but this dog means alot to me.

She will really, bring tears to my eyes.

She was there to cheer me up, when Im stress with studies.

She was there, to make me angry somehow, when she pee on my bed.

She was there to comfort me, when I feel so low.

She was there always.

I feel so helpless.. When she's being sent to SPCA.

I want to do something,but I can't do anything.

All I can do is to see her leave us.

May somebody, adopt her and give her a better future.

Please pray for her ya.. Thanks.

With love,

Your beloved master.

Genesis Jorris 6:30:00 PM

Let those emotions be stringed

Like a puppet

Teach me to be your puppet master

Those strings will be my fingers

They will move and perform

a pleasing puppet show

I will submit

Humble I shall be

Those strings shall never be snapped by my pride

But attached to your righteousness

Give me the script for the puppet show

And I will train my fingers to give you my best performance

Be patient with me

For neither am I skilled or talented

Hardwork from a meek is all I have to you

It is your plot and your story that makes the show great

Not the puppet

Not the puppet master

Let the audience scream bravo

To the show that delivers a life that stands

It is you that will be glorify

Not me.

Genesis Jorris 1:25:00 PM

I will sing all my life!
Because you are the melody and I am your song!

I will move on.
Repent, forget, admit my faults.
I want to be a blessing of yours.

Genesis Jorris 1:56:00 AM

Talk not.
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Sometimes I know not speak what may.
For I am not a pleasing self to many.
A thorn in your heart I may be one perhaps.
In guilt I am for I know not any.
Talk not I think, I should behave as it.
No more hurt and pain, from me I shall.
Tears till it dried every, cried no more.
Hurt shall be it, I am to deserve.
Upset me I admit of course will be it.
For in minds of friend I am one black man.

Dun talk behind my back.
It hurts me even more.

Genesis Jorris 1:36:00 PM

Super Duper Tired~

After like so long, I am back working as a part-time exhibitor,
for Brookes University.

Know about the career and education fair?
You can visit me there this sunday yea.
It's the last day. But remember! You need to register before coming in.

Camp is drawing near,
Im pretty excited about it.
And pretty nervous over it!
Lots of things coming up... Kinda stress up by them.
Do pray for me and the camp committee that we won't suffer any fatigue!

Right now...
Somehow God is driving me to give my best for the camp.
Not only in the areas that Im in charge,
but in everything. If I notice anything, GO GO GO. Do something!
Feedback, comment, share, help out.
This camp is going to make it big in 2009.
BIG in such a way people lives will be transformed. Amen!

I just want to give thanks to a few people...

Thank God for Ruth and Rebecca!
I believe that they have been working hard to prepare the transfer gifts.
Despite the feedback they face while being new in camp involvement,
they did not fail to continue and give their best!
Ruth you did a good job in dealing with the issue =)
Your calm attitude and humility in accepting comments is great.
Rebecca have been faithful and sacrificial in your role too!
Thank God for the both of you.

Thank God for Lestari~
Bingquan had to leave for Taiwan due to NS matters,
and we had Lestari taking over the entire project.
I thank God for her faithfulness because I know she have other involvements too!
Although she just rise up as a leader,
and have ministry involvement as a singer,
she still willingly take up the challenge to help out!
Thank God for you dear, you have been a great help.
Continue to jiayou for the camp decor!

Thank God for Alina =)
Im glad that you are trying to grow strong in God.
In the midst of pruning,
let there be patience and perseverance.
So may your endurance bear fruits,
in the Lord's spirit and in truth.
Gambate! Im behind you.

More things. More prayers.

Genesis Jorris 11:42:00 PM

Dark bright
Sadness Rejoice
Fear Courage
Tears Laughter
Abandon Hug me tightly
Wounds Healer
Insecure Love
Pain Listen to me

Look at the brighter side.

GOD IS NOWHERE. What do I see.

Genesis Jorris 1:59:00 PM

wow. Things can really happen within a few days.

Let me think, the last meeting was Image right?
And there I had meetings crowding my whole saturday.
Singing on sunday with madness feasting after that.
Crazy sunbathing on a blue monday till I get 1st degree burn, without being aware. =)

Got to say, the mama shop meeting is fruitful.
I thank God for Sarah, Geckting and Santono for being part of it!
They are really great partners for a mama shop? Ha.
It was a brain-exploding session in the ESS brainstorming,
I thank God none of us got our head blew off.
The service preparation was intensive as youth service ended late,
nevertheless, I always enjoyed my duty as a stage manager.
Did I mention the music practise on a sixth floor for water baptism praise?
It was really enjoyable. =)

That sunday, I just sang it out to God.
Praise Him yea.

Monday is the crazy one.
With Magdalene and Lestari, my 2 crazy mission trip sisters,
we sun bath for like 5 hours.
It's a relief for my mind, soul, heart I guess.
Been so long since I ever spend sometime doing nothing but fun.
I love the sun at sentosa, and the clouds were, pretty.

It gets a little messy
When everything came tumbling
You wanted that shoulder to lean on
So near yet so far
Late nights you cried in that pink pillow
screaming for help but no one hears
Only the evil grin you found
freak out. You never wanted this

Can't get a hold of yourself
Breakfree is all you long for
You miss those days freed from worries
Only your smile be ever found
Stand out. You always wanted this

Genesis Jorris 3:40:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak