.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

My Weakness, Your Strength.

Paul once said during his ministry, that if he were to boast, he will boast of his weaknesses, so may Christ power work through them and bring wonders.

I speak today, I will boast about the strengthening of my soul and body in the past few weeks although I am weak and poor. Jesus is indeed the saviour of my soul, the provider of my life, the comfort of my body. In the past few weeks as I indulge in poverty, enjoy in aches and pain, excite by long hours of meetings and brainstorming, engage in wonderful challenges of evangelism and leadership, He never fails to bring sparks into my life.

God gave me joy beneath the unspeakable torture and sufferings.

He provides for me with the little to spare among the many poor.
Despite we are poor, we shared 1 ice cream among 3.
Despite we have little, we share the money we have to provide for each other.
Despite we may have little to give, we still gave our best.

God strengthen my soul when I am tired and weary.
I struggle to continue completing the 60 invitation cards in one day despite my spinning headaches and backaches.
Though we were hungry and poor, we still persevere to complete the task.
He gave us strength to continue to evax even when we really feel like giving up.

He mould us, build us, challenge us, bless us.
In the midst of rejections, we found moulding in disguise.
In the phase of acceptance, we gladly praise God for His blessings.
In the struggle of courage and determination, God provide a more than enough reason for us to do it. Just do it.

I may be weak, like a piece of thread.
But God strengthen me, by weaving me in a way that it is strong like metal.
Able to with-hold great weight without breaking or snapping.

Praise the Lord for the street evangelism,

from 11.30am to 8pm.

Praise the Lord for the souls he blesses us,

and the numbers we manage to get from these strangers.

Praise the Lord for helping us to plan the event,

that in 3 days we completed the planning and details.

Praise the Lord for strength,

that we manage to comb far east plaza, Lido, Heeren's, Wisma Atria, Takashimaya, Plaza Singapura and Vivo city, without giving up half way in this task.

I thank God.
I love God.
I stand in awe of YOU. =)

Genesis Jorris 9:50:00 PM

Does your soul thirst for thee?

Do you long for the Holy Spirit to cometh filled your heart and soul?

When is the last time you've met with Jesus?

Does your heart still beat with conviction for the great commandment?

Why are you serving, for men or for the Holy One?

What is your reason, for being here in meetings and caregroups, and services?

let's just take a moment to reflect on our relationship with God.. and How much have we depended on Him at all times in our lives, whether is it in difficulties or victories, whether is it in failures or problems, whether is it in happiness and certainty.

God I repent at your feet, that I've not depended fully on you. I've searched within often for my strengths my abilities, only to find that Im unworthy and unable to accomplish great tasks for your kingdom without your strengthening. I repent my pride in my giftings and victories over the past, for when I witness your miracles and deeds I am buried in shame of my success. My glory and accomplishment are nothing to compare with the glory at your throne. Twas I fall in humility at your feet once again, in repentance for your grace, may you forgive my sins and prideful nature, and allow me to serve you once again.

Psalms 63:1 says:
O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

Even in a land of fruitfulness, where the sun shines bright and the people are glad, where waters is plenty and many are rich, I will still thirst for you, I will still seek you.

It is not only in the tough situations that I will be reminded of you Lord Jesus, but it is in all circumstances that I remember your great commandment, Love the Lord my God with my heart, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my strength.

Will you Love the Lord? Jesus Asked.

I love you: You replied.

Will you Love me? Jesus Asked.

I love you: You replied.

Will you love me? Jesus Asked once again.

I will love you, always: You replied.

Can you reply with certainty, to three times when Jesus were to ask you, do you love him? If you love Him, you will be willing to go to the ends of the earth to fulfil the great commission left behind, you will love your brothers and sisters, you will live a holy and pleasing life, you will reflect great fruits of the spirit in your personality, you will behave as a salt and light to glorify Jesus, you will lift the name of God up high.

I may not be perfectly delivering these in my life, but Im praying, and Im trying, and Im willing, to lead a life not of my own, but belong to Jesus, belong to the almighty God who created me. Can you proclaim to God that you really give your life fully to Him?

In all my life, it is not for the glory of being a leader that draws me still in church.
It is not because there is no where else I could go.
It is not because I love the friends and people here, so I decide to remain.
It is not because I delight in conflicts of family that I love to be persecuted of my faith.
It is not because I have too much time to spare everyday for attending church activities.

Simply for the Love of God for me,
and my Love for Jesus who have die on the cross for me.

What have you got to say then about yours?

I pray for all, that everyone will realise the reason for being in a church, for giving our service to God in meetings, in planning, in ministries, in many things, is simply because of the Love for God. Let not anything else drives you but God, for only that reason can last us for eternity as servants of Christ.

Isaiah 40:30
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

No matter how gifted and capable are we, we will still grow weary and tired.. We will still stumble at certain times, we will still fall at our attempts some day..

Galatians 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

But the bible encourages us not to become weary in doing good, for the Lord has prepare a harvest for us in heaven, a reward that God has for our good work done if we do not give up.. We have to persevere in this service for God, only then will we be able to end the race well.

Isaiah 40:28
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

And the strength shall comes from this Creator, who will not grow tired or weary, from this we can know God is a good God, a God that we can rely on when we are tired and weary, because He have overcome all these.

Let our souls thirsts for more of the infilling of the Holy Spirit, for only through the Lord that we can accomplish all these. Not for ourselves, but for the kingdom of God to be fulfilled.

Genesis Jorris 1:46:00 AM

iPoet.

scars of victories imprint,
you look afar and found defeat.
beneath defects it perfects,
what contradicts is deem within.

I star in blankness on his shoulder,
I see a burden piercing thru.
The hostile pain strike me in cuts ,
I tear and cry but no one cares.

Collapsed by His knees,
lay straight my body.
My prayer rings,
awaits for His glory.

His mercy then stretches across the bright blue sky,
like rainbow paint on a beautiful light.
My sins are blotted away like clouds,
I was saved from the misery of getting drowned.

Rangers of Almighty strikes in vain,
Twas' my soul continues to melt and faint.
Why have the Lord not pour his grains?
To provide to grow to strengthen the saints.

I seek for revival,
I seek for strength.
For my faith remains,
In Jesus's gain.

So hear my soul that cries for thee,
refresh our souls and make us fit!

I demand,
Amen.

Genesis Jorris 1:50:00 AM

WARRIOR IS A CHILD
Gary Valenciano

Lately I've been winning battles left to right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
I'm strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

[CHORUS]
They don't know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don't know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because his armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
I never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at his feet

[CHORUS]
They don't know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don't know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

They don't know
That I come running home when I fall down
They don't know
Who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
Coz deep inside this armor (deep inside)
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child (chorus)

Genesis Jorris 9:47:00 PM

Dun ask me why they hugging Macdonalds.
I believe even if the food dun really taste good,

we still love to hang out there. hehe.

Hmmm..
we found this recent bacteria exhibit in science centre,

and found our replica in them!
(Look at the similarities)

You should see this before if you've been to science centre..

Part one of C.B. First Outing!

Will post more up again when i got the time,

to do photoshopping.

Haha. meanwhile, enjoy these!

Genesis Jorris 5:57:00 PM

Today I just want to take this time to talk a little about the people around me..
So if you're found below, count urself lucky.. haa..

Let me think, Who are my friends? I mean friends, not just brothers and sisters.. But really we have that friendship with one another..

XuePing. I got to list this girl name. She's like my bobo twin. Erm. Whatever that means, dun interpret it wrongly. Its just that we really click together. We were closer last time.. I remember we always hang out together, have fun under the sun in the beautifully located Sentosa. There were so much to talk together, and you know, its like those girls, when come together, you just can't stop opening up ur gap. Its just nowadays, having rise up as a leader or rather, I was one in the past, but the responsibilities are increasing, the time we have together gets lesser. Usually im not available, and when Im available, she might be having something else or perhaps having exams or projects. But I just want to say, thank you xueping, you really brighten my days. You make a great friend to me, and perhaps we'll have a trip somewhere soon okay? Miss you my dear friend, hope that you're doing well and doing great. Wanna know more about your life soon =)

Joella. How am I going to miss this out. She's my sheep, yet my dear friend, my dear sister, a really caring one indeed. Though often we have quarrels here and there with our differences in views and ideas, it proves how transparent and honest the relationship we have with each other. Sometimes I may get irritated by her, because we're both very straight forward and persistent with our tots! But I really thank God for her because it helps the both of us to understand alot of things we do not see, like our blindspots.. Sometimes I really feel like she is my elder sister, cause she's somehow older than me ya know, and she is really hospitable and serving towards many. But on the other hand, being her shepherd, sometimes I feel like im a mummy friend. ha. Contradicting right! Anway Joella if you're seeing this, I really pray hard for your future endeavours. I believe there will be plenty always in ur mind, and as your shepherd and friend, I hope that you'll always remember Im here for ya, as a listening ear and as an advicer when necessary. Gambate with whatever you're doing!

James. I really want to put this guy here, though I dun really as in, know him that well. Haaa, I believe he too hope that someday we can be great friends. Because somehow, I find that he is really a nice person to talk to, and vice versa ya right, JAMES! James is a man that serves God, that delights himself in God I will say. And he make a really nice friend to be with, because he is pretty observant and always put others before self. He's always careful not to take advantage of friends whether consciously or unconsciously.. Haaa. Just hope that if time permits, will get to know this friend better. James? Soar as an eagle for God. Let this attribute of urs, spread across the continents to serve more people who have not know God. =)

Brian. Alright people dun give that "booboo" face. But Brian personally, other than church, he's really a nice person to talk to, and we can click pretty well. I will say, he's really a very loyal friend and if you really want to share your life and thoughts to him, he's pretty willing to listen and be there for you. A man of wisdom and deep thoughts too I will say, though on the surface he appears to be just a man that is happy-go-lucky? I just really want to thank you Brian, for the times in the past especially during our attachment, that we have great time draining out the "sorrows" of attachment to each other. LOL. And now that you're going to move on, to NS group, I really pray hard that you will strengthen your relationship with God over there. I understand that perhaps there are somethings you're struggling with now, I just want to let you know, God is there for you! And you have a friend here too! take care dude.

Hmmm.. I wanna affirm my leaders too...

Lennon. My One and only leader so far. Had been leading me since I was a new Believer, not to say about my previous CL because I was only under her for like 2 months.. He had been a great leader I will say, and he have this ability given by God to train leaders up around him in a very unique way. I will say, I learn plenty from his style of training leaders in my leadership too. And I am convicted to always raise leaders above me because I was somehow influence by him having that similar conviction too. He's not those caring, loving, serving leader you'll normally expect from a female, which is of course for he is a guy, wahaha, but he does care and love and serve his people, and his armour bearers. Though I had a lot of conflicts with him before, but I still really love him as my leader, and still always want to serve under him. Just want to say to you lennon, I always appreciated you, and I always hope that other than being together in SP leadership team, I hope we can be great friends too. No matter where you are, you are always a leader in my heart. Be blessed.

Jasmine. Well, it is only until recently that I have more interaction with her and I really want to say she is really a people leader. I feel really comfortable with her because of the way she interact and speak to people. But despite she can be jokey and funny at some times, she will know when to start serious and formal topics. She's a people leader who get things done I will say. I am really honored I believe to be given the chance to interact more with her, and have her as the pastor of the tertiary congregation, and the leader of poly/di. Just wanted to take this chance to affirm her for receiving the call from God to be a pastor to preach on stage, to be a leader to lead the Polydi.Ns ministry, to be a sister that loves and cares for all that she can reach, and to be a friend that can listen to sorrows and pain. Thank you for everything.

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Just want to mention afew other names that I want to thank God for..

Thank God for Nel, for her cheerful spirit and talents that always inspire me.. I dunno why, I find myself pretty similar to her in a certain way. Thus can easily identify with one another. Though we dun have that much time and chance to connect to each other, but when ever we meet up, we just seems like if we're great friends.

Thank God for Jen my shepherd, had been her sheep not long ago I will say.. Like around the last water baptism that time.. We dun have that much time to meet up with each other because both of us are pretty busy with our ministry, but I thank God that she's always there and had been a great listening ear to a great issue that happen recently. I thank God that He blesses me with such a wonderful shepherd, thank you for being there with me.

Thank God for my sheeps: Joella, Gordon, Jeremy, Edmund, Evan, John. And my ex-sheeps: Baorun, Pooiyee, Zul, Kestrel, Su maung, huiqian. You guys rock man! Though among some of them, already drifted away from God, but I still believe God will have His plan of bringing them back. But it is indeed a fact I can't deny, that all these sheeps of mind has help me in a certain way of learning to be a vessel by God for touching people's life! Thank you all and I really pray that my current sheeps, we can all have a good relationship with each other. =)

Yeah.. Thank these people. =)

Genesis Jorris 4:40:00 PM

PRAY.

The only word for me now.

Genesis Jorris 3:53:00 AM

今天的会议非常顺利，
实在好感谢主让我们能够在短短的两个钟头，
完成了那么多得plans。

我们考论关于easter的harvest，
在我们campus里应该如何邀请朋友来。
我们决定要plan一些节目，
来吸引不认识主的朋友参加，
这才能更认识他们，
以及更多机会与他们分享主为我们做了什么。

利用easter的这个机会，
我们将到街上做street evax，
这将会是一大挑战！

Anyway.. Im tired of typing in Chinese. lol.
Its just a fruitful meeting,
because Jesus was with us.

I just pray for every Individuals in my caregroup,
called for this special purpose,
to be able to stand firm to all this for long,
because it is all for Jesus!

BYSSIW.
Because you say so, I will.

=)
Love you always still, my God.

Genesis Jorris 3:15:00 AM

Just some photos to share..

May you all enjoy!

My Beloved new specialised caregroup, in creativity and Retention.
Proudly present: Crippled Beggars!

Oh.. You can't miss this because the 4 awesome beauties is posing for you!
hahhaa.

I thought her eyes are beautiful.
Not because of the shimmers of course.
(And my photoshop skills; added eye-shadows)

Hmmm..

Its just Gordon "demon-possessed"
So yeah. Just for gags.

A nicely taken photo.
Kiu looks really "幸福" inside.
In the embrace of girls!

The new Pherd and Meh.
May they be blessed always with smiles!

Well..
Try harder.
make another guess, who made me smile =)

This is funny.

We take quite long to take this photo.
And everyone was complaining.
Blame it on my slow photography skills. haha.

More to come!

Genesis Jorris 2:30:00 AM

Today is the Crippled Beggars first time gathering together,
for a caregroup.

Our caregroup last for about 5 hours. Praise the Lord.
From 6pm we met up for dinner and sharing,
till 11pm when we finally reach Jumbo for another dinner. Maybe supper.

It is indeed refreshing just to talk about the gathering.
A simple gather, with nothing extraordinary about the music,
or the vocalist who sang the simple song "I love you Lord",
or any super fun and cool praise song we sang,
or any great teacher that preach powerful sermon nobody heard before.

Something in the most natural and uncontrolled way,
God make it all spirit-filled and spirit-led.
It is a great testimony to share about the experience today.
I believe the others who were there with me,
will say AMEN to it!

First let's begin with the sharing..
We were talking about dreams, dejavu and stuffs..
Amazingly, it seems like we are old friends, once again.
Next moving on to praise and worship,
Joella is nervous and Jeremy is not that skillful enough with his guitar..
But we just had joy in that simple praise,
as we rejoice in singing:

With Christ in the Vessel we can smile at the Storm!

As we get into the worship..
Joella struggles to sing the song.. The guitar isn't good too..
But I do not know why,
God just make it a powerful session.
This is where you say, AMEN.

As we always know, it is not the music, the singers that matters,
its the heart and desire that matters.
Today we understand it greatly, really.
There was a powerful stirring in me.
A great sense of peace and joy in me.

The session goes in this way:
It was awkward in the beginning..
People were putting alot of focus on the way the music sounds,
the way the singer sang,
the way it was being bring out..
But God speaks to the worship leader:
Have faith in me my dear!
Dun focus on what you cannot do!
I enjoy the breeze..
I didnt intervene.. I let it continue.
Let the effort continues.

Beneath that chaotic worship,
I heard hearts that really want to focus,
I heard voice that want to sing with the right attitude,
I heard guitarist trying his best to offer his best to the king,
I heard souls that were enjoying the Lord's presence.
My lips moved. And my nose crinkled.
I smile.

God spur me to speak, to continue to prayer.
And further then, we sang the song once again.
He then led everyone into prayer,
into a powerful session by the infilling of the spirit.
It was awesome.
Peaceful and joyful.

We went into a session of teaching,
as I shared about living in God's amazing grace.
A powerful time inspired by the Lord,
and it is a great time of conviction and truth and transparency.
Praise the Lord.

Testimony were shared by wanting,
that she after the prayer she led in holy communion,
she wanted badly to receive the holy spirit.
She want to be baptised in the spirit!
Praise God!

Its just amazing what God has done in everyone's heart,
just now.
I am lost for words.
But only to give thanks to the Holy Father.
Thank God.

I love Crippled Beggars.
Love you all.
=)

Genesis Jorris 12:51:00 AM

I want to Love.

I have a burden.
A burden for people.
I want to be merciful,
to people that needs love,
that needs care,
that needs more concern,
that needs somebody's investment of time,
that needs somebody asking "you okay?",
that needs one to show more service,
that needs one to pray for and look after,
that needs somebody to just listen to him or her,
or just be there for him or her.

I have this very heavy burden in me..
Though in me there are many problems,
there are many struggles regarding my personal desires,
my personal dreams and visions,
my personal laziness and unwillingness,
I know on top of them there is this strong conviction,
there is this powerful stirring in me,
there is an anointing falling on me like a dove,
there is a loud calling ringing at my ears,

GO GENESIS JORRIS,
I call you today to serve my people,
help them to know me better,
help them to love me better,
help them to experience my love better,
help them to serve as my child my servants in my kingdom.

But He speaks once again,

But it is going to be tough job.
It will be a very straining task for you,
a task that will incur much unwillingness in you,
something not pleasant and not easy.
I will make you humble and bow down very much,
that you will cry and hurt very much within.
But I will be there for you,
If you remember,
to call for me and I will answer you.

I want to love.
I really want to love.
No matter how tough it is,
I will strive to grow and serve.
If Im wrong rebuke me and correct me,
so may I be a good servant of yours.

Make me yours!!!!!!!
I demand!

Genesis Jorris 1:57:00 AM

我为你唱的一首歌。

You took me by my hands,
and ran across the pasture.
The grass is green,
the sky is blue.
I look into your heavenly eyes,
and you look into mine.

我的心为你而跳动，
我的人为你而活下去。
我的一切奉献给你，
所有所有都属于你。

My emotions runs,
but Im not overwhelm by them.
Im just so touched by the presence of Him,
so amazed by His love and grace.
I know its true, speak not from an emotional heart,
that I am touched by His Spirit from above.
Like a dove that descend,
I kneel down in awe and in joy.

My heart excite.
For the Lord is here.
He fill me with His presence.

I shout this to the Lord,
Make me yours.
Make my life yours.

Genesis Jorris 1:32:00 AM

亲爱的读者，

或许有些觉得我想太多了，
不过我现在想跟大家呈清，
有些事情你们可能不会了解。

哈，不过如果有人在担心，
我只想跟你说，
我非常好，
而那一些叹言只不过是我心中的辛苦。
每个人都会有辛苦的地方，
而我委屈的地方则是我生命里的空洞。

Just ranting,
and pouring.
If you really undergoes certain things Im aware of,
its a different story.

让一切从体谅开始。
你可能永远不会懂。

Genesis Jorris 1:12:00 AM

我祈祷。

容许他们犯的过错
得到你的谅解和原谅

保佑他们坚持到底
不容易放弃你给的承诺

让他们攀上高山
看见你为我们设的彩虹
好漂亮。

I pray for my fellow leaders,
Yiheng, Baorun, Santono, Randall, Lennon,
in this land of SP,
that we will always remain fruitfully in the embrace of God,
never losing sight of His grace and mercy.

I pray for my fellow workers,
to always remember the purpose for doing everything,
that may the will of God be done,
and not ours.

I pray for my family,
that the Lord will not punish those who persecute me,
but use me as a vessel,
to soften their hearts towards christ.
Use me to bring salvation to my family,
so may they taste the goodness of God.

I pray for my studies,
that I do not know what results I will be getting.
That Lord I repent for not giving my best,
but I pray Lord you'll help me somehow.
I do not deserve,
but Lord still I seek and run after you.

I pray for the unit,
that we will stand strong for the vision.
For whatever may happens, whatever changes may take place,
we'll always stand firm, and strong for God.
Let God moves us,
so may we move mountains and open seas.
SP Unit shall persevere,
in the name of Jesus.

Genesis Jorris 3:36:00 AM

哭了。

看着别人哭，我不经眼框充满了泪。
我想起保罗的叹言，
他呐喊到：
如果他要炫耀什么的话，
他会炫耀他的所有缺点。

通过我们的缺点，
我们才能体会到耶稣的完美。
是他让我们拥有自由，
给我们赎罪的机会。

我无意中阅读了一位朋友的blog,
了解了她到戏院中，
不是为了看戏，
而是为了找一个借口，
自个儿悲哀的哭泣。

悲惨的不是在哭泣的部分，
而是要哭但不能大哭一场。

在我的心中，隐藏了许多秘密。有许多不能说的秘密，因为如果我透露，会造成很多人的压力，很多人的不便。他们有托于我，要求我把这个秘密，永远放在心中。为了不要造成更多人为这些秘密烦恼，我决定让我一个人承受这秘密带来的所有烦恼。又有谁可以了解我的委屈？

主啊。。
只有你一位，
能完全的体谅我的苦痛。
只有在你怀里，
我才能放大胸怀的哭。
就这样哭阿，哭阿。。
我带泪睡了。

Genesis Jorris 9:19:00 PM

I feel like im so thrashed.
I dun feel like Im something Good. I am just like a piece of rubbish.
What do you have to say, my Lord?

Luke 11 (The Message)
33-36"No one lights a lamp, then hides it in a drawer. It's put on a lamp stand so those entering the room have light to see where they're going. Your eye is a lamp, lighting up your whole body. If you live wide-eyed in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light. If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar. Keep your eyes open, your lamp burning, so you don't get musty and murky. Keep your life as well-lighted as your best-lighted room."

Stop Feeling Insecured about yourself. Open your eyes wide, and trust in Me, I will fill your life with light and chase away the darkness. If you continue to be stubborn and distrust my plans and my works, your body shall not be the light of My world, but it will be a dank cellar, only filled with lonely darkness. Therefore, keep yourself alert of how you live your life with your eyes wide open, so as to ensure my light will continue to burn in your lamp. Be careful not to incur negative thoughts. Always keep yourself encouraged and supported to make sure your light burns well.

I feel discouraged often.
Discouraged by how people respond and react to me.
Discouraged when people take me for granted.
My Lord, what have you got to assure me and comfort me?

Isaiah 59:1-2 (NLT)
1 Listen! The Lord’s arm is not too weak to save you,
nor is his ear too deaf to hear you call.
2 It’s your sins that have cut you off from God.
Because of your sins, he has turned away.

It is not Me that is not mighty to save to rescue you,
but your sinful nature have paused me to safeguard you.
Remember, I am almighty,
your Almighty God who is always abled.

Isaiah 59:20 (The message)
20"I'll arrive in Zion as Redeemer,
to those in Jacob who leave their sins."
God's Decree.

If you come to Me in repentance,
like wise I'll return to you as a Redeemer.
I will save you from your transgressions,
and put you in my arms once again.

Isaiah 60:1-3 (Amplified Bible)
1ARISE [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you--rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord), for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you!

2For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and dense darkness [all] peoples, but the Lord shall arise upon you [O Jerusalem], and His glory shall be seen on you.

3And nations shall come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your rising.

If you do these as for what I have said,
to repent your thoughts and always acknowledge yourself as a sinner,
I will grant you these,
and make you my light.
This is my comfort and my word for you:
Arise from those depression and prostration those circumstances have driven you to, remember, nothing can happen if not I allow them to take place.
These circumstances are part of my plans,
I allow them to happen to train you and mould you.
So take the positive side of them, and stop dwelling in negative thoughts
.

The earth may be dense and filled with darkness,
but my glory will be upon you.

You will be my light to shine in this world,
and nations shall arise to your light that has been shine,
because you've humbled yourself and offer your life,
your humility won my anointing and calling.

Not my will but yours be done.

Your plans are here to prosper me and give me a future,
not here to harm me.

I repent for my distrust towards your plans.
I repent when I can't see where Im going, I dun understand,
I doubt and I wonder, and I ponder negative thoughts.
Oh Lord, will you accept my repentance and grant me your promise?
Will you still be there for me, to make me your light,
to shine forth in this world?

Father you know me well.
Just as a father of a child,
who know every single behavior of the child represents what.

You know my heartbeat, and how unsure am I.
You know my struggles, you know my pride.
I am sinful, I am weak, I am unworthy, I am undeserving.
But yet my Lord you gave your son for me.
Who am I to deserve all these?

I know it sounds like big talks and what I preached.
But Lord and all, Im trying my best to practise what I preached.
I may not be able, to fulfil all these.
But may your kind words continue to remind me.
Give me a pull, instead of a push.
So may times where I stumble,
I will not fall.

I have big dreams for Jesus,
but I fear not His will.
Twas I ask Lord my father,
to bless me His call.
Let this be your will,
and not my will be done.
So may I be driven,
for one soul, His son.

Transgressions of mine,
uncountable with mind.
I come before in meekness,
to seek the Lord's forgiveness.
May Jesus forgive,
my hate's, my bitter's.
Let my soul not be condemn,
by the sins against my father.

Take me with your dove,
raise me with your soul.
Let me be your call,
rise me as your chose.

Genesis Jorris 2:27:00 PM

God's Love and Ours

7Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. 10This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

13We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. 14And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. 15If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. 16And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. 17In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. 18There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

19We love because he first loved us. 20If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. 21And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.

Let's take a look into the scriptures of 1 John 4 today..

What is Love? Who is love? Why we love? How we love?
Recently, "love" has become an element God placed deeply into my heart for pondering and discovery. I keep wondering, how much do I love God? I want to love God greatly, but can I? Am I able to be able to love God fully?

And How do we Love God? We can't see God.. We can't touch God.. In what way do we love God? And how do we determine it is really the right way?

In the above scriptures it talks about why do we love, how do we love, what do we love..
And just as the second greatest commandment Jesus had indicated in Luke 12:31, Love your neighbours.. Something very important in our decision to love the Lord, is to love our fellow brothers and sisters..

I heard many proclaiming that they want to love God, and love each other, but how many really display unconditional love and actionified love?

I admit I am not a lover, but am a sinner.. There are people who I find it hard to bring myself to love, unconditionally. There are people who have incurred my grieve and my anger which makes it difficult for me to love them. I struggle, and the question comes to me:

DO YOU LOVE ME ENOUGH TO LOVE THOSE I LOVE? GOD SAYS.

I paused. And I wonder.
My answer is, Im willing and I want to be able to love you enough to love those you love. But Lord, I do not know how. Because my heart is devilish. My heart sometimes is filled with emotions that I do not desire. Help me.

Let us not be liars, that proclaim we love God, that speaks nobles speeches, that raise teachings to others about the love for God, but on the other hand, did not fulfil the commandment of Jesus to love one another. Let God's love manifest through us to each other, so may the love continue to grow and flow smoothly.

Genesis Jorris 5:41:00 PM

Water Baptism Celebration on 2 March 2008

Venue : YWCA Fort Canning Lodge
6 Fort Canning Road Singapore 179494
Sophia Cooke Ballroom @ L2
Time : 3pm to 6pm (Please be seated by 2.50pm)

How to register? Collect forms from reception and fill it up, then drop it into the white box at the Nexus Information Counter. Closing date for registration is 24 Feb 2008.

Genesis Jorris 10:44:00 PM

It is Hard to Love the Lord,
But it is Harder not to Love the Lord.

I've learnt that lovin God,
had become part and parcel of my life.
Loving God is like a purpose,
a calling,
I am given in my life.

If one day, someone were to ask me,
to stop Loving God,
I can never imagine what I can do without it.
Loving God is essential,
and I can't live with loving God,
neither can I live without His Love.

I think it is hard for me to convince anyone, that I can't live without God.. Because Im a sinful woman, that probably there's something that will draw me away from Him if someone were to offer me something that I can't resist. I can't deny the fact that Im sinful, and my sins are plenty, but so long my days continue in clarity of my faith to Him, I will never deny Him, neither will I forsake Him..

I really want to make this prayer to God, that no matter what happens, may He forgive me if I make any reckless actions one day. It will be my regrets to have chosen to leave Him if there's such a day. For the past, for today, and for the new future, I can proclaim with my life on stake that I will never leave God for the sake of the wonders in this world. Nothing can be compare to the wonders of His love.

There are people who do not believe in Jesus that tried to persecute me, tried to laugh at my faith, try to convince me that I am being brainwashed in the church. But I know very well, that it is my own decision to devote myself, my life to the service of God. Serving God is not because I am burden for the pathetic people that do not understand the ways of life, but it is for the will of Him that I am willing, and I offer.

God is my only purpose in life, through Him He gave me life purposes. I can never imagine living without Him, because He was the one who brought me back on the path of life.

My thanks is never enough for everything God has done for me.

Dear readers,
if you're reading this post, I will just want to encourage you, if you are a believer, trust in Him. Get to know this God that you've received into ur life, but never really prioritise Him. You may proclaim at certain times, that He is important in your life, but how much do you really love God? Are you willing to proclaim God in the phase of family persecution? Are you willing to share God's love to your fellow friends who do not know Jesus? Are you willing to devote your life to God when He calls you to serve in His ministry? Are you certain that you want to love God with a life that honor His name and follow His word?

When we Love God, we will discover more of His love for us. It is an honor to serve Him, trust Him, because my life experiences brought me to prove this.

If you do not know God, I do not know how to share more to you about Jesus, after so much I've testify. Because I believe, nobody can fully understand the love of God and the reality of Jesus until they experience themself. I can share my life testimonies and proclamation about God, but you can never be able to understand about God until you experience Him yourself. I will like to encourage you, take the step of faith, and receive Jesus into your life. God is like a guardian, a friend, our Lord. And He is as real as everything in this world if you believe in Him, and call upon Him. If you will like to receive Jesus, repeat this prayer after me:

Dear Jesus,
I acknowledge that I am a sinner. I hereby invite you into my life, as my Lord and saviour. Thank you for dying on the cross for me, and 3 days later, you resurrected. Help me to experience a life transformation with you, help me to know you better.

I thank you in your Name,
Amen.

Genesis Jorris 9:28:00 PM

dated: 11 Feb 2008

I had the next dramatic, disastrous and distressful conflict with my eldest sister.
As usual, it stirs the whole family into the conflict,
with my mum depressed, my dad complicated,
my brother-in-law unjustified,
my eldest sister crazing.

I was hated to the core by my eldest sister,
with another 2 siblings having upset feelings towards me.
My parents hate conflicts,
they long for their children to be united together, in harmony.
But it is exactly the opposite.

I've got to admit, Im not perfect.
Im sinful and I've done many wrongs in which my eldest sister picked.
But the hatred in her have gone beyond words,
beyond all the things I've done before.
Her hatred towards me is like Devil to God.
The only way to make her feel better is to make myself sorrowful and upset.

The more calm and stable i react to her screams and demands,
the angrier she gets towards me.
I am not meeting her expectation I admit,
unable to be as hardworking as she require,
unable to spend enough time at home as a good daughter.
So she is aware no matter how she treats me,
I will still be filled with joy,
only if she take away my faith, and my relationship with God.

She persecuted me,
leaving me with 2 choices,
leave church or leave this house.

I make the decision once again,
just as I made the same decision 4 months ago,
I will never forsake God.

Today, God let me enjoy peace.
I know God will deliver me out from this.
I believe God will use me to stand firm for His name,
and to help my family receive salvation.

And through this incident,
I had a breakthrough in my relationship with my shepherd,
able to pour my heart and thoughts to her.

I thank God.

Im willing to lead a life like Job, If it is by your will.

Genesis Jorris 12:11:00 AM

I wanna sing
While the ocean sleeps
I wanna feel
What it's like to be free.
I wanna see
What you see in me
I wanna know
How I feel severely.

I feel lost
Somehow I'm drifting away
Was almost gone
You brought me to life again.
So let me,
be your,
lighthouse

And I'll help you find a,
way out of here
I see the tide is coming
Don't let it take you away from me.
There's not way out
Don't be longer
I know it's your love
That saved me.

I was lost
Somehow I'm drifting away
Was almost gone
You brought me to life again.
So let me,
be your,
lighthouse

And I'll help you find a,
way out of here
I can see the tide now
From a far away out.
But it's slowly drifting
Away from me

Hmmm.I was lost
Somehow I was drifting away
Was almost gone
You brought me to life again.

So let me, be your, lighthouse
Then I'll help you find a,
way out of here
Let me, be your, lighthouse
And I'll help you find a,
way out of here.

Genesis Jorris 2:39:00 PM

Called: Crippled Beggars.
Why? Acts 3. The crippled Beggar asked for money, but God gave Him legs to walk. We want to always be reminded it is not about what we want, but what we need. God's plan cannot be fathom, therefore praise Him for whatever He gives us, and usually, is more than what we seek.

Objectives: Creative Brainstorming for unit functions & Innovative Retention of New Believers
Why? To raise the standards of caregroup leading & elements as well as to unleash the creativity in selected committees. To more effectively utilise the gift of creativity in retaining the new believers.

Vision: To be DIFFERENT for a PURPOSE
To lead the crowd, to stand out, to be the ambassadors, but for a strong purpose, that is for God, for His love, to love Him, to honour Him, to answer His call for us as a specialised caregroup.

Group Verse: LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, WITH ALL YOUR MIND, WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH.
why? With a heart that runs after God, that beats for God, that seeks His kingdom and His righteousness. With a soul that is devoted to fulfiling the fruit of the spirit, to cultivate and instill a good soul for Jesus. With all our mind of thoughts dedicated to God, all to Him, all for His plans. And with all our strength devoted for His purpose, to use our giftings fully in the building of His kingdom.
(Romans 8:28)

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Today is the day God has called,
for 5 beggars who are crippled with sins to unite in dependence on the Lord.
Called to fulfil His purpose and plans,
we come together as the crippled beggars to create in His love and to retain in His grace.
It is really a fruitful time as we meet up together to share our ideas,
share the vision for the group,
pouring out all our ideas,
and remembering God is why we are here together today.

Before that we had great fun in our excursion..
Took lots of photos, and had great fun for bonding.
I thank God for bonding this group so well despite we just begin.
I can foresee that this group shall go far if we continue to Love God with everything that we do!

It is exciting in our planning..
Pretty fun with the truth or dare game that we are obsess with recently.
I believe the crippled beggars are all very excited for the next meeting.

Last service we had dresscode, we want to be opposite of new year,
so we all wear black! And with some shiny stickers on our faces.
It was really enjoyable to come together with the same identity.

Lord I pray for the crippled beggars,
that we will continue to love your word,
love this relationship we have with you,
we will continue to devote our life to serve you wholeheartedly,
we will live out what we preach and teach,
we will be christian that does not live your name in vain.

I pray for crippled beggars,
that we will gladly praise in Jesus name,
for the grace shown to us when you heal our feets.
Everything we return to your glory,
not because of our strength,
but because you make us who we are today.

Let the group grow,
I ask in Jesus Name,
AMEN.

Genesis Jorris 2:42:00 AM

Occidental came to an end on: 2nd February 2008.

Feeling kinda nostalgic,
yet am glad and touched,
but no matter what,
it ended pretty wholesome.

We had a farewell sharing over a beautiful night,
at the wonderful location of Jacob's place..

There were lots of tears,
lots of laughters,
lots of opening the thoughts we wanted to express..
But didn't, when we were still together.
Until the last day,
its time to put to an end for everything.

Honestly, I really dun bear to leave this caregroup..
I can really say, Occidental marks the prime of my spiritual life in SP so far.
It is the group where God blesses me for my heart desire,
and my service to His kingdom.
It is the group where I experience the most number of challenges,
and also the group that I find so warmly loved within.

The only thing I felt there's a little regret is that the last day..
Not everybody were able to make it together.
But its okay! May everyone walk strong with God still, no matter where they are..
Occidental shall continues to live in our heart. =)

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Evo retreat was successful!
I believe the entire session had impact many who came..
Wanna take this chance to affirm the coordinators, santono and baorun,
as well as all the other planners of the event,
for doing a good job.. I believe the next one will be even a more fascinating one!
I just realise its been a long time since I led praise and worship..
Had been trying to trained up new praise and worship leaders, and singers.
Thank God for His anointing that day, I believe that the praise and worship was awesome!

God actually drop in my heart something about relationship..
The relationship we have with God..
I really pray that each and everyone of us will have an in-depth relationship with our father,
and not just a proclamation on the surface.

Really was touched greatly on that day too..
Thank God for many kind words that were said to me..
Thank you.. for whoever you guys are..
I really appreciate all the affirmation =)
It had been tough in this walk with God, and as a leader especially..
But God never fails to use people to perk me up!

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Today I had my first meeting with my new caregroup!
The committees met up together as we talk about this new specialised caregroup,
that we're going to implement..
It is going to be challenging to be a creative brainstorming & retention team,
but we trust that God put us here to this calling for a great coming!
The meeting was really fruitful..
We had alot of sharing.. A great time eating at Olio restaurant..
The food there is not that wonderful, but the desserts is worth the try.
Especially the MUDPIE, totally overwhelming.

I just pray that the group will continue to grow strong..
And may this group belongs to GOd, not mine!

Anw.. tml is going to be spring cleaning for SP HQ!
Its going to be super dirty and disgusting...
But let's take ownership for our own place!
haha....

I love God, I love my sheeps, I love my leaders and shepherd,
I love myself!

Genesis Jorris 1:03:00 AM

Its been a few days since I blog..

The past few days, I celebrated the end of my exams.
There were alot of things that came into my life,
such as new roles for camps,
and handling existing roles for retreats of unit,
and planning for my group that is to come..

Though there's plenty of things I am crowded with,
I know there's something missing.
There's a hollowness in me,
that seems to be screaming for more of God.
I repent, and I need to spend more time with my creator.

Lord?
Listen to me..
I'm sorry though I have more time,
I didn't invest them in you..
But I used them to loiter out there,
having fun and chilling out.
I want to seek you more..

But there were fruitful times in the past few days..
I got to know afew people better.
I manage to encourage some downcast souls,
manage to be used by God to soothe some angered spirit..
Im glad I am still able to be at God's disposal.
I just pray that I will be somebody that can plays a more active role as a listening ear,
to help plenty more of the brothers and sisters out there,
who may be struggling some issues within,
or problems without.

Im still thinking today.
Thinking about that thing that had past.
Though it may seems to be the end,
but I knew from then it was a beginning of another problem.
And Im sensing the problem is going to return.
I need to meet up with him soon.
and talk it out in the presence of God.

Lord?
I pray for your intervention.
Give us time so we can have time together to speak.
Help us to achieve understanding of each other.
Lord please give him prophecies of me.
And give me prophecies of him.
I want to improve the situation.
I want to make things better.

Genesis Jorris 4:15:00 AM

I am

I know

I Speak