.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

God gave me a beautiful moon today.
Thank you.

That was really pretty. The view was magnificent.
And I happen to be at a really suitable place for viewing that beautiful moon.
You know what?
It was full moon. Bright and clear. The sky was without any clouds. meaning the moon will not be blocked. And surrounding the moon, there was rainbow! At night somemore.
I was completely mesmerized by it.
And along the time we practise praise and worship. The moon accompanies me.
How sweet.
It felt like God was next to me, during that particular time.
I actually realise, I was totally on a different frequency.
Enjoying that beautiful lala land God sent me to just now.

But anyway, something about my day.
Went over to help out the praise & worship team.
There is one thing that strikes me again.
Hmmm. The communication between me and certain people have to be upped.
Coordination can't seems to work at all.
Am I too demanding or is it, its two different people working at different pace.
But anyway it doesn't matters much.
It ends off pretty well.
With a fun praise. And a complete worship song.
I Pray for jeremy Q, that He will be able to make it for the worship song!
If not dun worry, I'll take over the guitarist part. =)

Tomorrow is mission conference.
I delights to learn something more.
God grant me a clear mind so may I absorb!
And God bless tomorrow caregroup to be a fruitful one!
Let everything that we plan, come to a pass.
I pray, everything to be smooth, and spirit-filled.
Loves.

Night people. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:54:00 AM

A Big Heart.

I long for that.
No bitterness.
No grudges.
No jealousy.
No hatred.
No gossiping.
No backstabbing.
No despise.
No cold wars.
No fights.
No quarrels.

Rather.
There will be Love.
Will be fun.
Will be patience.
Will be care and concern.
Will be acceptance.
Will be open.
Will be there for each other in tough times.
Will be frank.
Will be keeping each other in prayers.
Will be gentle.
Will be relating.

God grant me a BIG HEART.
For your community.
A BIG HEART to love your people.
EVERYONE of them.

All I want, is to love, that's all.

Genesis Jorris 11:10:00 PM

Surrendering to God is more than just saying it.
It takes time, to give your life to Him.

You may say: I want to offer my life fully to Jesus. But on the other, you may not be able to do it.

I've receive Him into my life for 1 year, 10 months i think. Been through alot despite it had been a really short time. Rising out from my old and comfortable lifestyle. Going through tests and trials. Depressing and dry periods in the unit. Rising up as a leader. Taking up more burdens. Experiencing transformation. Changing my pespectives. Learning. Growing.

I still can't say, I could fully surrender my life to Him. Sometimes, people tend to forget God as their number 1 priority. But of course.. I will say, and share, my experience in how He mould me through His greatness. Which makes me even more eager to surrender to Him. He is mighty to save. He is great. He is awesome. And all these, have swallow me totally.

The more I lead my life closely with Him, the more Im amazed. There's never a day I will stop, and say He no longer amazes me. Because he will, and will still amazes me everyday, for eternity. God had been majestic in my life. He's a king. He's a saviour. And most importantly, He's my Lord. He's not just someone who died on the cross and save my life from eternal death. But He is the one that rules my life, the one that Lord over me, the one that makes me willingly say I want to serve you with all my life.

I long for a day where I could fully surrender my everything to Him. Father train and mould me to become that person. That person you want me to be. I want to continue to build up a big heart for His people, to love them, to have patience on them, to correct them, to be kind to them, to appreciate them, to affirm them, to be there for them, to guide them, to lead them. I want to claim that promise you make to me my Lord. I want to rise up and take up a greater burden for you Lord. I believe Im ready for your calling. So God send me, and I will go. Lead me to your plans in the place you planted me within, and I will follow.

I love you, Jesus.

Genesis Jorris 2:48:00 PM

Recently many things happen.
Many things I've got to learn.
Many things that strikes me in my heart.
I feel suffocated.
I feel like Im one of the few left on earth, waiting to be destructed.
There's no sources of food to survive.
The air is choked with thick layers of smoke. I can't even breathe.
The people around are all fighting for survival. Nobody cares whether you live.
The place is horribly destroyed. There's nothing pleasant to look at.
It was worse than death.
I feel like giving up my life.
Then I do not have to suffer in this world, which is coming to an end very soon.
It feel so dry inside.
Yet my heart is dry, but still Im singing.

God no matter how tough it is I will never give up on you.
There's no giving up for me.
Because you reminded me, my focus is on you, and not on these problems.
And whenever I remember this, and come back to you, everything that was hopeless before was filled with hope once again.
You are my source of hope, strength, power and love.
You are my source of life. The reason why I live till today.
If not, What's the purpose of my life? If it's not you, then who?

Discouragement keeps coming in. Even from people who I respect. From people who I Love.
Im trying hard, but not good enough. I never want it to be like that.
I want to be better, do my best. But I can't seems to be able to fathom, what exactly is my best?
What exactly is their best?
If one day I did this level of my best, but another day it was said it is not the best?
Dryness in the Land continue to spread.
Why is this happening?
If only Lord, you will reveal, reveal to us why the harvest is not pouring down sparingly?
What is wrong with the heart of the souls here?
Have we not work hard enough?
Have we not led a holy and pleasing life?
Tell us Lord, tell us. So may we learn, we change, we claim your promise again.

Harvest day approaching, and bit by bit its leaving.
Father not let us bypass this harvest again.
Father Lord not let this tough time continue to strikes in the hearts of the weak.
Father please grant us this favour, help us to claim your harvest!
Enlighten those who have not understand!
Help all of us to experience greater.. your Love. Including those who have not known you!
Help all to understand who you really is. That you are indeed real.
Truely a real God.
Father I want to reap from this harvest!
I do not want a dry land all the time. I want to do my best to reap.
To sow the land.
To plow the soil, and plant the seed.
Help me Lord, I do not want to be too Late!
Make a Miracle.
Make me a Miracle Maker. For you.

Genesis Jorris 5:20:00 PM

I Love:

family
church
brothers
sisters
my dog, kiki
my shepherd
my tertiary pastor
myself
food
excitement
singing
free time
listening to songs
movies (nice ones)
rest
healthy body

But i want to love more. Love even more people. Accepting their strength and weakness together. Blessing them with a wholesome heart all together. I want to have a big heart for God. A big heart to contain greater of His kingdom in me.

Awaitin. Anticipatin. For He to answer me. He will, definitely.

Was quite frustrated and annoyed recently due to my weak soul. Which was weaken further by my sickness. Fumes overwhelm me easily and I get easily emotional. Angry. Sensitive. Jealous. Suspicious. Everything. But Thank God when I take a rest, He make a way out for me by inspiring me with His words and further Affirmation from people I didn't expect from. He's great alright.

God. Gear me stronger, with a strengthen body and mind to continue to fight this battle for you in this caregroup! OCCIDENTAL! Let's charge!

Genesis Jorris 12:33:00 AM

Genesis Jorris 4:39:00 PM

Didn't go school today.
Reason: Sick. And Mum is sick too. Somemore she's sick for 3 days.
Wanna stay at home to catch a rest.. And also take care of her.

Hmmm. Studies.. Got to buck up!
Must take pride in it.
God discipline me.
Sorry for not giving my best all the time.

service coming.
Leader's meet coming.
Anticipating it. yet seems like something is missing.
Holyspirit prompted me: Im still not doing enough.
God what else can I do more?
What else have I not given out to you?
I want to give. All of me.
Yet still some parts of me Im unwilling. And I do not know.
Remind me Lord. Perhaps I know. But i kept my ears close from knowing them.

Father expand my territory.
Expand my leadership boundaries.
I want to soar Higher in your leadership arena.
To have a greater burden.
My heart, is burden, for them.
I know this burden, is given by you.
And Lord, therefore I pray let my burden continue to increase.
Please, father.

And heal me.
Heal my Mum.
Heal Evan's mum.
Heal all who are sick.
In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.

Genesis Jorris 4:22:00 PM

Today we had combined caregroup.
Been a long time since I ever have combine caregroup and am taking up roles.
Was really excited to usher the people into God's presence.

The praise was quite a disaster.. Cause I overlook the fact the people might not get used to the change of key. But it was encouraging to see the people trying to sing their best to bring praises to God. I fix my eyes on God at that moment. And felt the spirit filled up in my heart. I know, God is going to do something through worship.

And I know the praise, He heard our heart. Not the voices or the music.
He heard beautiful voices instead.

The worship.
I sing, and the lyrics flow through my mind. Vividly.
I was so clear, of everything that Im singing to the Lord.
Every single word, I want to mean it when I sing.
And that's where it begins: The empowerment.

He put word into my mouth.
I claim back the time back then in the unit, where he empower me as a P&W Leader.
I could feel so strongly His presence all around me.
I want to pray.
Pray continuously.
Not to stop.. I wanted to pray my conviction and spread it open to the people on the floor.
He continue to fill me up with prayers.
With more words, to speak to the people.
With greater stamina, to continue the session.
I believe strongly. It was the Lord. It is Him who have empowered me.
It is Him who wants to speak to His people.

Will you go to the ends of the earth for Him? He said.
Is those small little things you do in your life, pleasing in my eyes? He take note of them.
Have you offer your life fully to me? He prompted.
Will you give your life to me Now? He gave us the chance.

Im Willing my Lord. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:55:00 AM

Have a burden to lift the standards of praising and worshipping God in Caregroup and Unit boundaries. Not as in, having better music, better vocalists, better supporting singers, better songs, better amplifier, better guitar, better place for worship.. But, a better heart to Praise God.

A heart that longs to praise God.
A pure heart that sing for God.
The desire to worship His greatness.

That's my burden. To bring the people to praise and worship him freely even in circumstances whereby the P&W team may not be fantastic or good.. Everyone, will joyfully sing out loud to God because their focus is not the form, but on God. They will fix their eyes on the Lord in every session of praise and worship. And there in the midst of the music, they will dwell in God's presence and experience Him strongly. Because God is there whereever there are praises.

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My heart is burdened over for him too.
Lord I pray day and night for you to bring him through this.
Nobody knows this better than you do.
But Lord not let my heart attitudes hinder the prayer.
Because it is my heart, not his.
Father I know his heart is smashed.
Please Lord comfort his soul.
Let him know you are there to listen, and wipe his tears off.
Bring him through this please my king!

I hope I do not fail you my king.
Love.

Genesis Jorris 11:58:00 PM

Some memories over at Edmund house.

Genesis Jorris 1:16:00 AM

The Lord drop this phrase in my heart and make me ponder over it.
Yes indeed i totally agree that the harvest is indeed plentiful.
There's lot to sow, and bring out the essence of the crops.
Many out there in this land, are still blind and deaf to the truth.

What exactly is Harvest?
Bringing these lost souls back to the kingdom of God?
Back to the comfort and warmth of Jesus's love?
Or is harvest simply a self satisfaction. Simply a personal accomplishment.
A harvest is simply a count of numbers to you.

If one do not have a clear stand of what exactly is harvest in their heart.
Then one would never claim the harvest wherever he goes.
Because the Lord can't bless him with the harvest that's plentiful.
The harvest will only comes to those that sow for the right reason.
For the sake of fulfiling his great commission.

And the desire?
Where's the desire to witness harvest.
Where's the holy discontentment in your heart screaming for harvest to come.
One who do not ask, and seek, will definitely not find it there.
Its like traffic. Its two way. You can't expect God to bless harvest abundantly where as you do nothing.
You need to pray earnestly from him to anoint you to claim the harvest.
You need to give in your deem efforts to witness fruits of the harvest coming in.

Yet the thing that strikes me the most is when the Lord tells me: The workers are few..
What exactly is workers?
Is it that when he speaks, the workers are few, he was refering to the number?
The quantity? Perhaps not. But rather, I believe the Lord is trying to say.. The desire are few.
There may be 30 coreteams for example, but if only 1 commit his heart, then the other 29 do you think is consider as workers?
You may work with your hands in this world. But you work with your heart in God's world.
Your heart, is your hands in God's world.
I feel such a strong stirring in my heart to win people to work for the Lord with their heart.
With me as his instrument.
Use me as his ambassador.
As a testimony that when we commit ourself to God, he will not shortgive us.
As a truth to all believers, that it is not impossible to give your life fully to God.

Though im not perfect.
And truely Im not any superior than anybody.
We are all equal.
We are all God's creations.
Yet with my willing heart, I simply ask for God to use me fully.
If ever I did not do perfectly.
I will continue to try my best.

Once again.
The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few.
My one last question is: Who is working with me? Harvest is coming.

Let's have the urgency not to delay.
Come and work with me in God's kingdom. He prepared the harvest abundantly.
All we need is a heart to plant the seed, sow the seed.

Thank GOd for His knowledge.

Genesis Jorris 11:47:00 PM

Seriously Im being more and more amazed everyday by God's work in my life.
It is so evident in every specific area he is empowering me.
Praise the Lord for this.
Sometimes I may wonder if he continue to amaze me at this rate, I might get a heart attack.
Laughs. Just joking. Though I heard of stories of people seeing the image of the angels of God, fainting and feeling weak throughout the entire body because of the holiness that is too amazing.

Had shepherding with Joella just now.. Im really glad to see her walking closely with God.
Joella! In this time of picking back all the lost time, cling on strong and dun give up!
Will always be there as a support for you, as your shepherd, as your friend, as your listener. =)
Was sharing our encounters with God recently in our quiet time.
And I was eager to share to her regarding how much I learnt about anticipating from your prayer.
And how God eagerly answered my prayer.
The Highlight is: Dun pray and forget your prayer. Pray and remember it. So then will you know God actually answered your prayer. Cause you never know how long its going to take, a month, 3 months, 1 year, or many years. But surely God will give you an answer.

Sharing many testimonies with her too.
Because I can't contain all the good news in me! Ha.
And she in turn shared about her different experience with God and her growth.
Im so happy for her, that she is moving on to the next phase of her spiritual walk.
And Im even more glad to witness more of God's work in people lives.
Today I am really very hungry.. The fast is getting its toil on me.
But I will not give this up.
Im doing this not for myself, but for God's sake.
Yes, for everything but not for me.
So all the more I will cling on to the promise behind this fast for Him.

God strengthen me and take away the hunger and temptations.
And help me too to straighten my thoughts and emotions.

Giving thanks..
And still can't stop praising you. =)

GenJ.

Genesis Jorris 11:55:00 PM

Today was another fruitful day blessed by the Lord upon our group and the eastraelites.
It was a relaxing, fun and cool day for a matthew dinner together, chill out.
Initially there's gonna be 2 contacts only, wanting and my dear shiyun joining us..
Soon in the afternoon, wanting back out due to a last minute family dinner plan!
I was kinda despondent upon receiving the news.. Wondering.. WHY!

But didn't gave up. I tried to kept my mood strong so that I will be focused during my FYP discussion with the Meiji boss regarding the supplements we wanted to market on.
The entire discussion was great, manage to contribute my questions and attention during the session, and I hope it did impress the manager and my lecturer. I really want to do well in my FYP, after all the ITP was seriously bad. Manage to absorb most of the information during the talk together.. And I seriously hope our group will do very well in the project. God give us your coverage in this!

it continues to slacking around and mixing with our contacts and fellow brothers/sisters. Met up with brian and Gordon first, then the others. Oh my my.. Some things are still bothering me in my heart. God you got to restrict me and help me. Anyway back to the topic, when reached FC4, God was good. He blesses us with a new contact today call laiting! She's friend of wanting.. and joining us for dinner.. I praised God at that moment, being glad that at least today's sowing is not going to be wastful.. The group bonded and chatted like a bunch of great friends.. But seriously felt the time could be improve by doing something rather than just slacking around. hmm, God i'll be more effective next time! Forgive me for not being all rounded this time round.

The rest unable to take their hungry stomach, left me and baorun alone waiting for shiyun. Ha, actually wanted to leave and just ask shiyun to come and find us herself.. But felt, Nope! I shouldn't do that.. So, make the best decision at that circumstance.. which is to get them leaving with the contacts at present, and wait for the rest of the contact(s) to come! And guess what.. God will never fail me =) Shiyun came with another 2 guys, tyler and Alan! Ha.. Though know who is tyler, but yet know him well.. But through today it was a good time of mixing around together. Alan was a seriously funny man i tell ya.. Overall, all of them were really responsive! Thank God for the responsive souls you bless the unit.

Had a good time chatting with shiyun too.. we open up our hearts to each other. I believe its a really good start. We develop great trust for each other! Im glad to get to know her too.. she's a great pal.. and kinda similar to me.. really. God! Please save tis dear sister over here! Touch her heart and use me to speak your holy words into her ears.. Let her listen. Let her see.

Alright.. I'll stop here... God, you know what? I love you!

Genesis Jorris 12:27:00 AM

The Priss

Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

Your exact opposite:
The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Its damn funny, but a portion of it is kinda true. Take this test result as a leisure k! Dun take it seriously.

Genesis Jorris 11:58:00 PM

Today a question came across my mind.
I was thinking.. If one approach the throne of God, to seek for His forgiveness everytime he sinned, and the Lord will always forgive those who sincerely seeks, then wouldn't it become in a way we could simply sin as much as we want and after that repent? Afterall.. It won't be too late.

Then what's the use of repenting? Then where's the attitude of remorse?
Is that still consider sincerity? Then those who try their best to discipline their life, in comparison to those who sin and then repent, isn't both groups the same?

Often we did many things that are not good.. We sinned. We disobeyed the Holy Spirit. Even though we know its not going to benefit us and it is not what God want us to do, we still go ahead with our own decisions and ignore God's advice. And when we realise, we simply make a little prayer, expressed our repentance, and God will grant His forgiveness upon us. His grace is that amazing isn't it? Despite we failed Him times and times again.. But His love and patience will always be there for us.

Speaking this deep from my heart.. I do not want to be just another follower of yours that take your grace for granted. I do not want to simply sin, and soon after that make a little prayer as a significance of my repentance. Taking advantage of your love for me. No, I want to love you like the way you love me too. Though I know I could never in my lifetime outlove you. Father, whenever there are times Im going to fail you with this weak human nature of mine, I repent beforehand that I have disobeyed your Holy Spirit and give thanks to you for forgiving me once again. Lord please help me to lead my life as holy and pleasing as possible, so may I be a good and faithful servant in your eyes. I do not want to lead my life just like that, but I want to really be sincere when I say, I want to be your servant. Not a slacking servant, not a rebellious servant, but one who is disciplined and teachable.

God your grace still amazes me, and will always amaze me, forever.

Genesis Jorris 10:27:00 PM

Feeling God's blessings pouring sparingly upon me. Thank you my Provider.

Testimony #1:
Was actually late for more than ten minutes for my lecture, BA0400, Business Law.
Seriously was like thinking what am I got to do this time, what excuse could I give to the lecturer!
At that moment, a rebellious thought came into my mind.
Just simply skip the lecture, it doesn't matters. Its only the 4th week.
But immediately, Holy Spirit rebuke that thought in my mind.
Where is your spirit of excellence? Where is your determination to do well in your studies and glorify God in your academics?
So I throw that rebellious thought out of my mind. And just walk straight into the lecture hall.
(Thinking, God ah, Im doing this for you ah!)
And when I get in, I realise, the lecturer wasn't there!
He was even later than me you see. Laughs.
So immediately after I settle down on my seat, He walk in and apologize.
Thank God for making a way out for me!

Testimony #2:
During my devotion to the Lord last night, God show me a verse that strikes my heart.
Proverbs 10: 4 -5
4 Lazy hands make a man poor,
but diligent hands bring wealth.
5 He who gathers crops in summer is a wise son,
but he who sleeps during harvest is a disgraceful son.
He speaks to me in regards about whether have me, and my coreteam step out of our comfort zone yet..
We speak about doing our best, we speak about being out of our comfort zone, but did we do what we speak of?
God longs to bless us the harvest, but we need to work in order to collect it.
Therefore I truely wanted to set my heart to be excellent in everything I do.
Give my best to the Lord, though I know my heart is weak.
Therefore I make this fast from all food except fruits for the entire month, to ask from God earnestly because I believe he can bring about a life transforming miracle in return to my prayer.
I want to fight all the way in the battle and harvest to win the souls and blessings upon the land.
And guess what? With that thought in mind, God assures me and double confirm me with this song: God is the strength of my heart by Don Moen.
I was seriously surprised when I heard it the moment I switch on my Ipod along the way to SP.
My eyes was filled with tears somehow, because Im touched by God.
And I believe it was what God wants to speak to my core team too.
To wake them up from their sleep, alarm them with a signal that its time to gather crops!
The core team meet today turn up really fruitful as I shared the verse to them..
Although it was not planned to have the meeting today. But it just so happen holy spirit prompted me to have it during that time, and prompted me to share the verse.
God was directing me all throughout. He answered my another prayer to ask of him to show me how to lead His people. Praise Him.

Testimony #3:
Today I push myself once again to go for the report writing module tutorial.. Which is seriously a module that I do not delight in attending. But I do not want to continue in my mistakes.
I got to work hard and strive for excellence in my attendance and grades!
At first it was kinda embarrassing to face the lecturer because she keep asking me am I okay a not?
Cause I was not there for tutorial last week. I just try hard to cut the conversation short!
Seriously felt like leaving the room at that point of time because I can't connect to the class.
But No.. I just want to do my best in this. Come on, just another 2 more hours!
SO soon my group mates came in.. And somehow or rather, things were quite good and smooth.
We were able to work quite well and chat about stuffs.. Talk some crap. It wasn't so tough afterall.
Thank God, because I believe he work somehow over there. He saw my heart =)
At the end of the lesson, manage to talk quite alot with two of them in the class and I foresee a better day coming!
I learn that somehow.. Things are not as bad as you think. Perhaps it is, but trust in the Lord, and He can make a difference.

Testimony #4:
ha, this happen at the end of our core team meet today..
As we come to an end of our sharing and discussion in regards to evax n sowing..
Shawn brought up the issue that He felt he's gonna be sick again tomorrow.
Immediately on the spot, holy spirit prompted me to ask Him: Do you believe God can heal you?
So I obeyed, and asked Him! He answered firmly.. I believe.
My heart had an urge to pray for him and the occidental.. So we join hands, and pray strongly.
As I was praying.. I felt a strong heat against my face and my neck. An intense heat that keeps coming and raising.
I don't stop praying.. I continue to pray, pray for God to restore health. For God to strengthen our faith. For God to direct us. For God to give us to effort and determination to serve. For God to help us live our life to the fullest. For God to pour His blessings upon. I pray again n again.
And finally, pray in the name of Jesus, Amen.
At the end of the prayer.. I was asking them, do you guys feel intense heat just now?
John raised His hand.. And shared.. He saw a vision just now.
He saw us in that circle, and a cross on fire in the centre.
He felt the intense Heat too, that explain mine too.
I was amazed.. What is God trying to tell us? What does that means?
In my heart, first thing that filled me up is, God was there with us in that prayer. Listening.
Fire? Cross? A sign to show let's burn for Jesus?
Occidental will burn for God?
I believe all who was present were encouraged by this vision.
Thank you God.. I believe we al long to burn for you!

Testimony #5:
Not long after I reach home.. Suddenly this guy, call ah xiang, my last time online buddy nudge me on messenger.
He was a long time friend of mine, and used to be like my younger brother.
And we just started to talk, and he told me he's right now studying in SP year 1!
Praise the Lord.. Out of nothing, this guy approach me, and we're going to meet up soon to catch up.
I believe it was definitely not an accident, but everything is within God's plan.
It must be within His plan for this little boy, ah xiang to somehow remember me and now we get back into contact.
God use me use me to touch this young brother life! Use me to share your gospel and make an impact in him!
Praise God for this responsive soul you draw to my side.

Testimony #6:
Was supposed to meet Baorun tomorrow for shepherding.. But just so happens she got to have project meeting at around 1pm and I got to have project meeting at around 4.. The time totally clashes.
But NO my Lord we just want to be more efficient in spending our time for you!
So you guess what happen? God somehow make a way for us... and even more chances for us to spend our time better for Him!
Instead of just shepherding.. I could meet up baorun at 12 noon to get to know 2 - 3 of her contacts over meal! After which she could go and have her project.. where as I could join the guys in evax! Then after that I could meet her for shepherding.. Because just as I was troubled over that fact, my group mate sms me to tell me tomorrow meeting is cancel!
Haha. Praise God for making such a perfect way for us tomorrow!
I believe somehow.. When your heart attitude is right for God, nothing will be impossible so long you hope and pray for it!

Give thanks to God for everything. More to come tomorrow!
=)

Genesis Jorris 12:11:00 AM

Felt like going to the beach,
book the beach,
make sure nobody is around except for one or two best pal,
and shout like nobody business.

Much to vent,
but little to express in words.
Sometimes certain things when you felt like saying,
the person is not there to listen.
When people lent you their ears,
you do not know what to say anymore.

That's how life is man.

Facing so many issues in one moment is taxing on me.
Its draining my energy both physically and spiritually.
My stomach is screaming and Im feeling weak as I continue in my no-food fast.
The family misunderstandings keep throwing metal balls against my head,
its painful.

Im already weak, yet situations continue to weaken me more.
What to do?
God you told me with that song: you are the strength of my heart.
That's why Im still holding on till now.
I believe you will give me whatever I need to pull through the tough times.
Because only tough people last!

Let me hold on strong for the next 3 weeks in this fast.
No food.
Only fruits.
And all for the sake you will answer that prayer to heal her.
All for the sake that my family will unite.
All for the sake that people of Occidental will learn to grow strong and stable.
All for the sake that the harvest will be claimed.

I do not ask much for your blessings to be upon me.
I believe your love is the greatest blessing for me already.
So bless the people around,
and the only thing I ask for,
will be to give me discipline and strong determination to complete my fast,
so may my joy be complete.

praying earnestly,
with Love to God my Lord.

Genesis Jorris 1:45:00 PM

Tears.

Its like pouring everything out of the bag.
In a mess.
But in my cries, I found comfort.

I know trusting in the Lord, I will find my refuge and shelter.
No matter how tough the time is,
no matter what amount of testings come,
He will bring me through.

Today I walked around the Business park searching for ACER companies building.
Along the way, God speaks alot to me.
I do not know why, I chose to went and walk around instead of going home straight.
But I just went, just as the holy spirit prompts.
Praise and worship songs ring in my ears as I stroll through with my Ipod.
It was sweet to listen to songs that sing about God's goodness.
Before the walk, my mind was confused and corrupted.
But He completely empty it and gave me peace as I just continue to walk aimlessly.

As my stamina runs out.. And I still could not find the location,
I get kinda frustrated again.
But I just ask God.. Please! Dun let my walk get futile.
Then I turn, and I saw this big word written on top of the building opposite me: ACER.
Thank God so much.
But when I reach there.. Its already closed.
Will have to go there tomorrow again, before 5pm.

Then I walk all the way back from International Business Park back home..
Along the way I was wondering, how come God make me walk such a long way.
Just to give me peace in my heart? Or something is going to come.
I walk, and sang praise and worship to God.
Singing. And suddenly prompted to pray in the holy spirit.
Not long after, I receive a call, and a news cause me to fall apart.
I prayed..
In my tongue.
Non stop. My tears coming out.
I continue to pray.
Non stop.

Father.. I know its not an accident.
Its within your will.
I will never be able to fathom your plans.
But I can pray to you.
Please Lord I ask of a favour from you,
to heal this dear person that have not come to know you.
Lord drop a miracle in their heart.

Pray, non stop.
Because that's all we can do.
And when you answer,
we rejoice.
And not only physically her life be saved,
but many others will too be saved.

Because you will save them from their eternal death.

Father please. Heal. heal.
You must Heal!
you can heal!
you will heal!
Please Heal.

GenJ.

Genesis Jorris 11:11:00 PM

During service this week.. I learnt to praise and worship God just for the sake of worshipping Him, and not because of the music.. The P&W was kinda off the track.. But somehow or rather.. When I really wanted to exalt God for His greatness in my life, all these doesn't matters.. Its not the music, its not the singers, its not whether the P&W team can deliver the song well, its not about whether their voices are good.. Its not about whether the musicians managed to grab the groove a not.. Its about God. And that's as simple as it is.

I gave all my voice to Him.. I sang out loud and mean every single word in the lyrics. God is my emmanuel. He is Holy. He is my everything. The sermon was quite hard to understand, due to the fact of the slang from this melbourne guest speaker, Pastor wilson.. But his preaching was good.. And I learnt especially this point: When God sometimes wanted to talk to you, you often shun him away because you are doing something else.. Such as, watching soccer? Daydreaming? Playing PS2? Seriously.. I need to give my time to God. Not just the spare time, but even during the time when Im busy doing something.. I need to be ready all the time to receive Him to speak in me even when Im packed with other stuffs. Because He is my PRIORITY.

We had no visitors for occidental today.. As I was pondering over the fact.. Is it because we still haven't gave our best? YES. Its true.. We are still putting ourself in our comfort zone.. God! Give me the discipline so may I lead them out of their comfort zone and fight intensively for the harvest! We pray and fast earnestly to you, our Lord and King. I must push my self to the limits.. Beyond the limits.. Far beyond wad that is possible.. So then the Lord will bring me through the impossible. Father I trust you in this! Now its my turn to make all my effort! Please push me through! Give me all the testings... Even if I've got to go through tough times of emotions like Job, serious temptations like David.. Im not afraid. Because I really want to go through them and make them coem to a pass! Help me!

These few days. I've been crying. Crying over the fact why I still could not lead my core team with me and fight all the way. Crying over the fact why we have not been getting regular visitors. Father... my heart is torn over the fact why we can't make miracles happen in the heart of those lost souls out there.. Its bleeding over the fact why I am such a lowly sinner and so lack of abilities to serve you better. I am nothing when compare to you. I felt so low. So nothing. So rubbish. Crying because Im really such a good for nothing! But I know yet despite all these.. You were always there for me. You never forsake me. You always love me. And that's another reason why Im crying. Crying because Im touched by your grace for me. Thank you God. May my tears all resolve to strength for me to continue and fight for your kingdom to be reunite in this world very soon.

Love my father.
GenJ.

Genesis Jorris 12:38:00 AM

Oh my Goodness.

Im kinda crazy over that IDIOT right now.
arrgghh.

Oh please.

Retarded ME. How can I!
Why does it happen.. and it must be that two IDIOT.

alright. Shhhhh.

Quiet all. Let it leave itself. Please.

Genesis Jorris 12:58:00 AM

Mood swings in my heart.
Not sure why it is happening.
Perhaps because somebody is blue.

Everything he indicates or talk about makes a big impact in my heart. Cause i take him really serious and really important. Though i not know whether is it like that vice versa. God ah! Heal his heart so that mine will be healed too. And curb my brain from running too fast. Sometimes it get irritating when i do not have the stamina to let it run so far.

Furthermore. More tests of yours come into my life at a tough period like this.

God, could I really overcome this test?
I knew this will come sooner or later. But i didn't expect it to come at this time.
Phew~ Gonna be a really tough period for me this month.
And furthermore this 2 person, is not just any sudden charm alright. I've know them for years.
Both had been my great pals all along.
And now you drop this seed in me.
bad seed bad seed.

Holding on to my focus!!! Not let me drop into that whirlpool alright. Holy Spirit please whisper to me when my mind and heart wander to the wrong arena. Remember to tell me to return backhome.

Arrgghh. The mood is getting bad. Like clouds gathering together. Then rain gonna be heavy. Better don't let anybody mess with me at this period of time. Felt like letting loose my mind, and let it run wild. But I can't. Cause Im afraid I'll get lost and never return. But anyway, no point thinking over all that stuffs. Im glad Im focusing now to serve God and his people. I look forward to what will happen next in SP2. And stupid satan! Dun try to use that lovey dovey thing to trap me! I won't get trick by your stuns. its too retarded.

God. Take me in your control.

Genesis Jorris 2:41:00 PM

What a day. It was fruitful!

Manage to meet up with my dear primary schoolmate: Eugene Tan.
Been like five years since I've see him? NO. Its seven years!
Truely speaking, he change everywhere from his height to his size but that face never change.

Had fun over pool. Though Im a super NOOB over there.
But well noobs get luck. And i gotten a superb hit plus a double link into the hole.
Praise me come on.
Laughs.
Just kidding. Probably it was what everybody call: Tyco luck.
Got to know this two guys call you beng and alex.. They can play kinda well.
Do teach me again when we got chance to be out on Pool table again!
But anyway.. The funny thing is we saw lennon at the other end of the room with samuel.
It was seriously coincidental to knock into him in the same pool room!

For the rest of the gang, they were competing against my pri sch pal for DOTA.
Apparently, my dear Eugene and His 2 dear best buds trashes the other 3.
Because seriously, they are pros you see.
But the win or lose doesn't really matters. What that matters is the exchange of experience!
Laughs. And the group got to know 3 really fun and jokey guys too.

Getting to know 4 new friends today and reconcile the relationship with my long lost pri sch mate was a fruitful time for me. And seeing my caregroup members there with me was satisfying too. Though many got to leave early but they seriously tried their best to be there! Hope to see Brian and John present with me next time.. And the rest of the members of my caregroup! Geok Hian, Evan, Kestrell, Garmeng, Jeremy, Pearlin and Edmund! Next time you guys be playing pool, mahjong, dota, watching movies, singing kbox and hanging out with us k! Let's all be present together next time =)

Its gonna be a even better day tomorrow.

Because we are going to do evangelism! Really hope to see the coreteams meeting up themself and be convicted themself to reach out to the people in SP even without me together with them.. Father I pray for responsive hearts tomorrow as we approaches them.. I pray for a discerning heart install in us so may we be able to discern well who are the ones that is going to be potential.. Give us courage too, so that we will not hesitate in approaching many who passes us as we are scanning around for contacts. And God I give thanks to you for such a bunch of potential coreteams.. And Lord, anoint me to be able to lead them well so may we work together in harmony to grow your church!

Love God and Love all my people.
Amen =)

Genesis Jorris 11:52:00 PM

Look at the retarded face of the apple GenJ®.

Genesis Jorris 9:17:00 PM

Alrightey. Just to like update alittle of the many things that happen in my life recently. Phew~ It was quite alot of things to talk about you know people! And I wanted to restrict myself from bloggin actually... But they are all too Good to keep quiet about! haha. So let's see..

From last week friday..

Supposin to have a unit matthew gathering over at MS to have some dota, pool, arcade, singing, shopping, dinner together.. But well.. Unfortunately our many contacts all was cropped up with last minute stuffs such as cca. So we cancel the gathering, and for the few of us in SP we ended up joining the festival of praise organised by campus crusade. The event was good.. but a question that came across my mind is: Isn't this suppose to be meant for the non believers? Then why is the whole auditorium, which is not even filled up, found with christians only?

Moving on to saturday..
Wow~ Had a really fruitful time.. Though attendance from caregroup was not really good. Many was not present and people that I really want to see them such as geokhian and kestrel wasn't around.. But the Shepherding with Lennon was really good. Glad am buildin back not only shepherd and sheep relationship, but good friends! haha. Then next is the DMM, the sharing regarding persistence from luke 18:1-9 was seriously inspiring. I learnt greatly from that parable.. Thank you Jesus. Soon after, was shepherding baorun and thank God for anointing me with the gift of teaching to impart whatever I wanted to deliver. Few minutes after we end, had to pick up 3 visitors from the MRT station in which 2 i do not know. But after introduction, it goes really well! Furthermore, one of them is my primary sch mate and it was really coincidental! Seriously tight schedule..
And the service was really good.. The praise and worship was free and easy, self expressing your praises in your own song to God. And the highlights was the sermon brought by pastor christie.. I really was inspired by her conviction and faith in God. The sermon she brought to us about not giving up gave me a big boost in my mindset. And it really encourages me and I could really feel how God anoint her during her preaching. During altar call.. As we prayed. I teared. Me and randall held each other in tears and we cried. Perhaps its because we gone through alot in this unit together. And it was really tough. Tough. And I prayed for pooiyee.. Thank God for her committment with me in this group. =)
Dinner! Finally we had a change and went to cineleisure instead.. The food there was expensive but seriously quite nice. Im really glad edmund turn up in the end of the service but felt a little pity that he was not with us because i believe God will too comfort and speak to his heart if he was there. We went trying arcading but nothing fun to play at cineleisure.. Tried to satisfy our urge to sing but it was a bomb and we have no $$. So we ended up in macdonalds sharing 2 meals with a total of 6 person. Talking crap and inventing our whole language. Finally somebody brought up the issue about mahjon and we decide to go edmund's house to ton over mahjong! So there goes the SP midnight gang ushering themself into the house..
Loser was: Edmund. And then his mum treat us to great food from their coffee shop! Thank you auntie! Im lost for words. keke.

Then sunday!
It was second session of urban groove 2. Gonna be a busy day.. And I didnt sleep the whole night. Got to rush over to substation with a mind that is filled with ZZZzzz.. Seriously, I wanted to pretend to oversleep in the morning and ignore their calls.. So then I simply tell the team, OMG! I actually oversleep! And then apologize.. Surely they will forgive. Laughs. But on the spot I rebuke my thoughts and keep myself awake.. But I thank God during the entire session I do not feel tired at all. In fact, I was really energetic and efficient during my job. Blessed by esther and joella with their makeup kit. Oh my god.. I love Joella's eyeshadows.. If only I have them. But I know they cost alot of $$. Finally coming to an end.. And I left earlier. I took lots of photos, and look nice in them. hahaha.

Monday night..
had coreteam meet with my dear coreteams.. Only 4 was present. John was missing. Baorun had to return home due to curfew. But it was a fruitful one. I hope my points was delivered over. Deep into their hearts and not just another message that have passed. soon after went to HQ for the overnite getaway.. Fun over mahjong, risk, winning eleven and crazy taxi. If there were more people present it will be fabulous. But wonder will there be enough games to play. haha. ton the whole night again despite its like I have not sleep for around 3 days. Until morning 9am plus, I simply can't take it anymore.. halfway through the mahjong my eyelids closes themself. And I nearly fall off the chair. But one thing I want to say about the morning mahjong: Lennon! Dun think you are good... You are on beginner's luck. Wait till u get my next challenge again. muahha.

Alrightey. I dun wanna blog anymore! Tired! nite!

Genesis Jorris 11:04:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak