.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

Genesis Jorris 12:41:00 PM

Thank God for Decor Team.

Decor Team Hurray!

Like to extend my thanks to a few people who have helped in the entire decor production..

KAIEN: You are damn creative! Damn decorative! You helped lots manz! And you decorated your hair to a pretty nice extend as well yea? On stage? The typhoon hairstyle? You bring about a new trend man.... LOL. Again I say, Thanks thanks!

SHAWN: Despite of your FYP and also the participation for the SP Spinnovex, you still came and help!!! I know you must be super tired.. And at times, super hungry because we keep doing and don't have time to eat... Thanks for your SACRIFICE! Your help is appreciated manz! Thanks ah!

The ENTIRE SP3: Thanks you guys for putting so much effort for the MIRROR thingy.. It was a success manz! You guys all are having FYP but still came and help out, spirit is really appreciated! Jiayou for your caregroup as well!

SHAREEN, ANDREW and RP peeps!: You guys rockz! Once the holiday starts, you guys began coming down to nexus to help out.. Really appreciate your help alot alot.. Thanks man! Especially Shareen, you even help me to get helpers from other units! Thanks for everything, really appreciate it alot.. =)

LESTARI: My goodness my dear buddy buddy! Thanks for everything man, Im speechless.. Despite your parents are not very agreeable for you to stay and help out, you stay try your best to stay back and help me with all the painting and drawing.. Thanks girl, for all the sacrifice, really appreciate it!

SHIHUI, WANTING and POOIYEE: Thanks gals for coming down and help! And Shihui, your art pieces are greatly appreciated man! So many people play with them.. Haha. Thanks for contributing your talents to the church, you gals rox!

JOLENE LAU =): Love you girl yeah. Despite you have plenty to handle, like sound and your sheeps, you still try to drop by to help when available. Thanks for helping ya!

And so many so many so many others that I have not mention! Not that I forget, but there's so many of you that I want to thank! So keep in mind ya, I didn't forget you! You, you, you, and you! I remember you! Thank you!

And Thank God for the Image people as well...

Jeremy Ng, Joleen, Evangeline, Jenny! You guys really help a lot.. Thank God for Jeremy in styling all the guys hair and planning the guys dresscode, you're the man! haa. Thanks Joleen for helping out with the eye makeup! If not for you, I will be really busy! Thanks Jenny as well man.. You helped me coordinate everything when I go off for decor production.. Thanks lotz =) And not forgetting Evangeline! You rox! The ushers image are really good, and you really go the extra mile to make sure they all turn up well in the planned dresscode.. Thanks for helping!

And so many thanks to so many people! I really am starting to enjoy giving endless thanks! And not to forget... Let's give thanks to God! If not for Him, the POLYDINS service will not have been a success! All credits to Him man!

And.... awaits for the photos ya. haha.

Genesis Jorris 4:04:00 PM

Discouragement.

I heard one cried: I am discouraged

Another replied: So am I

Plenty began to throw in their clauses

All to voice their discouraged minds

I began to ponder.. Discourage? do I?

When I think deeper, I can't find my guide

A sudden reflection,

then I realise...

People cried: I am discouraged

But few realise, so have they incite

Many times we only know

Of how others have hurt us deep inside

Nevertheless did we consider

Much have we dim other's light

God dropped a word, right in my heart

Reminding me what love is right

We put others before, our border line

So may their hurts be cared, while ours will be fine =)

He gave His life, he mend our broken lines

For He is good, not letting our soul dry

I was put to shame, upon remembering His sacrifice

That I am undeserving, of His grace and freely-given life

Am I not a sinful wretch, that only thought of me, my life

Seldom have I realise, I am too, one that discouraged minds

Now I bow down to humble, before the One who give Joy

Forgive my sins and what I've done,

Help me to love like Christ.

Genesis Jorris 3:30:00 AM

Thank God for TERENCE Caregroup for a wonderful time of counting down at clarke quay!

Merry Christmas!

A great thanks to the following people who spent the first few hours of Xmas with me!

Terence
Jeremy Tan
Nicholas aka Weicai
Jason
Moses
A guy (Jeremy's friend.. Sorry I forget your name!)

And let me look forward for the next HOURS of rehearsal for our first POLYDINS service! haha.

=)

Genesis Jorris 3:54:00 AM

Xmas is coming in a few hours, a little question for all readers:

Do you feel like it's Christmas?

Or in the first place.. Christmas is not about whether you feel like it or not, but rather Christmas is a day you have to bring out what it is really all about.

I had been having this thought in mind for the past few weeks, it's Christmas! But I don't feel like it's Christmas... The accessories are all over the place in the entire stretch of Orchard road, everybody is talking about Christmas, the gifts, the cards, the countdown, the celebrations, all are getting into place... But right deep in my heart, Christmas have yet touch.

So what is Christmas? It's the day where Jesus was born in this world.. It's the day where the song goes: Silent night... Holy night... It's a day of joy, a day of peace, a day of happiness, a day where God bless his son into this world, to bless us, His people, to die and rose again, for us, His people.

As I reflect about what exactly is Christmas, then I realise the reason why had I not felt like Christmas in the first place... Having Christmas in my heart is not about having the best plan on earth to celebrate the day, it is not about having the best food, the best countdown location, the best overnight place, the best fun-loving people around to celebrate.. Having Christmas in my heart is all about having Christ in my heart.

To have Christmas that represent Love, Joy, Peace in us, is simply to have Jesus in us. Experience the love God has for us, taste the joy of having a relationship with Him, enjoy the peace that He have for us when we trust in Him. That's the best of Christmas that we can ever have.

But of course as I have said earlier, Christmas is a day where we have to bring out what it is really all about. Having Jesus ourselves is not enough... A real Christmas day is where all can celebrate together with Jesus in our hearts, and rejoice together of His love, His joy, His peace! Christmas is also about spreading the Love of God to all who have yet get to have a relationship with God..

So let this Christmas be a fruitful Christmas for You, by sharing Jesus to a friend dear to You that have yet know Jesus. =)

Let Christmas touch your heart and soul, and not just a day that passes with gifts, tasty food, grand celebration and fantastic countdown.

Genesis Jorris 2:00:00 PM

Sentimental.

Look at the route you've walk so far

Every little detail, every little step

The colors may have fade away

But the beauty of black and grey remains

A journey is not a journey

If you have not stumble and fall

Taste the goodness of standing up again

Persevere, give up no more

The steps seems endless

When you carry yourself to reach for the top

Yet life reach the end at the blink of an eye

So fast, you don't even have the time, to say goodbye

Twas not let life slip out of your grip

Walk right with God and you'll walk right in purpose

Life is not here to lead you through

But life is here for you to lead

Walk a beautiful journey, Don't regret.

Genesis Jorris 1:45:00 PM

Sentimental.

In this time where Im bedridden,
many thoughts came to me.

I asked myself,
why do I serve so hard?
And the devil taunt me,
in laughters and wicked gigglings.

"If only" knock at my door,
and ask if He may come in or not..
I let him in out of negligence,
and He led me to imagine.

If only says If only,
I had continue my work in the past..
My savings would have reached 5 digit,
and I won't be surviving on bits and pieces.

If only says If only,
I had not receive Jesus,
I would have been some popular girl in campus,
probably shining in my company,
and on my way to attempt university.

If only says If only,
I have not serve so hard,
I would not have to tolerate undeserving pain,
and gave my everything for this nothing that I see.

I told If only that If only,
He had learn to see the beauty of God.
Then He will say If only,
I had got to know God earlier. =)

I wonder for quite a while,
why God you let this virus strike my body.
In such a tense and urgent circumstance,
I admit I did get frustrated.

Frustrated over the fact that I can't do what I need to do on time,
Frustrated over the fact that my head will spin when I try to do something.

I ask God why allow this to happen,
when all I want is to give whole-heartedly to do your work.

It was about:
pain
sorrow
struggles

but it was where I learn:
love
rest
peace

Even when Im down,
You're there.
And your people are there.
It was a real testing of my body and mind,
and you mould me that all belongs to you.

Help me,
to depend more on you.

Genesis Jorris 1:54:00 PM

On my way to recovery...

So to anybody that it may concern,
no worries ya.. I will recover no matter what!

Testing time,
I awaits to run into your arms from these thorns.
Sustain me.

Genesis Jorris 2:06:00 PM

Backache

Diagnosed problem: Bending my spine in an incorrect position over a period of time that is harmful to spinal cord.

Headache

Diagnosed problem: Over-dependent on Panadol Extra till suffer from side effects. Also incurred from stress due to workload and problematic issues.

Neckache

Diagnosed problem: Bend my neck too low in a specific position for 3 hours =.=

Sore Throat

Diagnosed problem: Multiple sleepless nights plus late night plannings leading to heatiness in body. Sore throat brought about Fever.

Fever

Diagnosed problem: Overworked body and insufficient rest. Did not seek for medical cure in beginning of illness.

Cough

Diagnosed problem: Eat too much UNHEALTHY food. I need to avoid chillis. But they are really tempting >.<

Migraine

Diagnosed problem: worry too much. Much left undone, little time to spare!

THE ONLY WAY TO BE CURED:

My healer =)
(Plus doing my best to take care my body, and doing my best to rest and recover!)

Genesis Jorris 3:14:00 AM

Talk about the experiences of my life recently!

First and foremost, DECOR!
Am handling more of decor nowadays..
Never expected this,
but I did volunteer myself,
when we first formed PSPT, ha.
It's an exciting ministry,
and what I call "all about hardwork and brainstorming" ministry.

Currently handling the DECOR project for NBSS I & II,
It's hectic and really bursting me,
but Im so excited for the end-product!
My team is a really inexperience team..
So some of us perhaps are not very confident about it,
and worries plenty as to what it will turns out.
It burdens my heart in a way,
but I'll like to impact them in the right attitude.
We can do it!
Let's just give our best =)

Am handling DECOR project for Gen-next camp 09,
that's going to be another challenge for me.
May the Lord bless me with an expanded brain,
so that I can throw a pool of ideas for the task!
And Lord? Bless the team with unity,
so we can really work well together,
and make sure we do the work well, for You. =)

What about Teamhope?
The ministry is doing okay!
Meeting up with the floor managers are my joy,
witnessing the ushers growing in image,
new ushers growing in experience,
the ministry growing to stand on it's own as POLYDINS,
it's all so exciting and praise the Lord!

Our Mega Meeting coming up in January 09,
Awaits! Brudders and sistas from Usher ministry.
We're going to have a good time together. heh.

Yesterday night I had a good time evaluating my month,
together with my Lord..
Thinking through what have I went through?
Noting down areas that are significant..

God really test me alot from the time I enter PSPT till today,
and more to come I believe! haaa.
He tests my patience, in people or in things.
He tests my perseverance, charging in the midst of failures after failures.
He tests my attitude, able to face problems with the right attitude.
He tests my openness, willingness to listen to others and open for feedbacks.

It was alot about getting out of my comfort zone,
it was a big transition for me, BIG change.
My faith is tested as well...

Do I depend on Him or myself?

He stretches my heart, my love for people,
all different kinds of people in this world.
Whether is it those that you often mix with,
or people that you can't really communicate well.

Somehow or rather,
I learnt that I have weak self-control and discipline!
There are plenty of things I failed to restrain myself from,
and also plenty of things that I failed to discipline myself to do.
Need to buck up in these areas!

I learnt as well that my emotions sway easily as well,
got to pay more attention in stabilising them, haaa.

Anyway,
that's my life!
laughs.

Looking forward for more and more of God to come.

I remember that Prophecy:
Wait upon the Lord.

Im waiting. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:30:00 PM

Calling out to God,

give me the strength that I need to decorate,
fill my brain with creativity to create the props and large props.
I need your wisdom and knowledge,
to be able to create successfully the decor props.
I need your strengthening and discipline,
to be able to persevere through intensive schedule,
so that I can complete the tasks with the rest on time!

God help!
I know I can't just scream help..
I got to make the effort yeah!
So God, help me along the way. Thanks.

Genesis Jorris 5:59:00 PM

At times where it gets taxing and tight,
it is most easy our hearts get sway.
Witnessing how the devil deceive the people around me,
really burdens my heart..
I really pray that they will not fall into the pit,
and trust in those lies the devil have created.
Sometimes his lies seems so rational,
but in fact they are just lies of this world.
What's most important is that we must rely on His word,
so that in our walk we won't fall or falter.

God please help all these people,
that have fallen into the lies of the devil,
teach them, rebuke them, correct them,
even me myself am one of the gullible ones.
Help all of us to walk close to You,
so may none fall apart and depart from Your glory.

These people are precious to me,
precious to You as well..
Thus Lord, have mercy on all of us,
by extending your hand to pull them up once again.
Please Lord.

* A gentle reminder for all who are serving,
whether in pastoral or in ministry,
remember, never to forget or neglect the times we spend with God,
or we will unknowingly fall into an endless pit,
prepared by the devil to torture us in darkness,
a darkness without the light of God.

Genesis Jorris 1:28:00 PM

It's my brother birthday tomorrow,
and I bought 2 nice t-shirt for him.
Wonder whether will he likes it?
But this is one of the first time I bought a gift for him,
after since he grown up...

I wrote a really "real" message to him,
a birthday message that I will never write, in the past.
Somehow had something burning in my heart,
to make good this relationship with my brother.
I really want to make effort to break the ice between us,
and build once again from the beginning,
a good and stable brother and sister relationship.
If Im always waiting for something miraculous to happen,
then when can I ever share Christ to him and my parents?

In that little birthday message I wrote:

Dear Joseph,
I just want to wish you a happy birthday,
you're finally 15 and there's more for you to experience in life.
Continue to strive hard for your studies,
so you can enter the course you want in polytechnic!
And also, just want to say,
let's not always quarrel over the computer and those little matters..
Family is about compromise each other =)
Let's make our home a better place for you and I,
as well as for mummy and daddy.
Hope after this birthday,
things will turn for the better.

From Jorris.

Maybe to some of you it's easy for you to say such things to your siblings,
or even for some of you, you don't understand why because u don't hve siblings..
But really, I believe some can identify with me,
when there isn't really a relationship,
it's hard to begin from scratch when you're like already 20 years old,
building a relationship with your brother who is like 15.
But then I really want to see my family get to know God..
And if I don't begin now, making these little efforts,
when am I ever going to see something happen?
God can't works in me if I chose not to do anything!
After writing that little message,
my heart was really glad..
I can't wait to see how my brother will react,
after reading it..
Whether good or bad,
I just have this assurance in my heart,
God is going to soften him and help me to know him better.

And just now, I went out with my mum and my auntie,
younger sister of my mum..
We manage to have a little talk at the kopitiam,
it's amazing how we just begin talking about God!
The first good news is that,
my auntie is coming with my mum to the xmas service. =)
They are both open to such church activities,
and are glad to be invited and join in the service.

The second good news is,
I got to know more about their perspectives towards christianity..
Apparently from my auntie,
I somehow sense and understand from what she say,
she needs time to change and believe in this God we proclaim.
She did not display any signs of rejection,
just that she have alot of worries regarding this "idol" they've been worshipping for long..
I understand that it's really not easy to make changes in our lifestyle,
especially such changes that will leads to huge movements in our life!
There's alot of concern... But I believe God will touch their heart more and more =)
Until the day they can't deny the existence of God!

My mum was agreeing to what my auntie was sharing..
And she often raise up her experience in a church she went once recently,
as well as last time when she was young,
where she visited a church for actually one full year!
She love the community and all..
She have quite positive impression towards Christianity.

The only thing that is stopping them is lifestyle..
The concern about having to change their life after receiving God,
drives them back to considering again and again.
I just pray that God will give them the courage to step out in faith,
and that God will assure in their heart He will help them along.
He is then the ultimate life-provider,
and there's no mistake in acknowledging him in our lives.

God, save my family!

Genesis Jorris 7:50:00 PM

Today, I finally finish the book, "difference maker".
What is the difference maker?
It is our attitude...
I've got to say I really learnt alot from the book,
how important it is for us to keep the right attitude,
in the midst of obstacles, let the right perspective be sustain.

Obstacles of having right attitude:
Discouragement, fear, problems, failure and changes.

Often when Im discouraged by words and actions of people,
I failed to face it correctly, and chose to self sabotage.
When fear creeps into my heart,
it tells me to be worried, to start imagining things,
and I failed to realise, the greatest thing to fear is fear itself.
Along the journey when things don't go according to what I expected,
I start to panick and be overwhelm by problems...
I failed to remain calm and overcome my problems,
failed to realise every problem comes with a solution.
In failures I kept asking why I fail?
In failures I hid in a corner regretting what I've done..
Yet I failed to learn from my mistakes,
failed to understand that failures are part of successes.
Changes comes and go in my life,
sometimes I resist changes because I do not know what may comes!
Have I not realise?
The right attitude is to learn that if we never change,
we will never grow and move forward.

There are many things that I failed to witness fruits,
because I faced them with the wrong attitude.
Through the enlightenment in this book itself,
I learnt more about faith, more about positive thinking,
more about the reason why God allows such bad circumstances,
be in our lives.

If these testings, trials, problems, changes have not been there in the first place,
would we fully understand and appreciate what is good?
Sometimes we need to know the opportunities these issues brings along,
that it challenges our faith and our determination,
helping us to grow stronger each time we overcome.

God spokes to me alot yesterday in service as well...
There was a ringing in my heart of the areas that I need to change.
Areas that I've been holding on for a very long time,
areas that are hidden in my life where nobody are awares,
areas that I regret for doing but failed to kick the habits,
areas that I've allow emotions and feelings overwhelm me.
The stirring was strong and I know God is telling me,
Jorris, my dear child, you have to change these areas of your life..
And there and then, pictures of these areas of my life,
runs across my mind like a powerpoint slideshow.

It's not easy to change..
But I want to try..
I believe that if I give my best,
God will complete what I lack.

God,
help me to grow, further.

Genesis Jorris 1:19:00 PM

Had a long day at home..
Sort of relaxing..
It was kinda quiet in a way..

I read the book "difference maker",
learnt about fear, failures, problems...
I was learning from the book of numbers,
about the clans of levites,
how each clans are in charge specifically for the tabernacle.
Then I made something for my sheep,
Hope she will like it. =)
I chatted with my shepherd thru sms,
realise she is sick and not feeling well recently..
Prayed for her and want to tell her I love her!

My mum cooked my favourite soup,
lotus with dried squid and ribs.
Had a talk with her about her coming to the xmas service,
she hesitated at one point about visiting,
but I persuaded her with the "daughter" strategy. heh.
Watched TV with her for the whole night,
it was another typical night after all.

I reflect back about what I've done today,
have it been fruitful or have it been wasted?

A time of reading his spiritual teachings...
But will it be useful if I didn't learn to apply?
A long time spent at home to stay with my family,
but will it bond relationship if the time was simply empty?
Made something for my sheep, something that takes alot of effort..
But will it represent love, if there were no love in the first place?

The form doesn't matters,
it's the substance that matters.
Are there substance in what you do everyday, every minute?
If there isn't, then start creating them.

God,
let me not be a form that is empty within,
but let me shine for you with a beautiful shell,
and from within is filled with gold and precious gems. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:48:00 AM

Had a really fruitful time together with the FMs,
discussing over the MEGA MEETING,
that we're going to have with all the ushers.
The meeting was really great!
Although there were many issues we've got to face,
Im glad God bless me with great and effective FMs,
who are willing to take up the challenge of the ministry,
without any fail of having a positive attitude!

Thank God for Cedric, Desiree and Joella. =)

Talking about the MEGA MEETING,
Im really excited for the usher's ministry..
I really dream of polydins service,
having excited and convicted ushers,
serving faithfully because they love God!
Usher's ministry will grow!
And all the ushers shall say?
Amen!

Going to embark the decor plans,
and taking a look at my organiser,
it's really going to be an intensive month.
Well... I did wonder whether can I make it thru,
but somehow God assures me with His Holy Spirit,
that He will bring me thru!
So no worries! heh.

Im really excited for the decor project,
coming up for the 2 NBSS on 27th Dec and 3rd Jan.
Despite the manpower is few and we're not very experience,
I believe a heart that truly wants to give our best,
will bring about fruits at the end of the harvest!
The entire decor project will be done on time,
and it will be completed with quality!
God bless us!

And Image... Have a new sister joining us,
to help out in the upcoming NBSS.
It's exciting!

As I take some time to reflect on my life..
So pack with ministries, tasks, projects and work..
But all the more these propel me,
to depend more on Jesus, my source of strength. =)
Without You, I can do nothing.
But with You, I can do all things.

For You said:
I can do all things thru God who strengthens me.

I will hold on to that statement.
Not my will, but Yours be done.

Everything, I do it for You. =)

Genesis Jorris 12:48:00 AM

EXAMS OVER!

Genesis Jorris 11:01:00 AM

Exams are really taxing..
It's most taxing to the mind though.
I need to sort of focus on my papers,
stop thinking about other stuffs that I need to handle!
haa.

Few more hours to my first paper,
and then last paper on wednesday!
Pray that Lord will guide me through,
help me to remember all that I've revised.
May peace reside in my heart,
so that I will not panick when I do not recall,
but give my best to finish the questions. =)

After exam:
- NBSS DECO project!
- Teamhope MEGA MEETING; FM meeting
- Image planning; with Image volunteers

=) God will make a way!

A little message for Xue:
I will not forget our annual sentosa outing. heh. Dear bud, Love you lots!

A little message for Gid:
whether you see this or not, I just want to say, Im here for you brudder. =)

A little message for SP Unit:
All the best to you guys upcoming Matthew event, AGAPE! I'll be there, to be your chef. heh.

A little message for Ritchie and Liyan:
Welcome back to Singapore!

A little message to PSPT:
Let's continue to grow stronger each new day!

A little message to God:
Im still amazed by you. =)

Genesis Jorris 2:06:00 AM

I am

I know

I Speak