.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

Casting Emotions aside.

儿女私情.
Let's forget about it.

It takes something really of a significance for me to be determine in staying strong in this stand.
Of course, God has that significance in my life to make me willingly give up everything.

One of the toughest test for me to undergo and overcome, is relationship.
But this time Im ready to say I want to cast all the emotions out of my mind.
And focus on God's ministry, and His great plans for me.

Surely He has His plans for my future partner.
If this man is meant to be, He will return sooner or later.
But no moves for the meantime.
In case it stirs something more in the hearts.
And interrupts the plan of God to be proceeded.

My conviction is burning stronger.
This faith is stretching like a tent for the Israelites.
Infinitely expanding for the numerous descendants.
This fire drives me to push away every single personal attitudes that hinders me.
Even if He wants me not to love, when the hearts have crossed.

God, Just make me even stronger.
To fight feelings with focus.

Genesis Jorris 11:16:00 PM

Our Heart crossed.

In love.

God with hold the sweet emotions.
I don't wanna fall into the pits so fast.

He make my heart pump faster.

Genesis Jorris 1:55:00 AM

Free worship that demonstrates Heart prayer.
Who sings the best of all?
Only those who sing with their heart,
and not their voice.

True worship you want more and more.
You'll find yourself singing,
though your heart may be dry.
Did you sing whenever you can?
Or did you sing whenever you're asked to.

The caregroup worship was a significant one to me today.

It was a test for spiritual stamina.

For those who was present, ask yourself, did you sustain thru the entire session?

Or you succumbs to your weariness to fall asleep..

Your choice not to sing more than you usually did..

Your dry and beaten soul to just slacken off in that comfortable atmosphere..

Not defending your weak spirit towards distractions?

If you manage to focus on your worship to God,

you passed the test.

I believe God is pleased with you.

When one truely worship, no distractions can pull him away from God.

The only distance around is you, and God.

Being a worship leader is not my first, not my second, not my tenth. But countless time in the unit already.. Yet never once I consider them the same. And im witnessing how God is growing me in this area of worship leading, and worship encounter with God. As im leading worship today.. Free worship comes freely out of my mouth.. And I can't explain the source of the words.. the reasons for the song.. Because, you just want to worship him with your voice and heart the moment you sense His presence.

Do you think so?

I do not know the answer to this question in your heart.

I hope, its a yes.

God please help me to usher people even more powerfully into your presence in worship.

Help me to fulfil my vision of leading worship for you in a congregation.

In a conference.

In a nation's gather.

My heart is dry, but still im singing.

Love God.

Genesis Jorris 11:34:00 PM

Prayer.

An urge to post a prayer of the day. Yet time is short.
Let me end this short and sharp.

Beautiful days blessed by the Lord.
Things going fine, but straining by the edge.
I found something missing, but don't know what is it.
I ask the Lord, but He replied in silence.
Suffocations of load brings life to my spirit.
What a contradiction! I questioned myself.
A prayer ends the noise of Life.
And brings a soothing melody to mind.
God I seek you with all my heart and soul.
Just for an answer to quieten my thoughts.

Hear this soulful prayer.

Lord I plead for peace and deliverance.
I ask of discipline and help.
Im helpless.
But my stronghold lies in you.
Help me my Lord in all the phases of my life.
Only you have the key to every door.
Bring me through the conflicts in my thoughts.
Solve the mystery of emotions and feels.
Comfort the weary body and mind.
Motivates the dreaded determination to move on and thrive.

All this I pray, In Jesus Name,
Amen.

He never fails.
He never abandon.
he never stop. Loving you.

Help is on the way.

Genesis Jorris 4:16:00 PM

Scream.

I do not understand at certain times a Woman, or rather because Im one that's why I refer it to that particular gender, will break into swings of mood that is uncontrollable and emotions can get easily extreme. Many things happen to me this one whole week. And I do not know what facial expression and emotion should I equipe myself to encounter them one by one.

Questions flood me.

Im given many situations. To solve and further. These encounters frustrates me a little. Waver me a little. Shakes me a little. Scares me a little. Worries me a little. But when I add them all together, They became a little too much for me.

Honestly Im afraid of the circumstances now. But I know they are not too much for me to handle till I fall short of the glory of God. I will stay strong with God no matter what. If I ever fall, I will make sure I build a net right now to hold me up when I did. Ensuring there's always a hand there to pull me back. However, it is the worrying and the process of undergoing that freaks me. I will constantly be put on a fright of whether they might overwhelm me and draw me away.

It takes alot of trust in God to believe He will pull me through this. However, my faith lies in Him, not lies just in faith. The object of my faith is not my faith.

My screams of frustration does not occurs in deep cries only. It includes joy, peace, excitement and fun. That's why Im confused, why I could experience extremes of life at the same time. I still give thanks to God for these beautiful moments. Witnessing new believers growing steadily for God and increasing in conviction.. Even to the extend of sharing Christ to his friends! And fun times spent with a few members of the caregroup.. along the marina bay.. Taking crazy photos. With my beloved sheeps.. Spending precious time to shop, and chat.. Seeing members of the caregroup growing well and increasing in retention.

If I were to fully describe. Im dripping tears of joy, with my lips strained in cries. Contradicting right? Ha. But Im well and healthy and doing very good! For God holds me strong, never going to let me fall. =)

I Love you, Jesus!

Genesis Jorris 9:59:00 PM

a random post.

Felt like blogging. But yet do not know what should I pen down. So forget about sophisticated posts. Let me just vent my desire to blog with an empty mind. One of the reason why my brain is suffering from blockage might have got to do with the upcoming semester tests. As well as the datelines of presentations and reports.

Oh well. An interesting day. My mood was totally pulled down when I received my phase 1 final year project marks. I got a B-, the lowest in my group compare to their Bs. Totally affected, my face automatically was being pull to the floor by 2centimetres. Im not kidding. I can't seems to be able to activate my cheek muscles and put up a smile for my lecturer and groupmates.

Finally as i continue to get piss of with the discussion, because apparently my presence do not makes a difference. The discussion was just empty bullets. It finally struck 2.30 or so.. We can leave! I quicken my step and exit the upsetting and cruel tutorial room. Ha. I may have exaggerated it. Then I met up with my beloved Shiyun. She can really brighten my days with all that interesting exclamations behind her sentences. A funny bud can seriously lift your spirits.

In return for what she have done for me, by helping me to be slightly happier, I chose to help her in principles of accounting! Laughs. Though I can't be sure whether I remember every single theory clearly, but I tried to teach in whatever I know. Better than memorising. You should understand the concepts! Though in the end she sort of flunk it due to nervous breakdown i think. Its a good time of studying together. And oh ya, she got into urbanvibe! Im proud of her. =)

Eating and studying time come next. Finally manage to meet up with nicole the babe for dinner. As usual, she's still so pretty and sweet and nice and smart. hahaha. Im not a guy, please, dun doubt my gender. We have some time together at FC4.. She's quite busy with her final year project too, just like me. Ha. Had a little peep talk here and there. Didnt touch deep anyway, cause she got to go home soon. And the rest got to go study together. Yeah. So there we splitted, and travel to the library!

Studying sort of become destress session whereby we end up playing PC games. What a joke. And for some joker, sleeping. But well! Not like we're always like that! Just today.. Too stress up ah. Ha.

Oh well. Im really slackening today. Wondering what gotten into me. Perhaps due to the fact tomorrow presentation one of the presentor is missing in action. I mean, going back to malaysia for personal reasons. So Im getting nervous breakdown. =(

Alot of things in my mind!

But something that weighs stronger and stronger in my heart is Occidental is growin stronger and stronger! The people are all getting more pump up and leading closer to GOd.. Praise God! More of us will multiply and we'll see our vision coming to a pass de! Yes yes yes~ Ha.

And had a great chat with my beloved GREAT shepherd the LENNON.. Oh well, was complaining to him that he been returning too early for too many saturdays. hahaha. People agree right? And always last minute change thing huh... HaHa. But well, People. this is a good shepherd. Im not badmouthing k. =) Just reminding. HaHaHa.

Alright. A stupid post. Im just borrrrreed.

Genesis Jorris 12:12:00 AM

Much to learn, Much to apply.

Recently I've learnt alot of things from God. And have many to apply into my life, so that His moulding can take place in me. God teaches, guides, show the way, but the second part comes in with our action. Without reacting, there will not be any completion to the moulding and thus, we will not grow and move on.

Whether you are a new Believer, a 1 year old christian, a 10 year old christian, a leader, a shepherd, a ministry member, a church staff, a pastor, this sentence still applies equally to you: Much to learn, Much to apply. There's no such things you have learn quite alot and is completing the course of moulding and transformation by God. The areas to grow is infinite, you can never find yourself near to God's standard. I've been in Hope church for 2 years, Being a leader for God for more than 1 and a 1/2 year. Despite the huge exposure Im blessed by God in this community, I will still admit, I am still so far away from God's standard. I've learn alot, but never even little in the eyes of God.

I believe everyone should have the mentality and eagerness to learn something in our daily life. God is teaching us things every single minute in our life, its about whether did we notice and observe the happenings around us from the eyes of God. Keep check of your daily life, react after asking yourself this question: "what will Jesus do?", always try to ask God what have he got to tell you through pictures you saw, views you're looking at, books you're reading, situations you're stuck at. With this intention effort to keep track of God's direct teaching, you will find yourself in a position realising, there is much to learn, much to apply. Let me share a few things God teaches me.

Patience - Being patient is not only in a situation whereby you wait. How about being patient towards people? Did you apply the fruit of the spirit before you get fumed up and explode in anger? I rebuked my niece last saturday and regretted my acts. I was filled with guilty. She may have done wrong, but do I have the patience to speak to her about her wrongs and grant her forgiveness instead of rebuking and ending up in a tense atmosphere? I need to learn to forgive others before others forgive me.

Generous - I was on this bus and it was fully packed. I was attacked with many irritating circumstances. The uncle next to me fell asleep and keep falling on me. The air con suddenly seems to have run low and water keep dripping down on me. The entire bus was so humid that I feel so irritated. At that moment, I wanted to show attitude to the uncle and push him alway so as to make him feel embarrassed. Next thing I wanted to do was to curse the bus for having drip dirty air con water on me. However suddenly Holy Spirit prompted me to calm down, and should be so particular about everything. Be generous to your surroundings. I listened to Him, and swallow my grieves. Obeying Him, soon gave me peace.

Faith - I asked myself countless time why do I not receive vision of pictures from God. God answers me during the service, with a reminder from Jasmine that vision is an image from God that comes with imagination. You can receive it if you believe in God, the imaginations that He gave you. I did not trust God enough that I could receive the pictures, I keep doubting, I keep wondering is it my own thoughts or is it from God. The fact is, I did not have faith in His vision. I will try to dilute it by my own thoughts, thus always ending in suspicions that the pictures are not from Him. I added my own colors to the picture. Altar call arrives and I ask of God to show me a picture, and I want to have total faith in Him. He showed me many people raising their hands worshipping God, I saw many faces of Occidentalists, and many others whose backs are facing me. I saw a worship team on stage. Its like an auditorium, it looks like SP auditorium. Then I saw pooiyee taking her bible, walking around SP near the library, evangelising and sharing Christ.. Everybody is engaging powerfully in the sharing of the gospel. Praise God for that vision. And I learnt, faith.

I believe God teaches me greatly in this 3 things that I've experience in a single day. Just imagine that. And that vision really encourages me, and challenged me to bring the group to a greater vision! We will have our occidental concert.. Our own mini service.. Together with many many converts, many many new brothers and sisters, and holding strong together to fulfil the great commission in the campus. Thank God!

Have you learnt something today from God? If not. Why not try now? =)

Genesis Jorris 5:24:00 PM

In High spirits right now despite Its already 2.46am in the morning of Saturday, 14th July 2007.

Really am Blessed by God with His anointing and empowerment in everyday of my life, allowing this peace and joy from His spirit to flow in my veins every single day. Giving thanks have become a part of my prayer every single time I come before the Lord.. Whether is it in a bus journey to school with my best friend named "ipod", or with another best friend call "bed" reading up His holy word and spiritual resources.. Everything that I have, every minute that I spent, I own it to the Lord.

Especially giving thanks to the Lord for empowering me during the worship leading of caregroup on thursday.. There weren't much practise.. And furthermore few days before the guitarist was in bad condition.. On the day itself, in fact the guitarist reach just on time for the caregroup, without any pre warm-up practise done at all.. I was quite worried in the first place, afraid that something technical will go wrong later.. However, I learnt to trust onto God.. Thus I left everything into His hands, and just allow myself to be at the disposal of God. The entire session was really spirit led.. I did not prepare at all for the worship prayer, yet God put word into my mouth to bless the entire session into a spirit-filled one. I believe all who was present for the caregroup worship will "amen" to God for allowing us dwell in this worship of His presence. Furthermore! At the end of caregroup.. God really blessed the guitarist for He testify despite His fingers are really painful yesterday, during the worship session God removed the pain and allow Him to play smoothly!

Great thanks to the Lord who will bless those who sincerely seeks after Him. If you come before Him, He will definitely reveal Himself to you. You will always encounter Him in your life, if you believe in His coming. Worship is the best way to scream your heartfelt desires for Him in your life.. And remember, worship doesn't starts and end in that period whereby you sing. Worship is sang by your life, how you lead your life. Worshipping God is only the beginning, true worship ends with the completion of making the effort in leading your life holy and pleasing to God. Well.. I love to worship God. And I will always want to worship Him.. My life may not be perfectly led, but I want to continue to try my best to lead a worshipping life to Him.

Jeremiah 33:3 shall be the verse for the day.

Let me call to you.
Let me hear from you.
Let me follow you.
=)

Genesis Jorris 2:45:00 AM

" The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, unhabited island. He prayed feverishly for God to recuse him & everyday he scanned through the horizon for help, but noneseem forthcoming. Exhausted, he eventuallly manage to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect him from elements, & to store his few possessions. But then one day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his lttle hut in flames, the smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened; everyhing was lost. He was stunned with grief & anger. " God, how could U do this to me!" He cried.

Early the next day, however , he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to recuse him. " How did U know I was here?" asked the weary man. " We saw your smoke signal," they replied.It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad. But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain &sufering. Remember next time your little hut is burning to the ground it just may be a smoke signal that summons the Grace of God. For all the negative things we have say to ourselves, God has a positive answer for it :

U say : "It's impossible
"God says : " All things are possible" --- Luke 18:27

U say : " I'm too tired"
God says : " I will give U rest" ---Matthew 11:28-30

U say : " I can't go on"
God says : "My grace is sufficient" --- 2 Corinthians 12:9

U say : " Nobody really loves me"
God says : " I Love U" --- John 3:16

U say: " I can't figure things out"
God says : " I will direct Ur steps" ---Proverbs 3:5-6

U say : " I can't do it"
God says : " U can do all things" ---Philippians 4:13

U say : " It's not worth it"
God says : " It will be worth it" --- Romans 8:28

U say : " I can't forgive myself"
God says : " I Forgive U" ----- 1 John 1:9

U say : " I don't have enough faith"
God says " I've given everyone a measure of faith" ---- Romans 12:3

U say: " I'm not smart enough"
God says : " I give U wisdom" --- 1 Corinthians 1:30

U say : " I feel all alone"
God says : " I will never leave U or forsake U" ---- Hebrews 13:5

- Abstracted from Jo.T blog

Genesis Jorris 12:31:00 AM

Charged.

Remember those Physics lesson that you used to have or still having them now? Charging batteries.. How do they works? It is the bond in between the postive and negative ions that matters.. As I was thinking about writing something about charging ourself up, this phenomenon came to my mind. Getting charged is not a "solo" matter, but it takes a team to complete the charging process. We are like the positive and negative ions. We may not be alike, we are different, carrying different names and properties.. But when we comes together, we create an amazing source of strength from that bond.

perhaps some reading this post right now may, "wow! I didn't know there's so much to talk about spiritual teamwork with scientific terms such as ions and covalent bonds in physics.." Well, that further describe how intelligent our God is, that He indeed created everything in union and He located the basic principles of life everywhere around the world.. To constantly remind us, many things that He wanted to build into our life, our character, our mindset, our attitude. Its complicated if you take a look at every elements in this world, how vast difference they have between each other.. But yet, they never fail to naturally fall into place with one another and reign on earth for millions and millions of years. If these elements can work together in great bonds, creating such a wonderful place for us to live, why can't we be bonded and charge as a team to create flabbergasting histories?

God drops a heavy burden in my heart to charge these beautiful and suaving sisters and brothers in Occidental for Jesus's work. Indeed they have been faithful together with me in this Occidental ministry.. Doing their best in everything they do. However the crucial period has now arrive, and we must not afford to lose the momentum! It will be too sorrowful to regret when we miss the harvest at the end of Semester 1.. I've been asking God.. At this period whereby studies are taxing on us and giving us a whole big time of stress, how can we still maintain and increase our service to you without gettin burn out?

Its the attitude.

I believe that's what God teaches me recently.. Im currently embarking on this book call "failing forward" and the entire book typically emphasizes on a person's attitude. There's nothing a person can't achieve, its how this person shapes His or Her attitude towards success. Learning to pick up from where he fail, and continue to learn from that failure. Simply it means, if you think you going to fail or you not going to be able to do it, definitely you will face a failure. You will eventually get what you want you see. You wanted a failure and an impossibility right? Likewise, If we keep holding on to the mindset that its impossible to cope with my current studies and my service to God.. It will continue to be impossible. If you think that its okay to neglect God for service and caregroup while in your busy times with friends, schoolwork, family, then you will carry on neglecting God.. Cause you will definitely get what you think. However think about it.. Whenever you had these attitudes, you will always find yourself even more burn out, even more tired, even more lost? Feeling that there's even more things you've not done yet?

To burn in there's only one direction. That's thru Jesus's way.

It is indeed tough, Occidental, to hold on to the current battle now. But it will be tougher if we going to delay our defence and allow the enemy to hack into our system, and take away our strength. You don't want to start all over again. Let's fight this together, in strong bonds, helping each other! The ions will not be charged without any one of them, because it takes all of the ions to create that bond within that element! Thus, we will only be charged when everyone of us is together, fighting! God will strengthen those who seek after Him. THE FIGHT BEGINS. NOW.

Genesis Jorris 2:24:00 PM

New Shepherdin' Hierarchy

Yesterday Unit Coreteam Meet was inspiring as Lennon bring us along the Giving Church series regarding the Significance of Giving.. Giving is not just about money, but involving your willingness to offer service, your skills, your resources, your time, your efforts, etc. Do you give regularly to God and His people?

Glad to see my dear Core teams readily there to absorb the Word.. Thank Edmund, Baorun and Pooiyee for being present. As for those not able to make it, John and Shawn, you guys really miss BIG time!

The new shepherding Hierarchy gave us a totally new and refreshed direction for our wineskins in SP. Indeed, the new wineskins are too small.. We need to disciple new leaders and shepherds to take up new sheeps and members! Witnessing new shepherds rise up is always heartwarming.. People like Gordon and Baorun, Congratulation for embarking this shepherdhood together with us in SP unit! As for thos who have new shepherds... Praise God! You gotten a new person to learn from.. Such as Shawn, Thomas, Santonoy, Peiyi.. Be pleased with your new shepherd, because they are all great and wonderful servants of God to guide your life.. Personally my Load had been relieved with people shepherding those who I've been following up on.. However, the mentoring responsibility increases! Yet Im more determine to do my best. Its not going to be an easy task.. But! God definitely will help me.

SP2 (shepherds):
Jorris - Lennon
PooiYee - Florence/Jorris
Baorun - Jorris
Brian - Gordon/Jorris
Shawn - Yiheng/Jorris
Edmund - Jorris
Pearlin - Esther
Thomas - Lennon
Geok Hian - Baorun
Santonoy - Yiheng
John - Jorris
Evangeline - Jorris
Jeremy - Unknown**

**Will be announced soon.
LETS FIGHT!

Genesis Jorris 1:33:00 PM

Happy Birthday!

Thank God for all the brothers and sisters of Hope Church Singapore that accompany me as I celebrate my 19th birthday.. Ha.. So different from Last year. I think the greatest gift I've received is being still in the same unit, but seeing a different strength, a different group of people, a different identity. Oh well.. The service was wonderfully lead, especially the praise and worship despite lennon had not been leading for quite a long time due to attachment. The sermon was really inspiring.. Preached by Pastor Jeff and guest speaker Jacob I think.. But I learned greatly about putting my confidence in God.

Oh well.. That's what I reflected for the past 2 years. Learning to put my confidence in God, than on my own wisdom, my own strength, my own abilities. We need to remember it is God that is the source of all things. Therefore, without Him, there is nothing that I can achieve. Though right now Im still learning to place my trust and confidence in His power, I will say I believe God had help me to grow strongly in my faith in Him.. my faith is not build upon myself, but on God, on His power. My shepherd Lennon on saturday night after the careleaders' meeting with Jasmine poon told me, to ponder and do some reflection on the year that have passed.. In fact, I already did it before He asked.. 3 days before.. Ha.. Well. Summarize it again! I've grown in the Lord and still much to grow! But thank God that He blesses me greatly with growth for the past 2 years... Despite there may not be much growth in my caregroup.. I believe it will definitely come! The fruits! The Harvest!

Ha.. Thank God for the bunch of TP n NP and some funny appearance like "zul" and "jiasheng" with Nel that impromptu-ly celebrate my birthday with a cake tt's left with two slices. Ha, it was used for a total of 3 birthdays. Imagine that. Joel's and Ming Guang's was near mine too. The only difference is one day from each other. Ha. Got to know new Brothers... And saw how Nel learn how to play guitar.. Ha. Then I watched Transformers! It was a pretty Good show.. I will rate it 4.5/5 stars. Good story line, have its touching factors, action-packed movie, never leave you wondering what the hell the movie is about, Good actors and actresses. But well, the only reason why it is still short of 0.5 star is because the reason why they came to this world to save human race is alittle "common". Other than that, everything was perfect I will say.

Sunday sports always had been fun. I had a good time as usual, with Shiyun and Edmund singing songs along everywhere we go. Challenging each other R&B captured songs. Well, as expected they tried to surprise me with sudden Happy birthday celebration. (I was totally not surprised at all). Yet thank God for the unit! hahaha. Its Hard to surprise me or cheat me into anything u plan, because I planned too many birthday celebrations.. I got too many funny ideas. Wait till you outplan my birthday celebrations. Laughs. But well.. The tiramisu cake they bought was super nice! And they bought a set of toiletries from Marks and Spencer for me.. Thank you SP unit.. I love the cards... Thank you sheep, Peiyi and Shiyun.. and the cookies was really heart warmin! Thank you Shiyun who have baked a cookie for me.. And Peiyi to have went over to famous amos to buy for me! Thank you all for buying the nice sparkling juice... And thank my sister who have bough a bag for me from Taiwan!

Thank you Shepherd for your Macdonald treat. =)

anticipating for my unitcoreteammeet later on! Hope nothing too surprising. haha.

Love all!

Genesis Jorris 12:13:00 AM

I broke the silent lock of my heart desire. I decide to free myself from restraint. And go forth with my passion. Because I trust that Im ready for a new horizon of challenge. I questioned the ministry. I seek for better understanding. The burning coal of fire I've swallowed years ago, is vomiting itself out of my oesophagus. And I deem this coal of fire my burning passion and conviction.

When I was questioned, why do you want to join the singer's ministry..
I humbly replied: I felt I should not waste what God have blessed me with. And leading praise and worship never fails to filled me with joy. And I believe I call it my passion, because I enjoyed doing it.

Yes. Its about ministry. 2 years have passed where I devoted fully to the pastoral ministry, focusing on leadership and teamworking with the caregroup. I gave up the chance offer to me one year back, to take part in the singer's ministry. Because I was adviced, that it is not the time yet, for me to advance horizontally, Im yet ready. I obeyed, and grow vertically, in my pastoral ministry. Bringing people to healthy relationship with God. Now its time, for me to further in my service to the Lord. I want to serve greater in other areas. That is, through ministry.

Im finally able to respond to the calls in the depths of my own world. Voicing it out to my leader and shepherd, let's see what he have for me. Lord, show your plans to me. I believe there is an unique purpose for blessing me with this voice. Though I may not perform exceptionally well, but I hear this faint calling from afar. I know the purpose is near. For this particular gifting you've blessed me upon. Therefore, show it to me my Lord. Is it your timing, for me to develop it?

Waiting.

Genesis Jorris 10:25:00 PM

Points of Reflection.

Today had a wonderful caregroup together with the unit. Thank God really for filling us up with His presence and making the entire caregroup a success. Im really glad to see new believers among us learning, and enjoying the fellowship. But its not enough! We need to see more of the caregroup members turning up for caregroup... People like Brian, Bobby, Pearlin, Evan, Florence, Elisha, Yanhan, and many more. Come and be blessed by God during the caregroup..

Want to thank God for all those who have taken role and planned well. Thank God for Shawn, Jeremy, Peiyi, Pooiyee, Baorun, Yiheng, Vincent, Gordon, Hanhong and if any, i missed out.. Without the efforts they put in and the spirit of excellence they displayed, the caregroup would not be a success too.. Thank God for their willingness to let God use them and make the caregroup a success.

Had coreteam meet with my workers before caregroup.. It was a really fruitful time of sharing too. Though I did not manage to finish the second point I wanted to deliver.. Briefly, I shared about intercession.. Something that God drop in my heart during the period whereby the Thai sisters came to Singapore. I believed my dear workers have captured my spirit of prayer for the people around us.. And I hope they have been blessed by the time of learning about intercessing for others. Lord, I pray for them to experience the joy of praying for others. =)
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Hmmm.. In about 4 days or less than that.. It's going to be my birthday and next week my spiritual birthday. Going to celebrate my 19th year living in this earth, and 2nd year knowing Jesus. Im glad today as I reflect once again my decision to receive Jesus, is not a regret, but the best decision I've ever made. I read up my posts last year.. As I first started this blog.. Around the period of my birthday.. God really mould me and change me alot. I notice that my thoughts was really immature in the past, and actually smirk at my own posts. haha. Glad that God have matured me and I believed there are many more areas that I could grow.

The best birthday present Oh Lord that you could bless me, is your love to continue to pour on these people in the caregroup, in the unit. Seeing them leading life powerfully with Jesus will be my greatest joy. I pray for your blessing upon that. And Oh well.. Im alittle afraid of this coming saturday what type of funny stuffs will I expect. Not to talk about that. Right now I just want to focus on praising Jesus for everything He have done in my life. Without Jesus, there will be no Genesis.

Anyway, 10 things I want to achieve in the 3rd year of my life with Jesus:
1. Mission trip(s)
2. Leading a Unit
3. Salvation to Family
4. Character building: Maturity
5. 20 personal converts
6. Ministry: Singers
7. Discipleship: 3 leaders
8. Involvement in Camp
9. Learn a new skill: Keyboard
10. Knowledge: Read at least 5 new books

God help me to achieve these for your kingdom sake. =) Amen.

Genesis Jorris 12:58:00 AM

I need your strength.

Been feeling lethargic from the constant toiling for the past few months. My body is weak and my spirit is low.. The desire is strong, but yet the P.U.S.H to go forth and fulfil the desire is not there. My heart felt like it had been splitted into two. On one hand, I feel like resting, because the entire body is draining off from everything it needs to remain strong. On the other hand, I know it is not the time to rest, and I need to move intensively for this coming months in order not to lose the momentum for harvest and growth.

I really need the strengthening of God. And I am determine to ensure that I do not faint off from these tough times. I must receive this strength from the Lord, to carry on expanding his kingdom. God! hear these cries! I ask of you to give me the strongest strength for my heart, my soul and my mind so that I'll receive an unknowing source of strength that will overwhelms all tiredness of my body! Give me great discipline so that I'll not strain myself in the things I do, but rather organise them appropriately and complete them with ease.

It is not only now after months of toiling then I need the strengthening of God. For the past months that have past, they are tough, and indeed I'll not overcome them with fruitfulness if not God was there to bless me with His strength and power. Many times my body will be so overwhelm by aches and my eyes near to closing as my meetings, caregroups, services approach. It feels like Im a walking zombie. Alive yet dead. Though I can choose not to go, for the freedom is mine, but whenever I decide to sacrifice the rest for God, for His people, I will unknowingly be filled with a source of strength and forget about my tiredness. The fellowship and joy will just completely submerge me in God's grace. Thank God. And therefore for this coming times, it is not because its going to be tough, then I depend on God.. But rather, it is in these tougher times, I will learn to depend on God even more, for He is the only answer for my strength.
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Recently I been hearing a faint voice in my heart speaking to me. God is warning me about something. Not purely a warning, but it comes with a direction from God in terms of my growth. He's been revealing to me through particular verses to shape further my character and I believe issues that I might face in the future if he were to place greater responsibility on me.

Romans 12:3
For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.

Jeremiah 17: 9-10
"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? "I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve."

If God were to place more of His kingdom into your hands, shouldn't it be important to remember that it is because of God, that's why you are entrusted them, than because you are capable, that's why you possess the authorities? God is helping me to mould in this area to prepare myself for greater plans I believe. Im awaiting for His plans to fall upon me. But before that, let me be ready first. Let me be mould to be mature enough to take up this role.

Thank God for your beautiful revelations. Indeed nobody can understand my thoughts, not even myself fully. But only you. It can be really deceitful on its appearance, good on the surface, rotten in the inside. Lord I want to do great things for you, not just good on the surface, but with great intentions for its purpose. Help me to learn through your word.

Meanwhile like to encourage people out there too.. Sometimes, you maybe desiring to serve God greater in a different role as you are in right now. You hope to expand your territories and take up more responsibilities.. You may have asked God before this question: "God I have the desire, send me! But why have your calling not come?" You may want to reflect on what God have been telling you recently.. Think, is there anything God wants me to change? Is there any areas that I am doing, which is not pleasing to God? If you have the desire, God will help you to be ready. But you have to listen attentively to his guidance and change accordingly. Just as the verse in Jeremiah speaks, the heart is deceitful. Ponder on your actions and thoughts, is there anything that you do that is not of a good intention? Let God help you be cleanse off from these evil thoughts... Then He will make you ready for greater plans. =)

Genesis Jorris 2:01:00 PM

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