.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

你的手指在我的手掌心愉動著，
讓我的心噗通噗通的跳動著。
你的一時大意，
挑動了我那脆弱的心。

為何你要如此留情？
使我沒辦法將你從我腦海里，
給消除掉。

無時無刻都在想著你。

你讓我心好亂。

Genesis Jorris 1:32:00 AM

so much to speak of,

but little can I say.

But I know that my Father,

He's aware even before I open my mouth.

God you know clearly everything,

praise You.

Genesis Jorris 2:51:00 AM

Acts 20:22-24

22-24"But there is another urgency before me now. I feel compelled to go to Jerusalem. I'm completely in the dark about what will happen when I get there. I do know that it won't be any picnic, for the Holy Spirit has let me know repeatedly and clearly that there are hard times and imprisonment ahead. But that matters little. What matters most to me is to finish what God started: the job the Master Jesus gave me of letting everyone I meet know all about this incredibly extravagant generosity of God.

Where is your urgency?
Stop worrying, thinking, pondering, involving, hesitating over things that do not play a part in contributing to the Kingdom of God.

Start focusing on what that is important,
and that is to finish this race in a way like if you're running for the first prize.

Genesis Jorris 12:30:00 PM

Quote:

I found myself thinking of you when I least expected it.

Sounds familiar?
You might discover your heart missin somebody,
that you never knew you will ever missed.

interesting.

Genesis Jorris 2:16:00 AM

You know it's such a great blessing,
that I really want to share this testimony.

Weeks before,
I had been troubled with how am I,
going to fork out for the retreat I really,
really want to hold for my CG members.
I actually went ahead and inform them,
without being really sure about the money.

Well for me I personally just regard it that,
it will definitely be done.
Don't worry so much but just go ahead,
and encourage all of them about the retreat!

But as the date draw nearer recently,
I start to panick and pray desperately to God.

Guess what?
Today my Boss told me the prospect that I got for him,
had decided to close the case with him.
And I am awarded with $100 incentive,
for that! Praise the Lord!
Exactly the amount that I prayed to the Lord.
And in my prayer I was actually saying that,
God if you were to bless me with the incentive,
I'll offer all of it to your kingdom cause.

Yes indeed, all this money will go into,
the retreat for all his faithful workers!

Furthermore to add on the blessing,
my Boss told me I've been doing well,
and if I continue to do well in my job,
he will raise my pay to $10/hr.
Praise the Lord!

God everything I do I do it for you.
Even when I work I work for your kingdom cause.
I want to be your salt and light.
And I'll always include You inside the picture.
You're my source for every single session,
of my job every week. =)

Thank God for His blessings.

Genesis Jorris 11:27:00 PM

Let's talk about LOVE.

Well.. I just thought of talking about this,

because it seems to be the hot topic nowadays,

especially among the young girls,

whom hearts are stirred by the tempting of the opposite gender.

Well...

I think I talked about this for quite many times in my blog,

and I still want to share the same thing.

Don't find love, let love find you.

Basically I find that there are just so many of us,

who attempt to search, or lose guard to just be drawn away,

with the luring of LOVE, and the temptations of intimacy coming in.

And I know its really not easy,

to cope with these temptations coming in.

Personally I experience the luring on intimacy,

as well as the "heart beating" sensation coming in,

with opposite gender.

And it is definitely not easy to reject,

especially in deep nights.

Or perhaps for some it is the long nights of pondering,

of day dreaming over the prince charming,

or sleeping beauty of your life,

that catch you falling into what LOVE has for you.

Certain people simply just have that crinking nose,

when ever they saw the one and only that caught their heart.

But what that comes in here is,

the motivation and conviction of FOCUSING ON KOG.

That's the reason why Im still here today,

and not lovey dovey with some guy out there.

There's quite alot of testing in terms of this area,

that came along my way in the past 2 and a half years,

while I was serving God.

But it is HIM that kept me focused and not wander off,

all these while.

Praise God.

It is indeed He is a great reason,

to wait patiently for the one He prepare for us.

And just an advice to those who have ears to hear,

Stop dreaming about love and the one out there.

Stop asking God is he or she the one for me?

If God's timing is right and it is His plan,

He or She won't run away. Because that is His plan.

But rather there are more important things for us to do.

Focus, on serving his ministry.

It's not easy,

but it is our responsibility for our responses,

to the circumstances in our lives.

Love can be deadly if you try short cuts.

Genesis Jorris 1:34:00 AM

Post of the day:
People that are favored, people you Disliked.

Yes today, we're touching on something interesting!
Saw that big title up there?
Yup, Im very sure it applies to everyone.

There will always be some people,
where you just love hanging out with them.
Their presence just makes you smile,
and so long they are there,
no matter how tired you are,
you will just enjoy so wonderfully the entire day.
These people just felt like the love-pillow,
whom which are available for you to hug,
when you're feeling low and cold.

And yes there are also people,
where the sight of them drives you away.
Seeing and having them around you,
just makes you feel sick and giddy.
You'll just be so upset and demoralised (so called),
for the entire day,
aso long as they are still there with you.
Its not that you hate them or are bitter with them,
but its just that when both or many of you comes together,
things just won't happen peacefully.

I think for me,
these two groups of people can be described.

1) I mix around very well with people that don't hold back themselves.
People that just simply behave whatever they want to be.
People that just go ahead and make a fool out of themselves.
People that are so real like you can touch their hearts directly.
People that just go ahead and do what they want to do.
People that don't pretend to be somebody else,
or try to make themselves as someone they wanted to be, but never were.

2) I don't mix well with hypocrites and attention-seekers.
People that behave like if they are the king/queen of the day.
People that behave differently to different people.
People that just simply fake their responses.
People that attempt to enter conversations for attention.
People that backstab people.
People that do/say/act things in their life just for the sake,
of raising themselves in popularity, status, recognition.

Who do you favor? Who do you dislike?

Its important I felt to know in your social circle,
who belongs accordingly to each category.

Why do I say so? Because.. Only after knowing,
then can you come in to apply what God have said in His word,
to love each and everyone unconditionally.

There will always be people that you favor more,
and people that you dislike.
But most important of all is after knowing,
give your heart and soul to be filled by God's love,
to love all of them, equally. =)

Genesis Jorris 1:22:00 AM

I am most upset with people,
that try to be somebody they never were.

Why are you trying so hard?

If you are wondering who am I refering,
you don't have to think so hard.
Somehow or rather if it strikes you,
then this is meant for you.

Its not that I find them disgusting,
but I really feel for them.
I felt that they are pitiful human beings,
who have forgotten where their values lies.

God didn't create us human beings to try,
to be another person.
He created us to be ourself.
Why try so hard to be somebody else?
Why don't just be who you naturally is?

It may be for fame.
It may be for popularity.
It may be for other people, to regard you,
according to the image you want them to think of you.
It may be because of your status and role.
It may be because of your insecurity.
It may be because you want others to think good of you.
It may be because you simply have too much,
to hide within yourself that you don't dare to stand out,
in the light.

What ever the reason,
I just wanna say.
Im not here to criticise.
But I just wanna say, please, be who you really are.
Don't try to be somebody else.
You can deceive them,
or even perhaps one day you can deceive me,
but you can never deceive God.

He is watching.
Stop holding on to creating your status so tightly.
Please, let go and just let everything,
be in control by Him.

Let go of your relationships.
Stop trying to control love.
Let go of your people,
stop trying to control the way they think.
Let go of your authority,
stop using it for your own advantage.
Let go of your pretentious mask,
because it is cracking, and it's ugly.

Genesis Jorris 2:48:00 AM

And Im so sad to announce..

MANCHESTER UNITED WON.

Chelsea lost.

It was DRAW 1-1 at full time!

And........

There it goes, the Champion trophy for Chelsea,

when Chelsea lost in penalty kick of 6-5.

Count yourself lucky, MAN U. =(

Genesis Jorris 10:59:00 PM

I found myself missing a whole lot of people!

I can't wait for Colin, Meihwa, Raymond and Jasmine to come back!
hahahahaha.

And I can't wait to always remember,
I am so insufficient,
but with Him, I am complete.

Genesis Jorris 1:41:00 PM

有时候我真的觉得很无奈，
就好像非常的委屈这样。
无任我如何的努力，
还是会得到一些不明白我的心意的反应。
常常我会发现自己很可怜，
没有人会体会我的感受以及立场。

身为一名领导者，
我必须拥有着宽大的心胸。
不过身为领导者的朋友们，
你们应该都会体谅我现在的心情。
领导这些迷路的羊群，
我们确实充满了爱心与疼爱。
可是有时候，这些亲爱的羊群们，
会让我们的心破碎，
使我们想爱却爱不下去。

不过仔细想想看，
我们到最后还是会拥抱着他们，
因为主的爱溶化了所有心里的不愉快。
他的爱充满了我们的心，
给我们能够在以一个宽容的心，
去爱惜这些迷路的羊群们。

I love all my sheeps,
all my people.
I praise the Lord Jesus for picking me,
to lead and guide them.
God please bless them.
Love Jesus,
Love all.

Genesis Jorris 12:03:00 AM

Testimony. Praise Him.

Recently I discovered that the Lord,
has bless me with the gift of discernment and prophecy.
In which I was amazed and really honored of which,
that He had chosen me to be His mouthpiece.

Holy Spirit reign in me, and it shook me frequently,
with His words for His children.
I obey as the spirit stirred, and spoke in faith.
These people are people whom which I may not know very well,
or which it is things that I totally am unaware.
I only knew at that point of time,
to just pour whatever that was instill in my heart.

And Jesus stretches my faith and trust in Him.
The prophecies were affirmed by these individuals,
that they were specifically praying for that area,
or that they were specifically troubled in that area,
that I have shared to them about what I believe,
the Lord has got to speak into their life.
Praise God.

It became in a way,
not about me anymore,
but I was so amazed and filled with praise,
that He is indeed so real. Supernatural.

And my face is wash with tears everyday.
He gave me a heart that is so burdened for the lost souls,
especially souls that have passed away without knowing Him.
Even when Im walking, in prayers, visiting people,
tears will just flood in my eyes.

He gave me compassion that I couldn't describe.
It's so heavy that my heart is tearing.
I want to know...
God! What do you want me to do with this compassion!

The only thing Im so convicted right now is..
There's no time to lose.. Life is so fragile.
If I don't hurry up to share His love to more,
the next one I'll be losing might be someone dear.
Im not kidding.
Its so heavy...

The burden is deep.
I got to move.
You got to move.

Can you feel my tears?

Genesis Jorris 1:37:00 PM

Genesis Jorris 12:49:00 AM

Genesis Jorris 2:11:00 AM

Heavy Burden.

My heart is breaking,
because I made the prayer to Him,
to break my heart for what breaks Him's.

My heart is bleeding for people.
God, give me the strength to be your vessel,
and lift them up.

Genesis Jorris 12:54:00 AM

Holy Spirit, filled me to the Brim.

I was so amazed by the presence of God throughout the entire day,
that the Lord never fails to embrace my heart with His support,
despite of all the burdens I've got to carry in the entire day.
It was indeed stressful and tiring,
to be leading image for the very first time,
with only one helper.
But I was impressed by Jesus,
for He have shown me how He worked through 2 person,
to create wonderful image for the stage performers.

The last few weeks had been hectic for me.
With planning of special service positioned in my calender,
plus the role of leading publicity for the special service,
as well as taking care of image for all stage performers.
And all these are not the end.
On top of these I have my pastoral role to lead,
followupping the new believers and stretching potential workers,
focusing on harvest to witness more visitors to come and join us,
and laboring in prayer for hearts to be stirred.

But Jesus is just so great in me.
Jesus worked His hands through my life,
and He fix every part of me that I lack,
so may I be sustained by His strength and His providence,
to complete everything that He have given me the honor,
to serve Him with.
Praise the Lord that I did not stumble or fall,
but rather He taught me to learn to depend on Him.
Jesus make me who I am today,
He gave me everything that I need,
from beginning and forever.

I really want to thank God for what He have done in me.
Strengthening me through this period of time,
so may I continue to remain positive and energetic.
And thank God He bless me with a boss who understands,
and have allow me to go ahead with my duties.
Without Jesus how could I survive this long!
And that's the very reason why we want to bring our friends,
to come to church and get to know Jesus.

It's really not about numbers,
its all about witnessing people coming back into the embrace of God,
and helping them to experience what we are experiencing:
The Love and Support of God.

And have I not say this?
Praise the Lord He touched the heart of our dear friend,
Laiteng, who have made the decision to come to know Jesus!
When I walked down the stairs, wanting to share more with her,
I only found her in tears, with her red and watery eyes.
I was speechless, only knew that she must have been touched by God.
I held her in my arms, with her head on my shoulder,
caressing her in my care, expressing the hug I believe,
Jesus want to give her at that very time.

I am really touched that God poured abundantly His presence.
And I praise the Lord for His grace and Love,
thus we have the chance always come together,
to worship Him.

Like to just affirm a few people..
Thank God for Jeremy, who came down for support singing despite He just had an operation on friday night. And He really had a good-spirited heart to help out by providing his accessories and clothes for the image team to use. Thank God for you.

Thank God for Jeremy from DI, for playing a big part in image styling, especially in the area of hair. I really am gladful that the Lord have given you this pair of delicate hands that can give many great transformation to their hairstyles! Thank God for your serving heart that you ran around to help in deco team, modeling team, image team. I am impressed by your spirit to serve to the best that you can. =)

Thank God for Pastor Jasmine! It was an interesting sermon preached and I believe it had spoken relevantly to plenty who were there to listen. And I believe the video was really touching, and deliver a clear message to all. Thank God that you found the video and shared it to all. And thank you Jasmine for always being there to support each and everyone of us with encouragement.

Thank God for qianjin who lend us your jeans so last minute!

Thank God for Daniel for your heart to help us out, despite you forgotten to bring your shirt. Its Okay! But we really appreciate your offer to help out! Dun need to feel sorry yah.

Thank God for Jenny who have offer to help us out in image, for make up! Believe it must have been a really interesting experience for you! Haha. But Im really glad that you came and help out because we really needed help. Hope to see you again and talk more yah. takecare!

Thank God for my beloved Meihwa. You has been an impressive and encouraging leader to me in this entire production. Thank for for guiding me and teaching me plenty of things, and providing me many constructive feedbacks regarding publicity and image as well. Thank you for supporting me along this entire period and being sensitive to my needs when I have problems coping. Love you!

Last but not least,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GORDON, MY DEAR DEAR SHEEP!

Genesis Jorris 4:28:00 AM

I am excited once again to blog about JESUS in my life!

It was a really stressful thursday,
for I was really tight up with all the image stuffs to handle.
First time leading image team for special service,
I really taste the pressure over here.
And furthermore the image team this time round,
have pretty much to do.

We've got a team of almost like 10 for drama,
and another 4 for singers and praise and worship leader,
and another of like 6 for the musos.

A total of 20 beautiful bodies and faces,
to brainstorm for their outfits, hair and make up.

But really got to thank God for his strengthening,
if not because of Jesus who was my main motivation,
I don't think I can sustain that long today.
I was having a bad headache throughout the day,
and really feel like just giving up and go off for a rest,
but somehow I was propel to stay and do what I can.
God was good he allow the headache not to aggravate,
and blesses me with great volunteers to be around,
helping me with image stuffs and confirming image.

Im thankful for all those who were helpful to my advices,
and give me full support for all that were adviced.

My heart burden right now is:
We strive so hard for drama, for image, for muso prep,
as well as the deco team who worked really hard,
and all the publicity preparation we've done,
its all for one thing. We want to see CONVERSION!
We want to see people coming back to God..
Therefore I really pray hard that Lord,
may your presence lingers powerfully on that night,
that the non-believers cannot but admit they feel your presence!
That they will be so stirred in their hearts but to receive You!
Father please bless SP UNIT with CONVERSION!
That Lord we will see this Land you've bless us,
be overflowing with new souls coming in, to serve with us!
GOD! HEAR THIS PRAYER!

I love you JESUS. I LOVE YOU. =)

Genesis Jorris 2:41:00 AM

Its like a load off my chest.

I broke out in tears,
and spoke a simple paragraph of affirmation,
but within contained much emotions,
and thanksgiving to this dear leader,
Lennon Sim.

Dear Lennon,
thank you for leading me.
Thank you for teaching me and correcting me.
Under your leadership,
I've grown greatly, especially in accountability.
It was you who taught me obedience,
it was you who rebuke me when I am wrong,
it was you who discipline me when I go astray,
it was you who was there for me when I am down.

Many things had taken place,
but in my heart you're still a great leader.
I still really love you as my leader, my brother,
because indeed you had inspire my life in Christ.
You will never fail to be one of the most important people,
that impact my life in my tertiary phase.
I just want to say, thank you once again,
for supporting me unconditionally as my leader.
Thank you for everything you've done for me,
behind the scenes, I am aware.

Appreciated you greatly,
From your faithful armour bearer. Always.

Now moving on, Its going to be a new era, for SP UNIT!
I welcome our new leader, Colin to the land of SP,
and really pray hard that we all can work strong together,
to see the land prosper and overflows with milk and honey.
I believe that God will anoint the unit powerfully,
so may harvest be bestow upon this persevering land!

I had a dream yesterday night.. And I believe,
it signify something from God.
I dreamt of myself pregnant,
and I was walking around, the fellow SP brothers and sisters,
telling them joyfully that I am pregnant!
In that dream Im not sure how I get pregnant,
but I was just pregnant like that.
Thou unsure the source of the pregnancy,
I am quite sure I was indeed pregnant.

Nel told me, it signifies conversion.
Pregnancy: New life born to earth!
And not by man pregnancy, but pregnancy of God.
Blessed by Him, just like the virgin who was pregnant,
in the new testament, by the Holy Spirit.

I am convicted and encouraged,
that on this saturday we will witness conversion!
That the Lord bless us with many visitors..
He will touch and move their hearts in that evening,
stirring their decision to come to know the Lord.
And the momentum will be strong and firm,
from which we will witness regular conversion every week!

CRIPPLED BEGGARS,
let's work hard and pray hard for the harvest!
And I so love my caregroup..
Alot. Alot.

Genesis Jorris 12:49:00 AM

I love you too, my dear son, ah Kiu.

Thank you for the card,
it was really heartwarming and touching.
I read it right before I slept and it draw tears,
to my eyes.

thank you again.
From: your monster.

And thank you for the BAK GUA!
Oh My God He really bless me through You!

He knew I was craving for BAK GUA,
and it will really motivates me MAN.
But Im even more glad that you gave it to me,
instead of having it yourself.

Im so glad. =)

Thank you SHEEP!

Genesis Jorris 3:18:00 PM

How is my heart condition?

I am in the midst of World War III,
with blood shooting everywhere all around me.
Peopl are geared with deadly weapons,
all ready to kill each other.
But I found myself surrounded by a big box,
make of the strongest material in the universe.
No weapon can harm me,
nothing can pass through the box,
or break the box which is containing me.

I am well protected and at peace.
the box is sound-proof,
preventing me from being disrupted by the mess,
happening out there all around.
I witness them killing each other,
and some attempting to attack into my box,
but all of them failed.

Unless, I choose to leave the box,
that were blessed by God, my heavenly Father.

Im at peace =)
In joy that exhilarate.
My heart is well situated in His comfort,
He gave me rest and blessings.

I love you, Meihwa.
I love you, Nel.
I love you, Joella.
I love you, my two sons (Kiu and Gor).
I love you, Crippled Beggars.

Genesis Jorris 3:59:00 PM

your hidden secrets will not forever be kept behind the scenes,
it will be revealed and transparent.

and for another,
your beautiful mask will not last long,
it will crack one day soon,
and the true you will be reveal too.

God is watching and in control.
Praise God.

Genesis Jorris 2:25:00 AM

They Don't Know What They Are Doing
From: No Wonder They Call Him Saviour
by Max Lucado

Anger. It's a peculiar yet predictable emotion. It begins as a drop of water. An irritant. A frustration. Nothing big, just an aggravation. Someone gets your parking place. Someone pulls in front of you on the freeway. A waitress is slow and you are in a hurry. The toast burns. Drops of water. Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip.

Yet, get enough of these seemingly innocent drops of anger and before long you've got a bucket full of rage. Walking revenge. Blind bitterness. Unharnessed hatred. We trust no one and bare our teeth at anyone who gets near. We become walking time bombs that, given just the right tension and fear, could explode.

Yet, what do we do? We can't deny that our anger exists. How do we harness it? A good option is found in Luke 23:34. Here, Jesus speaks about the mob that killed him. "'Father forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.'"

Look carefully. It's as if Jesus considered this bloodthirsty, death-hungry crowd not as murderers, but as victims. It's as if he saw in their faces not hatred but confusion. It's as if he regarded them not as a militant mob but, as he put it, as "sheep without a shepherd."

"They don't know what they are doing."

And when you think about it, they didn't. They hadn't the faintest idea what they were doing. They were a stir-crazy mob, mad at something they couldn't see so they took it out on, of all people, God. But they didn't know what they were doing.

And for the most part, neither do we. We are still, as much as we hate to admit it, shepherdless sheep. All we know is that we were born out of one eternity and are frighteningly close to another. We play tag with the fuzzy realities of death and pain. We can't answer our own questions about love and hurt. We can't solve the riddle of aging. We don't know how to heal our own bodies or get along with our own mates. We can't keep ourselves out of war. We can't even keep ourselves fed.

Paul spoke for humanity when he confessed, "I do not know what I am doing." (Romans 7:15, author's paraphrase.)

Now, I know that doesn't justify anything. That doesn't justify hit-and-run drivers or kiddie-porn peddlers or heroin dealers. But it does help explain why they do the miserable things they do.

My point is this: Uncontrolled anger won't better our world, but sympathetic understanding will. Once we see the world and ourselves for what we are, we can help. Once we understand ourselves we begin to operate not from a posture of anger but of compassion and concern. We look at the world not with bitter frowns but with extended hands. We realize that the lights are out and a lot of people are stumbling in the darkness. So we light candles.

Genesis Jorris 3:10:00 AM

你何必让我这么痛苦，就因为你的骄傲？
你太自私了。。。

为何你总是把自己摆得高高在上？
仿佛把权利握得紧紧的。
你为何如此重视你的威力？
而忽略了为爱而奋的理由。

只要在你的身旁，
我就感到灵魂被压抑，
就好像差一点喘不过气。
你的骄傲实在让我愤怒，
令我好想离你远远的。

你总是在夸奖自己，
总是在把身边的人的目光朝向自己。
为何你那么的在乎别人的目光？
而没有考虑到其他人的感受？

我对你绝望了。
不想跟你有任何瓜葛。
只请求你不要再伤害我脆弱的心坎，
让你的骄傲得到阻止。

请你放过我吧。
赐给那为伤害我多年的朋友。

Genesis Jorris 3:32:00 AM

My prayer.

I want to be a better counsellor and advicer for you my King. To be able to extend my arms to your children who have stumble and fall, with your anointed spirit and wisdom. Jesus please put words into my mouth so may I have the word of knowledge from your Holy Spirit that speaks into their lives. Give me a discerning heart to feel for the souls that are hurt and weak.

Give me a tamed mouth so that I will not utter speech that disturb and tear down, but I will speak words that encourage and edify. I want to be your vessel to build others up, that Lord please use me to speak your word into their lives, so may they learnt of your powerful presence and understanding of everything that they're going through.

I pray for self-afflicted souls. That Lord you'll give them the confidence and assurance in their life, help them realise it. So may they stop self condemning themselves and learn to grow out of the selfish sin. Father use me to encourage them, so may they be secure with whatever that they're facing and understand that you have your plans in what that is happening in their lives, despite they may be tough and hurting.

I pray for souls that are drifting away from your purpose and your presence. God please anoint me to help them to build a stronger relationship with You. Even if I am not in a suitable position to assist, I still ask of You to reveal to me what I can be of value to be use by You for the building of these broken souls. Help me help them to draw back nearer to You, and understand that You're the one and only they need in their lives.

With my burdened heart I pray,
Amen.

Genesis Jorris 12:41:00 PM

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
qi shi ta zuo de huai shi wo men dou dong
We all know what bad things he has done

没有什么不同
mei you shen me bu tong
Not much difference

眼光闪烁暧昧流动
yan guang shan shuo ai mei liu dong
Roaming eyes and ambiguous relationships

闭上眼当作听说
bi shang yan dang zuo ting shuo
I close my eyes and pretend they're just hearsay

其实别人的招数我们都懂
qi shi bie ren de zhao shu wo men dou dong
We know too well the tricks of others

没有什么不同
mei you shen me bu tong
Not much difference

故作软弱撒娇害羞
gu zuo ruan ruo sa jiao hai xiu
Pretend to be weak and shy

只是有一点别扭
zhi shi you yi dian bie niu
It's only a little unnatural

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
sha gua ye xu dan chun de dong
Fools are perhaps innocent

爱得没那么做作
ai de mei na me zuo zuo
Their love is not so pretentious

爱上了我不保留
ai shang le wo bu bao liu
When I have fallen in love, I won't hold back

傻瓜我们都一样
sha gua wo men dou yi yang
Fools we are, all the same

被爱情伤了又伤
bei ai qing shang le you shang
Hurt by love time after time

相信这个他不一样
xiang xin zhe ge ta bu yi yang
Believing that this one will be different

却又再一次受伤
que you zai yi ci shou shang
And yet we get hurt once again

傻瓜我们都一样
sha gua wo men dou yi yang
Fools we are, all the same

受了伤却不投降
shou le shang que bu tou xiang
Hurt by love and yet never gave up

相信付出会有代价
xiang xin fu chu hui you dai jia
Believing there will be a reward for our giving

代价只是一句傻瓜
dai jia zhi shi yi ju sha gua
And all it is, to be called a Fool

傻瓜, have you understood? Get over him, and move on. - for someone.

Its just our nature isn't it.. We fall in love, and we get hurt in the end. And despite knowing its going to hurt, we still continue. And in the end? got ourself hurt everywhere. And it takes quite a while to recover, again.

I've gotten hurt, once. last time. Got cheated of my feelings? Somehow. And now I witness how she was hurt by him. Im hurt as well. Hurt because I don't want to see anymore getting hurt.

It's going to take a long time for me,
to trust men again. Because, of what he've done.
Im disappointed.

To all men out there, cherish your girls.
Don't let them down.
Don't try to love two girls at the same time.
Don't hurt them anymore.
They are fragile, especially when they gave their heart to you.
Protect it instead of destroying it.

Girl? Move on.

Genesis Jorris 12:34:00 AM

Who am I Missing?

Im missing Jesus every single minute of my life.

I long for Him,

I seek after Him,

I run after Him,

I crave for His presence.

He strike my heart this afternoon.

Right in my pyjamas, in front of my laptop screen,

while chatting with a few brothers and sisters,

He strike my heart with an overbearing burden.

He filled me up with unexplainable grieve for lost souls,

where my heart just scream loudly in cries.

I was so burden by God about what He want to be done,

and am overwhelmed extremely by His heart.

At that point I recall the prayer I made on saturday,

where Pastor Jeff call out to the leaders to make that dangerous prayer.

Pray for God to give you a peep on His vision and burden,

and it will be too much for you to bear even thou its just a small bit.

I can totally understand and identify,

why Pastor Jeff back then in NTU, cried at the corner of the bus.

The burden was indeed heavy and impactful.

I was challenged on the spot,

to go to the campus and evangelise.

Despite of stomach flu and laziness,

I decide to obey Him! And Obedience bring Blessings.

God bless us with 10 contacts during evangelism,

with 2 confirmed visitors for 11th may event,

and 1 confirmed visitor for CYL event.

And more to come for they will invite their friends as well!

And God bless us with at least 2 confirmed visitors this sat.

Praise God!

I just simply MISS the presence of Jesus.

Because He is just so Good.

I love God.

Genesis Jorris 12:16:00 AM

Jorris's Wishlist 2008/2009

Yes I've got my spiritual and physical goals set.. But I have a wishlist to fulfil within semester1/2. Which means I got now till April 2009 to meet my wishlist! Anyway.. Those who wanna bless me with gifts, you can take these as your references. Take Note! =)

1. PDA smartphone (blackberry)
- aim to purchase by November 08
- Budget: $800

2. PSP Pink
- just something I hope to get somehow. For fun.
- Budget: $250

3. Crumpler Black
- I need a proper sling bag for outdoor activities (something more sporty)
- targeted to purchase by October 08
- Budget: $150

4. Large handbag
- White (to replace my current white handbag that is tearing apart)
- preparing to purchase by June 08
- Anybody have good recommendations?
- Budget: $40

5. Takamine Acoustic
- Range between 500 - 700 (price)
- Matt protective layer
- built-in amplifier
- black with hazel-colored woodings
- aim to purchase by 2009! (though pretty hard to get it by then)
- Budget: $600

6. Upgrading of Ipod
- Upgrade current Ipod from 30Gb to 160Gb
- purchase a good set of ear piece with earpiece strip.
- aim to upgrade by December 08
- Budget: $300

7. Birki/neckerman Slippers
- aim to purchase by July 08
- Budget: $110

8. Clothes
- New pair of jeans (I got none currently)
- 2 stylish victorian shirts (in black and white)
- plain racer-back/tube/sphags
- denim skirt
- 2 pair of shorts (white and vintage denim)
- aim to grab them by December 08
- Budget: $300

9. Fossil Watch
- want to get it by March 2009
Budget: $180

10. Laptop
- preferably HP or VAIO
- Budget: $2300

In total: I need to save up $5030 (in average optimism)
In addition to debts,
I have to save up a total of $5500.

(stay smiley, cause that's alot of money.)

Genesis Jorris 3:18:00 PM

So randomly and somehow,

me and Jolene ended up chatting about alot of random stuffs.
You can refer to her blog through my links.
And oh well, so sort of refer her readers to my blog for more.
I got to just squeeze some stuffs in here as well them. lol.

So... What did we really talk about?

I think we begin with..
Why are good men getting lesser nowadays?
(not in an effort to provoke the guys, so pardon me please)
Some how or rather we think...

We dunno.

Just perhaps we're exposed to alot of bad experiences with guys nowadays.
Just can't seems to be able to trust men afterall because of what they've done.
Because they've hurt girls like if its their lifestyles?

Not necessary all guys are bad thou.
There are a few good guys living in tertiary! Praise the Lord.
But I think not enough for the girls.. So I'll pray for more.

We ended up talking alot about our criterias of future partner..
So her's is on her blog. And these are mine...

1. can lead me, its not easy to be my leader.
- because im too demanding and im too choleric somehow. I want to be the leader, so i expect my guy to be someone that I want him to be my leader.

2. spirituality - must dream big for God, and have the burden from God

3. character - must be humorous, can make me laugh, can make me happy. must have integrity, do wad is rightful. honest and tactful. got to be caring and compassionate for people around as well. IMPT: sensitive; he got to be very sensitive to me.

*I guess I just want him to be there for me when i needed him, and provide the comfort i need when im down. and also I'll be able to do the vice versa for him as well. =)

and of course.. one impt thing is... he must know how to drive properly. he got to drive me ard, IMPT.

I was asking zul as well, are my criterias too high? He said its damn reasonable, so Im so glad. But well, to me I think the first pointer is so damn hard already... Because... I haven't really met one guy leader that will impress me? Perhaps there is. hehe. I dunno.

Was discussing with Jolene regarding something more practical as well..
She was saying if he's cute, handsome, muscular, and rich it will be great! lol.

To me.. reasonably stable in finance is enough. Of course no harm if he has the money. Not like if I dun love rich people. hahaha. For looks? I told Jolene this damn funny thing.. It totally doesn't matter to me if the guy has the looks or has good fashion sense a not. Because if it is my guy, I'll give him makeover definitely. He'll look good in the end. HELLO. Im in image team, how can I not help my guy with his image if his image is CMI? keke.

Yeah and randomly that's the end. =)

Genesis Jorris 10:50:00 PM

just a random photo.

Though it says: the endless fight of grace and pride,

but I know that within Im not thinking about that.

thinking of something else.

*God tame my heart.

Genesis Jorris 12:31:00 AM

Perplex Contentment.

Heart beat in an awkward rhythm
His face pictured in random dreams
My soul sing in casted vision
And I wonder, for what am I keen

Contained within me are thoughts complicated
My nails pierced my palm, it hurts
Im holding on to that time that our noses crinkled
and forgetting became a chore, it disturbs

Its piling in stacks of feelings
And Im not too sure when am I leaving
The arousing of love starts mingling
And it sure gets me all giggling

All I want is focus and forget
There're more important things for me to bear
So my prayer ask of God is to tear
The crushing junk that have been left

Here,
in my heart,
tear it open.

Perplex contentment,
is what that is within.
Im perplex, im confused, im all lost in what I cling.
Its strange for my soul to delight in this dream,
for though Im lost, Im lost in the joy it brings!
Let me not dwell in dreams for long,
but awakes me in clarity, so may I be clear from wrongs.

Lead me out,
my Lord.

Genesis Jorris 4:48:00 PM

He Burdened my Soul.

How can I describe this infilling of my heart with words?
Just as it was challenged in the prayer meet,
its not about feeling God, but its the infilling of His Holy Spirit.

Im a woman that can be pretty good with words,
or you can rather say I can deliver my feelings well.
But when its no longer about things that I feel,
and when it comes down to what God have poured in my soul,
Im left speechless.

I was indeed heavily burdened today.
And I have a greater longing for greater burden for Him.
Along the sermon when Pastor Jeff preached,
in my heart a voice ringed heavily:
I want to have a small bit of God's burden too.
I really long to make that prayer to God,
for Him to show me a little of His vision,
and just that will be enough to make me cry out in a burdened heart.

But Im just not fully settled in my desire.
I long for a greater burden from God,
but somehow He is telling me, its not there yet,
I can't show you the vision still.

Somehow or rather I sense in my heart,
a message from my Heavenly Father,
that He want to mould my desire and longing firm.
He want to lift my hopes and faith in Him much higher,
so as to prepare me to be ready to receive His vision,
and a portion of His heartbeat.
For somehow I believe He knows that,
I am still not ready to receive that little bit of His heartbeat.
For thou its just such a small portion from Him,
my heart is still too small to take it.
I will be overwhelmed by my cries and the burden.

But indeed today God did make an impact in my heart,
that Im even firmer and sure that I want that burden.
And Im even more determined to ask and seek from Him.

Im not afraid,
thou I know this is a dangerous prayer.
For I am ready to receive that vision,
even though it comes with great burden on my shoulders.

God I ask of You,
MOULD me.
I may be so unequipped and limited,
but Lord I know I will witness how You can use me,
to make things happen in your ministry for SP.
God, pick me up from the dust, and change me.
USE me as your vessel, to leave a legacy here in SP.
Help me to LIFT new leaders into new roles.
I ASK desperately.

(clinging on to You like Jacob, and Im not letting go.)

Just some special thanks...

thanks to uncle raymond, you had been a great buddy, a great joker, a great brother, a great advicer, a great listener, a great sharer, a great friend, a great leader, a great teaser, a great helper to me. Your presence really encourages me, and I thank God He placed you into my life. Let's work to see SP continue to grow. No matter how tough it is, it shall happen for God will make everything possible. =) And... you're really a very very nice person, this I shall proclaim to everybody so... to make it fair for everything I've teases you right? lol. But really, you've been a really nice person, and its a joy to get to know you seriously. thank you again brother!

thanks to shawn, who had spent some precious times over the msn to chat with me over alot of things regarding the unit and we had a whole lot of fun in those conversations. Im glad you're opening up more. Be blessed in your future endeavours! And Im so glad to see you growing in the Lord, and expanding in your burden for the Lord's kingdom.

thanks to crippled beggars, somehow I can sense that some of you are praying for me. And I can feel so strongly the love that is coming from you guys. Really appreciate you guys, even though I know some may not show it that obviously? haha. But I really love you guys, and I just want to say it again: I LOVE YOU. =)

and some words that I'll like to drop to some..

Just wanna say Im so glad to see you growing with the group and God recently, Jason. And you've been a great buddy as well, a really nice and easygoing brother to chat and hang out around. Just wanna thank you for being part of my life, and take good care. Move on. =)

And I just wanna say this to my dear sheep, Joella out there, I really wanna pray that you'll be strengthened! The times recently had not been easy for you.. And I really pray hard that you'll grow even stronger in this period. Had not been available that much recently as well, hope to meet up very soon. I love you!

Genesis Jorris 3:46:00 AM

Get Your Cyborg Name

Genesis Jorris 3:40:00 AM

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made
by matt redman

So fearfully and wonderfully made
how could they say
there is no God

reminded every breath that I take
it's by Your hand
I have been formed

So what am I gonna do with this life You've gave me
what can I do but to live for Your praise

You gave me this breath
and You gave me this strength
and everyday I live to obey You

With all of my heart
with all of my soul
Let every breathe I take display You
GOD

Oh...
This elegance in all You create
You grant these eyes
Leave us amazed

The wonders of the way we've been made
Speak of Your power
Tell of Your grace

So what am I gonna do with this life You've gave me
what can I do but to live for Your praise

You gave me this breath
and You gave me this strength
and everyday I live to obey You

With all of my heart
with all of my soul
Let every breathe I take display You
GOD

Genesis Jorris 2:37:00 AM

Random Photos

(some pretty old photos delayed not uploaded since quite a while ago..)

Enjoy =)

I just have to post this one. Cause its damn funny.
Seen before Gordon in a sulky and yet hilarious expression?
This is the one.

Beggars or Gangsters? Make your guess.
But of course, I only felt bad for them...
(It don't feel good to squat that long after all!)

The design of our Arete Camp Tee!
(Proudly presented by Gordon)

Forgive me for the blurness of the photo.
(Just thank God somebody help us to take group photo)
Notice: Kiu loves ATTENTION

Taupok In Action!!!
(Caught in the act: we fell off in taupoks while taking group photo)

CRIPPLED BEGGARS!
(Some not in the picture thou)
Joella, Wanting, Huiru, Jorris,
Jeremy, Jason, Gordon, and invited guest: Raymond!

The sunmoon God sect: SP2
You get Shawn, Yiheng, Vincent and Hanhong!

Our cool dudes in the unit?
Jason and Shawn!
(More likely is act cool)

The brothers of SP!
From left: Jeremy, Raymond, Shawn, Vincent, Yiheng, Hanhong, Gordon and Jason!

The Babes of SP!
From Left (first row): Baorun, Qianwen, Wanting, Jorris, Randall.
(Second Row): Peiyi, Huiru, Jolene, Yanhan, Pooiyee and Joella!

I can never get a PROPER photo with JASON forever. =.=
(Destroyed by Shawn and Jeremy)

Beloved Colin and Raymond!
(Notice the "Raymond" trademark smile)

Pooiyee and wanting.
(they are best friends forever)

Random take in the BUS.
Grandshepherd, shepherd and sheep?
ALL IN ONE?
(LOL)

Huiru and Jolene!
They are part of my CRAZY gang in tertiary nowadays.
haha.

Who's there?

COOL JO!
(she does look good in this photo!)

ME sleeping =x

Random shot in BUS.
featuring Jolene and Huiru taking their favourit BACK seats.
(And Shawn entertaining them)

Gordon with HIS Puffy hair!
(He awakes in camp, without groomin himself, and therefore found himself with his hair standing up! No cure! Only Gatseby! hahaha.)