.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

Misunderstandings all on me. Im forever the one who is the WORSE. no body understands me. oh great. Im just one pathetic stupid dummy who still hold on and trust everybody in my life. This is what i am to everybody. Should i just fall and die?

God only you understands me. Comfort my soul for i really want to just serve you. signs. I dun want to hate and be bitter.

Genesis Jorris 11:13:00 PM

I long to purify my corrupted mind so may i be prepared to fulfiled greater missions in my life. I wish to untangle the ropes that have been attached from my limbs to my bags of sins so that i could be freed to run towards Jesus my Lord. Like in a desert helplessly searching for a mirage, I am too restlessly wandering about to look for my cure to my disease of bitterness. There came God who speaks in an alluring voice, "Im in control, stay focus." That lifted up my spirit and restored my strength. It diminished my worries and soften my heart. And reminded me that Jesus had already died on the cross for us. Im already freed.

I will focus and do whatever that i can to fight for the harvest. In actual fact, i should not be burdened by this happenings in the land. Ultimately, God will send one who will wrapped up all this mess they have conduct. And they will indeed reap what they sow.. Father i do not know what my heart wants. That they should deserve punishment? Or I just want them to be forgiven and loved? My only prayer will be that what they have sowed will not be reaped by all the people below.. I really do not understand what your plans are Lord. But i believe that's the best plan that can happen.. Let the harvest not be a hinderance. Let all be righteous in your eyes. If there's any that have been sinning against you, my Lord please stop them from their evil deeds. May they not be successful. May they learnt of their wrongdoings.

Really my Lord. Cleanse my heart. I want to be clean before you. I dun want to be trapped by bitterness in my heart. Help me Lord to be your pleasant servant. You understand me Lord, that i do not want to be bitter. That i just want to love. Im crying out loud for your pure love to fall upon me and cover me, so may i manifest your love to the people around me. Sincerely ask from you. Amen.

Genesis Jorris 1:04:00 PM

Love blossoms.
My heart longs greater for Him.
Think of Him day and Night.
Thoughts of Him make me smile.

His presence brighten my days.
He understands me.
He loves me.
Never fails to be there for me everytime i need somebody.

I feel His hug around me when im cold.
His big palms never fails to wipe my tears.
He cried with me.
He laughs with me in tears.

Never fail to bring me back home when im lost.
Lifting my spirits up.
My heart pounds when i feel him strong.
I know he will catch me when i fall.

Always standing by my side.
Walking the long journey with me.
No matter how tough it be he will pull me through.
He filled me with joy.

He makes me feel worthy.
He always touch me till im speechless.
His love make me lose control.
I love Him.

My lord. My lover.

Genesis Jorris 12:10:00 AM

come what may, troubles that stirs.
I will not be weakened neither be lured.
For I place my trust in my Lord that curse.
That cleanses off the debris of my tears.

Testing and trials that dries thy land.
Unfruitful efforts and sarcastic smiles.
Yet against all odds i will face this fouls!
To fight for justice and beat all down!

Some may wonder, some may doubt.
That my confidence will surely dull.
Yet i believe this victory will last.
For Jesus already make my path.

All circumstances may put me down.
Many who trust may even drown.
Yet my faith stands strong in Christ that die!
For me, for you for all who lied!

In the name of Jesus, i prayed, Amen.
For the sick to be heal and the weak to be strong.
The blind will see and the deaf will hear.
Miracles happens with faith that stuns.

All thanks to the creator,
for His grace and Love.
That i could be freed,
from my sinful nature.

May i be anointed.
May i be gifted.
May i be righteous.
For the sake of the Lord.

Please Lord. Cover your love to all those who have failed to love you fully. For they know not your greatness. They know not so much more you can do. I pray for all blessings to be upon them, only then i will be blessed.

Amen.

Genesis Jorris 4:47:00 PM

Excitement of a young Believer fades away.
Burden of a strong leader leads its way.
Xmas again yet never the same.
Its just another day that have slips away.

My heart sours in acids and pain.
As i hope for harvest to come in vain.
How great thou art, My Lord and saviour.
Answer the cries of your faithful dweller.

I long to witness your kingdom swell.
To burst and manifest in souls that wells.
But I my Lord am bounded in chains!
Prisons of limits that push me to faint.

Am nothing compare to your greatness and grace.
But still my Lord i long to bow down and claim.
The promises of salvation to fall on my friends.
So may they too be saved and live with the saints.

Anoint me your majesty.
To serve you even more.
To go on mountains high and low.
And dive through oceans folds.

Need more from you Lord. Need so much more of you to fill up my emptiness. For i empty everything of me to be infill by everything of yours. Im nothing and weak. Im stubborn and disgusting. Only you can make me a better person. Lord please.

Genesis Jorris 6:32:00 PM

I just can't stop but to proclaim about God's goodness and how powerfully he leads us into his presence! Had a fruitful prayer meet today where i could really feel Him right among our midst as we pray fo each other and when all of us leaders go down and pray individually for the people... the experience was fantastic and awesome.. Really thank God greatly for anointing me to usher the people to experience him through prayer even greater too.. Thank God.

I felt refresh greatly by the holy spirit.. when i prayed for every individual that i approach.. listen to me.. when i pray for others! Normally perhaps it is when other blesses us with prayer thus we are refreshed... but i was refreshed when God use me to speak to them in the prayer.. i was greatly amazed... i felt the heat that is glowing within my body as i pray for them... many prophetic words came into my mind as i speak to them... it was amazing.. i can't believe it came to me.. But am really glad to have allow God to use me to speak into their life.. To impress in their heart what God wanted to impress.. Thank God. And i really pray that all those who i have prayed for will constantly be reminded by what God have spoken today..

Last but not least, Im really filled with a greater faith for this coming Xmas harvest during the service in Kallang theatre! I truely believe SP will Hit Sub district.. I truely believe SP will break the bench mark and grow rapidly.. miraculously... supremely.. We Will! When we put our trust in God and give our best shot! Let's run towards the finishing line for this Harvest SP! we can make it!

Wheeee~ Im so damn excited.

Genesis Jorris 10:59:00 PM

I would not be blogging for the next 3 weeks! till the end of Christmas Harvest!

Very Sorry!

Reason: due to harvest, need to place my time on other matters. haha.

Just wait my readers for my very very long entry to share about great testimonies!

God bless all.

Genesis Jorris 11:55:00 PM

Today the Lord revive my heart to reach out to those lost souls out there, regain back my excitement, refresh my conviction, renew my compassion! had a great time inviting people to come for who killed santa 2 together with my beloved sheep, evangeline.. it was really a great experience as from the beginning we make that prayer of dependence on the Lord till the very end where we are so exhausted and yet so filled with energy that derives from that heart that was stirred by the Lord! The people were responsive to us, and really shown great interest to the event.. praise the Lord for putting word into our mouth and giving us such great opportunities to approach.. the atmosphere were right.. the heart attitude was great.. the people were there.. God make it really happen!

And there it comes fruits! We have one confirm visitor called sandy.. who be joining us on 15th! And perhaps two guy, brian's friends, joining us on 8th! This is fantastic! And more that we get to know today.... stephanie and her friends.. Liulu and her friends... Chain Yee and her friends.. Qin and her friends... Evan's gem mates namely Jeslin and Doreen going to invite them as well, probably they will respond and come to join us.. more more moRE to come!!! im really so excited to see these people coming together on 15th and having loads of fun with the event! Get to know them better.. build strong relationship.. bring them to come to service!!! wheeee~

God just stretch and expanded my heart to reach out to the lost souls out there.. i can feel the adrenaline that drives me one year ago during the previous christmas driving in my blood again! i could feel the fire that is burning one year ago burning strongly in me once again! I could sense the child like faith that was contain in me one year ago returning back to my heart ago! Yes! This is it! This is the time where i shall really glorify God's name once again! This is the time where i shall be lifted even higher once again! Amen!

Genesis Jorris 10:34:00 PM

I really want to do everything that i can for Him.. Though my human nature often creeps me from the worthy deeds to my creator, but my heart really beats to serve Him with my greatest might.. I am so little compare to all that are build to expand his kingdom.. But the Lord never once belittle me.. He never once say to me that im an useless fool who will only burden His work.. Yet he always comfort my condemning soul and speaks lovely words into my ears.. assuring me that His forte is using the weak..

Im just so small in conjunction to the whole world that he has created and the zillions of people he wanted to save.. My God so big yet he's willing to pay his full attention to me.. Its really such a honour.. Such a privilege that im not worthy to be given.. I feel so pamper in his care.. So loved by His presence.. His greatness have totally swallowed my pride.. Choking me with only humility to present and throwing me into a valley of awe. Everytime He works His hands in my life, im always amazed to tears that flood my whole world.. I just feel like singing His greatness everywhere i go, proclaiming His goodness in my own love song dedicated to only Him, that is worthy..

1 Timothy 1: 12 - 14
12I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service. 13Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. 14The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.

I was the most least of the least.. But it was God that forgive me the uttermost unworthy person in the world to deserve.. He had grace on me.. He pour His love unconditionally to me, the one who failed Him many times..

The Lord moulds me well and plan the best route that i can ever take.. And im so grateful to Him for His grace to a wretch like me.. Really.. His love is just so unconditional.. Who would love a wretch like me? And as i once was lost, he never fail to found me, when i was blinded from the truth, he restored my sight.. I could do nothing much to repay His love for me.. But i offer my life to Him to serve Him till the day i die so may i die with no regrets.. So may i see Him in heaven, and tell Him this:

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Lord that is what i long to say to you on that day i meet you in the greatest of all places.. I want to be able to proclaim i did all that i can to fight this victorious battle you have set for us against the devil.. That i finished this race towards you, not giving it up half way.. That i have kept my faith until the end, no matter what persecution and trials come in my way, i did not succumbs..

I want to live His name up High, to Boast His greatness all over the world, not to live His name in vain. I want to serve Him and die a glorious life, not until the day i leave the world then i regret not living His grace to me to the fullest. I want to bring the caregroup up High, to glorify His name with greater conviction in everyone of their life and mine.. I long to manifest the Love of God to all unbelieving friends around me.. So may they receive the salvation and start their journey with the Lord not too late.. Father, I may be the least, but you gave your greatest love to me as equally to everyone who surrender their life to you.. Anoint me Lord! Build me Lord! So may i be so stretched and expanded to serve you greatly.

In awe of your Grace.

Genesis Jorris 10:35:00 PM

here to share an illustration my lecturer shares about perception and underhand methods human being used to get their means during my UCCD tutorial.

Imagine you are being arrested for interrogation procedures. Right from the beginning, an aggressive and rude cop came in and carries out the investigation. He pulled you up by your sleeves, violently shaking you by force to intimidate you with his strength. He speaks to you from a distance of 2cm from your nose, with warm air blowing out from his nostrils hitting onto your face. He scream and shout into your ears so loud with his questions, that you can hear a deafening sound coming out from your eardrums. He kicked the chair so aggressively that it obviously looks like he wanted to assault you, but he can't since he's a police officer. He slam his record file on the table so loud that the entire interrogation room seems to shake.

At this point of time, you must have hated him so much right? Felt like complaining and pointing him back into his face but you can't. Cause he's really intimidating.

So here comes the good cop. Who came into the room, with a really nice tone, comforting you and asking the really bad cop to exit the room. She will put herself in your shoe, and identifying with you that the bad cop have been too harsh, and showing care to you, by saying "are you okay?" Then she offer you some coffee, hoping that it will help you to be more refresh cause you look so tired from that long hours of interrogation. Then she offers to ask you whether is the room too cold, and willingly help you to adjust the temperature of the room. After that she uses her really nice tone to speaks to you that she is here to help you, not to lock you up.. Bit by Bit, she earn your trust, and in your heart you will compare the Bad cop and her.

In the end, you end up trusting her. And gave her your answers to all her questions.

In this situation, People will felt the bad cop is disgusting and really bad. But who is really wicked in this case? The bad cop? Or the good cop who resort to underhand methods by tricking you in putting your trust in her, and then turn the tables over immediately after she got what she wants? Both wanted to same things. One indirectly, one directly. The bad cop is indeed aggressive in his approach, but the good cop have make full use of the bad cop, to achieve her means. She would appear to be nice, great, polite, trusting, but she also never fails to be the most wicked.

This scenario reminded me of certain people as my lecturer runs through this. Sometimes, people may have appear to be the "good cop", and some the "bad cop".. Often people misunderstands the "bad cop", and he or she can't really express their innocence, cause people judge based on what they see, not what they hear. Even if they are indeed pure in their heart, but behave in a more negative manner, people will not give them the benefit of doubt. Because of the existence of the "good cop".. These people are those who will come crying and complaining to you, making it obvious to you that they are the victims of the story. Of course, from what you see, often people will be deceive by their looks and their behaviours. They often possess the "gifting" of self condemnation, collecting sympathy and trust from people around them.

At this point of them, the "bad cop" will be reprimand, and the "good cop" gets their means. They get their ways by making people believe they are the victims, they are the one who needs to be understand, and the "bad cops" are like murdering them. But who is the wicked one? Who then is the one? Sometimes, there are just so many wolves in sheep skins. So many of them. Trapping all the "bad cops" in their awful nature of evil and cunniness. I think im a "bad cop". Not as in im trying to explain that we "bad cops" are always being reprimand for no reasons with the above reasoning, but just wanted to remind the people around me, dun judge, and do make sure you understand the full situations before starting to point out the one who is then the wicked. And a warning to all "good cops" out there, God is in control and will not let your evil means get far. You will surely collapse, surely fall, surely destroyed. Turn back from your evil ways before it is not too late.

Psalms 1:1-6
Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.
Not so the wicked!
They are like chaff
that the wind blows away.
Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.

Just a verse to share with all. Do not dwell in wickedness too long. It will cost your salvation.

Genesis Jorris 10:33:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak