.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

Lovey Dovey.

I think this is an interesting topic that nobody will forget about..

LOVE.

What creates love in a person heart? When do you know you fall in love with somebody? Why does loving relationship happens between opposite gender? How do you express love? Where does love takes place?

Recently people been asking me..
Who is your crush?
LOL. I told them something really abrupt.
If you want to know, dun go and imagine and anyhow think,
just ask me. =)
But, crushing and loving is two different thing.

I believe God created this loving relationship for a female and a male for specific reasons.. It is only through love you become wholesome, and complete. Just like God's love for us, only His love can fill the hollowness in our life without Him. Likewise, only Eve can fit the missing rib from Adam's body.

“Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him but out of his side to be equal with him as well as under his arm to be protected by him and near his heart to be loved by him.”
~A biblical brother-in-Christ, Andrew Justus.

What is Love anyway?

People says..
When you love, you can't see..
But I think, its more of when you love, you love their weakness also.
To me love is to be a part of each other's life,
we're not passers by,
but we're like a tree planted forever in that landscape..
Unless we choose to ignore its existance.
But once planted,
forever it will remains.
You can't escape or forget.
Just accept the seed of love that were planted before..

Therefore,
I learn not to rush relationships..
In fact from my experiences in the past.
God definitely have set a part someone for me,
and I have to do now is to lead the best of my life,
and awaits for the one and only.

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Love embraces,
Love explores.
It makes you wholesome,
and gives you all.

when your eyes crosses His,
the world will pause.
the heart beats align,
each side by side.

Your mind hangs His face,
and thoughts run wild.
Love sick,
no cure.

How will you describe Love?
P.S: Dun find Love, and let Love find you.

Genesis Jorris 12:01:00 AM

Today I've got the urge to touch on the topic regardless..
Anger

What exactly is anger?

What leads anger to become a trap to sin?

How do you control your anger?

How do you calm your temper?

I can say I can be a really easily agitated person.. Especially in the area whereby there are people who can't reach a consensus with me and misunderstandings aroses. This might have got to do with the fact that I mind alot about how people understands my intentions and actions. It is because of a recent issue that arises, which gives me a chance to ponder on this area of my life and this topic that many will face.. A decision to make regarding our self-control, a cultivation of humility, and leading a life abounding in Love.

In Psalms 86: 15, It says:
But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

God is slow to anger. And He is abounding in love and faithfulness. I was thinking, if God were to be angry with us, we would have long die already. right? It is by His love and grace, twas we survive and blessed with the gift of salvation. And only because of His love and no other love that can compare, He gave His son to die on the cross and get tortured by us to save us. I can never imagine myself being able to do that.. Perhaps for my friends.. But for a bunch of people that I do not know? For a bunch of people that's killing me? And torturing Me?

Jesus indeed is the best classic example to demonstrate to us self control.. Especially in this area of anger. Jesus can be angry, but He choose not.. For the love that He has overcomes all.

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I really want to learn the spirit of love,

to tolerate circumstances,

and to forgive.

Or even in provoking situations,

to have the wisdom in solving issues with love,

not with angry words and reckless decisions.

I believe to overcome anger, is not about keeping quiet and swallowing everything into your heart.. Because that will only worsen the situation, and leading to a outbreak of resentment and bitterness at the very end. But rather, to overcome anger is to outburst in love.

For Romans 13:8 says:
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another,
for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.

No debt remains with continuing debt to love one another.

The debts that others own you in your heart through anger, will be overcome with just one debt, and that is the debt you own to others: Love. For the Lord gave the commandment of love, and all who loves God will fulfil this purpose of love in their life. Therefore, if we truely understands the meaning of love, anger will subsides. We will be reminded that God loves us all.

Like wise, we should love each other.

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God I want to have a heart that is slow to anger.

Therefore,

help me to learn your grace and love even more.

Fill me up with even more of your love,

so my thanksgiving will be even more abundant.

Help me to develop self control,

so that I'll put a muzzle over my mouth,

and a lock in my heart.

Give me wisdom to solve with love,

and not recklessness to ruin.

Father,

teach me your love,

let me experience it to a greater extend.

So may I grow strong,

in your love,

and control my anger,

to expand your kingdom.

Genesis Jorris 10:04:00 PM

currently sitting in T2055. using the school apple PC,
first time using,
too bored that's why I want to write just something for fun.

Later we're going to edmund's house.
For some time of sharing and fellowship.
NoNo.. We go jurong point first to cut edmund's hair.
most likely going MONSOON.
perhaps can knock into kelvin.

Oh tml is going to be service!
Cant wait for it..
But service means weekends is here.. and means presentation for FYP phase 2 is here.
Ahhh. First time im panicking for presenting.
sounds really weird but its true.

Usually presenting is like nothing to me..
But this time round I really want to get very very good grades.

God ah =)
Bless me ah please.

Alright... May the time later be good...
may you gives us fun, excitement, and joy!

Genesis Jorris 6:02:00 PM

Tied up.

There is a heartbeat in me about breaking free.
There is this emotion that is bittering my soul which I long to be freed from.
My Lord and Saviour, please empty me from the cage of speechless pain.

The longing in my heart is deepening.
The urgency to witness something happening.
I can't continue to sit around and do nothing.
But rather this is the time the Lord has called, to test, to mould, to strengthen.

I want to grow stronger.
I need to become smaller to serve the greater.
I want to carry more burdens on my shoulder.
No matter how tough its going to be, Im here, raising my hands up to the King.
Shouting" Lord prepare me for greater endeavours."

I have to run.
I got to move.
Can you sense the movement?
The tempo of my desire?
But yet Im tied up with hidden parts of my life.
I need to come clear with God.

Oh Lord!
Answer my screams and prayers!
Get me cleanse with your blood.. and your grace..
So may I totally concentrate on your work, not mine.
I want to put my everything to invest in you.
For nothing else matters to me anymore.
You are my all.

Genesis Jorris 12:11:00 AM

Fruitful Coreteam meet.

Today we had our Occidental coreteam Meet with Shawn, Baorun, Pooiyee and Thomas present together with me (More and more to come!).. It was a fruitful meeting as we touch on 2 mega areas:

1. Setting Goals (Till the end of January 2008)
2. Connecting Members and Bonding strong relationships among the CG

We had a great time of setting goals..
These were the results of our goals:

Total Number of Converts:
- Thomas: 5
- Baorun: 3
- Shawn: 3
- Jorris: 2
- Pooiyee: 4
- Total: 17

Total Number of Visitors:
- Thomas: 10
- Baorun: 8
- Shawn: 3
- Jorris: 4
- Pooiyee: 6
- Total: 31

Total Number of Contacts (In contact pool):
- Thomas: 3
- Baorun: 12
- Shawn: 5
- Pooiyee: 8
- Jorris: 6
- Total: 34

Im glad that the players set challenging goals for themself to hit by the end of January.. And surely I trust that God will bless these souls into the Land of Occidental! And it will means... We will have a total of 17 + 12 = 29 souls in the group! Praise the Lord!

Even right Now as Im typing this.. we're praying for this soul, runting.. That her heart will be soften by God and she will accept it when we share the gospel to her! I believe in miracles. I believe the group will expand.. And all these, for God's kingdom! Not for ourself!

Love God for Everything.

Genesis Jorris 10:04:00 PM

My heart rejoices as God stirs up the hearts of the core players.

I thank God for answering my prayers.

Allowing me to witness these young servants beginning to get fire up for God.

I thank God for relighting my passion.

The passion of evangelising and discipleship.

I thank God for my leader.

That He understands my thoughts and try his best to serve this unit.

I thank God for the church pastors.

For always serving faithfully to preach impactful sermons during service.

God blesses a fruitful dinner gathering and meeting today.

He creates opportunities for us to meet up the new believers.

And it was indeed fruitful to widen up the New Bs to the family of God.

The meeting was led well by Thomas despite its his first time..

And thanks to his child like faith and efforts,

the meeting was a success..

Objectives were met!

I truely want to continue to cling onto this joy and first love.

Never a minute losing it from my life.

God..

I want to serve you like a little child..

Putting my faith in you because there's no other that I trust but you.

I believe in impossibilities, because in my world,

you make everything possible.

God let me walk fruitfully with you. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:18:00 AM

Pinking Me.

If I were to describe my world as the sky,

It will be Pink now.

With scatters of cloud across the pink view that its giving me..

Like there's a little bit of hinderance here and there,

but nevertheless the overwhelming pinkishness still crowds my life.

God is that pink sky.

Pink symbolises excitement, love, and happiness.

Its not intense affection, like red,

His love is lighten with His grace and His comfort..

Pink last long.. You won't get sick of it.

Those clouds are testings..

My trials to prepare myself better.

It covers my beautiful pure pink sky,

but yet adds something different to the big picture..

Indeed a pure pink sky is beautiful,

but the clouds enhances the beauty of it..

Testings help me not to take God for granted..

If not for the scatters of clouds,

I will never realise how beautiful the pink sky will be.

Imagine, the whole sky is filled with only clouds,

Where will there be contrast?

Im in love with that stretch of pink.

And Im grateful for those clouds that makes me alert.

God, continue to Pink me. =)

Genesis Jorris 9:58:00 PM

Hope.

The Lord blessed the Occidental Land,
inspired the young man's soul,
answered the prayers of every night,
encourage the dry and weary land,
lifted the spirit of every one who call upon Jesus,

He gave a New soul!

Genesis Jorris 5:46:00 PM

The leadership camp have me mould me greatly.

I learnt plentiful about staying focus and determined in fulfiling my goal.

God has strengthen my heart today.
Indeed problems can never be solved. But Im determined to fight against everything in the midst of facing problems. I know in many hearts of the people there are struggles, there are doubts, there are questions. But I know in my heart I am determined to carry on everything I set in front of me without being hindered by these problems.

The satan is smart. He knows that Im emotional. He knows that I feel alot for people. He knows that Im sensitive. He knows that I tend to worry alot and get held up by them in fulfiling my goals. But God is smarter. He teach me focus. He teach me what satan is up to. He teach me to lean not on my own understandings, but on His.

I am weak. And I learn it is important to know how weak we are. So then can we let God comes in to intervene more and more! I am fired up.. I seriously dun want to delay anymore. This time I die die must do it... Not for my sake MAN! but for GOD!

Fuel me up even more JESUS =)

Genesis Jorris 9:44:00 PM

plenty of emotions flood my heart.

But I learn recently emotions can be good if you know how to control.

Perhaps I tend to get a little too emotional.

Perhaps I tend to get a little too sensitive to issues too.

But many times it turn out to be true.

What should I really do to adjust the emotions to the right channel?

Sometimes I feel like making this prayer:

God please make these emotions disappear.

But wouldn't that be even worst?

I can't feel anymore the love that is from God.

Quoting from Jen:

"You will say I think God loves me. But I dun feel it."

I dun want to lose my feelings.

I want my emotions to remain with me.

But how do I stop feeling so frustrated over them?

If only there is a manual from God that teaches how to control emotions.

I feel easily hurt by people.

With their actions, their doings, their thoughts, their objections.

I feel easily discouraged too.

But similiarly I comfort myself that this isn't true.

And I recover encouragement in seeking the Lord.

Perhaps the Lord's intention is not to leave a manual.

But for us to always come to Him when we are lost in the world of emotions.

At the end of my thoughts,

I told myself. Why am I escaping them?

I need to grow.

Im desperate for growth.

Im still so small and tiny compare the the greatness of God.

And there is an urgency for me to stretch by God to be used by Him even more powefully.

I have to do something in my life!

I need to start moving and get my engine working!

God are you there?

Help me!

No matter what it is still you that I depend.

Father I confess my sins.

I confess my blunders and wrongs.

I confess that Im always a sinner, one that only through your blood then was cleanse.

I need your forgiveness and your presence to be with me always.

Lord accept my repentance.

Forgive my horrible soul.

I want to be more like you.

I want to do great things for you in your kingdom.

use me.

Mould me.

Genesis Jorris 9:52:00 PM

Many to say.
Much to give thanks for.

Thank God for His divine servant Jen,
for blessing me with great insights through a really short one and a half hour shepherding.
Thank God for softening my heart,
to allow forgiveness of others and myself take place.
Thank God for the 8 who choose to obey God,
and be water baptised on the fateful day 07/10/07.
Thank God for my mentor Lennon,
for allowing me to learn in an unique way under his leadership.

There's so much I learnt in the past one day.

Not to say too much,
I will just describe it with one thing that Jen have described to me.

I have a third eye, my spiritual eye.
It was clouded with "eye shit" in the past few weeks.
Finally God gave me a piece of tissue paper to take it out.
Now I feel so comfortable and clean.

LOL.
This is the end!
Concluding the entire post, God is going to help me to see greater fruits and happenings!~
We will grow so strong!
=)

Genesis Jorris 12:51:00 PM

Bleed.

Many needle-like words poked,

the throbbin' stops for a minisecond,

tiny red like cells splash out,

from the bleedin' heart that screams.

It seems illusionary,

that nightmares haunt every moment,

I wonder is it the devil works,

or is it a hint that warns me to be alert.

Prompted by the spirit,

I've got to resolve this stumbling stone.

But my mind struggles intensively,

for I do not know how to?

Its painful.

Its tearing.

Though God is so strongly around to sustain my tortured body.

The only thing that I could do now is to cling onto Him.

But the issue is still killin' me.

I dun like the feeling now.

I need responses.

I need understanding.

I need answers.

I need explanation.

Will he ever cares?

God do something over here.

I hate to hate. Idiot.

Genesis Jorris 12:57:00 AM

Gossips.

Was having a long night shepherding yesterday with Joella before today,
she travel over to Johor Bahru for her mission trip.
God may you bless her with powerful experience and renew her heart for you when she returns.

We touch on the issue about gossips for most of the time and Im curious regarding it.
In fact am not very sure what exactly is gossips.

Joella says: Gossip is when you say something bad about a person.
I thought it was a little bit too generalise.
So I further my explanation in this way:

Gossips are words that attack a person in a personal way. For example, this person had failed to remember certain tasks. But you relate it in a way that this person is forgetful, stupid, blur, etc. And the highlight of gossip that makes it sinful is when your words become slander towards the victim. Whether is it true or not, it is affecting the opinion of the person listening to you.

I make it this clear because I believe sometimes we voice out areas that we are not please with certain people but that does not means we are trying to gossip about them or emphasizing on their weakness and faults. In many discussions, we may find ourself evaluating about our people then try to brainstorm solutions to their problems. Is that consider gossip already? The people involved in the discussion definitely have to indicate descriptions of the faults this person have committed. Mainly I deliver my explanation to Joella in a way that I felt only when the words are more of like a personal attack to the person and the purpose of sharing was to slander the image of the person to others, that is gossip. However in certain cases, people gossip unintentionally. So I give it further thought, and think rather than purpose of sharing was to slander, but if the sharing intentionally or unintentionallay slander the person, then it is consider gossip.

Therefore, it is very important for us to control our tongues. To prevent our tongues from causing us to sin, which is a powerful weapon the satan often used to create confusions, hatred, anger, depression, etc.

It is a double edged sword, one that can encourage and discourage at the same time.Matthew 12:33-37

Saw this verse on Barnabas's blog, and felt it exactly describe what I wanted to deliver about the power of our tongues. If only all of us, learn how to use it in the godly way, then will God's kingdom grow even more powerfully.

Therefore people, be very careful durin your conversations in your everyday life. Always think before you speak. It is too often that a person will say the wrong things and they regret very soon after that. Always speak with love, putting others benefit right there in your mind everytime you talk. If everyone could keep this in mind, then gossips will not result in misunderstandings towards people in this world.. If only people learn to affirm one another, then will more people be propel to work better and more effectively because they have the support of one another.

Recently I saw a email..

A holy man was having a conversation with the Lord one day and said,
'Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.'
The Lord led the holy man to two doors.
He opened one of the doors and the holy man looked in.
In the middle of the room was a large round table.
In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew,
which smelled delicious and made the holy man's mouth water.
The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly.
They appeared to be famished.
They were holding spoons with very long handles that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful.
But because the handle was longer than their arms,
they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.
The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering.
The Lord said, 'You have seen Hell.'

They went to the next room and opened the door.
It was exactly the same as the first one.
There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water.
The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons,
but here the people were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking.
The holy man said, 'I don't understand.'
It is simple,' said the Lord. 'It requires but one skill.
You see they have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of themselves.'

It makes alot of sense to me.
Do you agree?
Do tell me about it if you have anything to share..
Let's remember to love one another, with our tongues in this case.
For gossips are simply something that the satan use as a bait to open our mouth,
cause us to slander each other with remarks.
If we learn to love,
put one another in our mind before we speak anything,
then gossip no longer pose a threat on us.
Amen.

Genesis Jorris 3:43:00 PM

Time is losing.
There's a need for urgency.
Could you feel the intensity?
Are you following the same momentum?
Are you equally desperate for growth?
And God to lay His hands on us?

I hope you are..
In fact Im so tie up with the schedules that I nearly felt out of breath.
The load and burden is gettin its toil on me.
But nevertheless, Im still holding on strong.
Because God's strength is here to sustain me and hold me up throughout.
I hope those out there..
If ever you felt weak and impossible in your service to God,
just simply the perseverance is enough.
Because clinging on to God will draw everything you need to you from Him.
He will give sparingly when you ask.
May this encourage those who are currently facing a trial in the kingdom of God!

Today's coreteam meet was great to see new people..
Thomas..
I believe he is one who wanted to pursue after God..
But there's still much to learn and grow..
God may you help this young man here to develop into a great servant of yours.
Pooiyee and John was not here due to eye problem and work..
Hope to see them around soon again!
Edmund is the burden of my heart..
The fyp have been stretching him away from many meetings, CGs, services..
May the Lord restore Him back into His community.

We need to do something.
We have to get moving.
We have to step out of that comfort zone.
We have to contribute to the Lord!
Let's serve with no regrets!
Serve without any hold back!

Genesis Jorris 7:26:00 PM

On one moment I was so amazed and pump up,
on the other I feel fallen and so wear out.

I believe those who are around me in my group must have felt the intensity of working with me.
I thank God for you guys who still hold tight to the momentum despite it is stressing.
The new semester is really short, meaning the pressure level from academics will increase.
All the more it means hardwork if we were to continue maintain our service to God!

Indeed just this 2 weeks have got it's toil on me.
Im beginning to feel the strain on my physical body.
I have nauseous feeling, like I wanted to vomit but nothing came out.
My heart often feel sudden piercing pain like someone squeezes it tightly in his palm.
Im gettin blur vision.
I yawn everywhere I go.
I experience breathing difficulties.
Can anybody tell me what's wrong with my body?
I think I need to take a break and let the temple of God undergoes some repairment.

I know that its not going to be that easy when I ask for more challenges for God.
He raises us up in momentum, definitely He's not going to leave it that way.
He will gives us problems, more of it, so as to test our ability to overcome them.
He will draw away people's heart, to test our faith in coming to Him.
He will creates miscommunication and confusion, to test the trust among us.
He will cause taxing thoughts in our minds, so we'll have headaches and be troubled.

Let not my heart be troubled!
I believe with perseverance things like that will be over.
We Occidentalists will pull through the toughest time because we have the toughest God.
The one and only tough God.
We shall put our faith in Jesus, and ask for more of His strength.

May God give Baorun strength and joy in everything she do.
May God bless Pooi Yee a greater burden and maturity and heal her eyes.
May God anoint Shawn with greater committment and vision of his life.
May God draws Santono nearer to Him each day.
May God brings Edmund back into His arms again.
May God expand Jeremy desire to experience Him more.
May God stretch Thomas in His heart for people and the kingdom.
May God drop a seed of serving Him in Evan's heart.
May God enlighten Brian His importance in his life.
May God return Geok Hian back into the chosen community.
May God raise Pearlin to greater purpose everywhere she goes.
May God priortise Himself in John's schedule and top lists.
May God help Jason to blend in better with the group.
May God grant me a successor.

Genesis Jorris 11:41:00 PM

Amazed.

Im amazed recently at how God use me to help His people. Indeed obeying the Holy Spirit prompting is always the best decision we can ever make.. The experience currently am having with God is totally indescribable. I can only say I never expected God to be able to use me in this way.. And Im giving all credit back to God for every successful meeting, every successful counselling, every successful fellowship, every successful decision.. It is the wisdom that He anoints, the direction that He has given, the grace and mercy that He has flowed, the leadership that He has blessed. Without the Lord, I am nothing. With Him, I trust that I could move mountains and open seas.

Im praying for greater breakthrough... For myself to experience greater challenges.. And witness more things that is impossible to become possible.. Recently I feel a strong flow of anointing from God through me in the area of prophecy and discernment.. And Im making a prayer now for God to give me greater discovery of this 2 gifts. I want to be fully equipped in these areas so as to serve His people even greater.. It is not for my glory and purpose, but to fulfil His purpose through my life.. I really wanted these not for myself, but for the group that by God's grace He anoint me as the leader.

I wanted to make my life as an offering of worship to God.
These few weeks I've been indulging myself in thanksgiving.. And this word is so precious to me.
Giving thanks to God is what I delight the most.. And something that I'll do everyday of my life. He gave me all these, He's the reason for everything that I do.. What else is more important than giving thanks to the Holy one?

I want to be stretch by God for greater purpose to be done.
I want to make the prayer of Elisha so that I can give full credit to God when I give all my hard work for Him.
I want to develop my talents, abilities and giftings so that I could be more useful in God's kingdom.
I want to lead the group into the promise land.
I want to be burden for the group forever. Because the grieve although is excruciating, but its worth it to give my entire emotion and heart for them.
I want to maintain this feeling like I've fallen in love for the first time with God.

May God continue to strengthen me. I love Him.

Genesis Jorris 9:50:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak