.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

... no matter how good your life is now, it can't be the best life until you are living the way you were created to live. And no matter how lousy your life is now, it can't too deep down in that bottomless pit that God's love cannot reach - He will put your feet on a rock instead of sinking sand.

- copied from Meihwa's blog.

Genesis Jorris 3:28:00 PM

It's a blessed day by Jesus,

for He gave me opportunity to witness faith that pleases His soul.

He gave me comfort and relief,

through the transformed souls among my dear sisters.

The caregroup was delivered in a simple way,

but it soothes my heart deeply for the Lord's presence was there.

All my pressurized thoughts and troubled-heart feelings,

were lifted away when I saw the child-like faith in their smiles.

I am glad and honored I have the chance,

to experience God's presence together with these sisters.

Indeed "faith" has drifted apart from my burdened mind,

and I am reminded to believe in Him for what I have not see.

And so now I come before Jesus in repentance,

to ask of Him to forgive me for my iniquities.

God please take away my unbelieving past and mentality,

and grant me your grace to continue in stewardship.

Help me to persevere in these tough situations,

and never to give up when going through testings and trials.

Right now I really feel like going to the beach,

enjoy the sun as well as gettin a golden tan.

The wind will blow against my hair and the feeling will be damn nice,

enjoying the view of the sea, the sand and beach babes/hunks?
It's just something I like to do...

To get some relaxation for my soul.

Anybody interested? =)

And also.......

Im intending to revive the sunday sports for SP unit!

Anybody ON in terms of this?

TAG me up on the tagboard!

My hands are getting itchy with some basketball tournaments, badminton competitions, etc!

Come on SP-ians, don't be lazy! haha.

The sun turns the sea that stretches wide across the beach into a golden reflection

But can you see the true beauty beneath?

Genesis Jorris 12:29:00 AM

A Monday evening. 28th July 2008.

wow.
There's like quite alot of things I think today that came up to me.
So much that Im pretty speechless about what to say.
But still I wanna blog it all out because they are pretty interesting.
It's a turning point to my recent days and emotions as well.
Sort of turning for the better, which is pretty good I believe, laughs.

The monday dinner in campus had very few people around.
I was pretty upset to see only a few guys turning up.
There's this pretty big burden in my heart for the brothers group,
but I really don't know how am I to express my thoughts to them.
It is really challenging for me as a girl to lead the whole bunch of them.
I really need God's strength to keep me going for the vision.

The "mango" and the "papaya" joke was flying all around.
For more information, you can approach Santono or Wanting.
But it did leads the entire group to be laughing for quite a while.
Jireh threw a crushed piece of paper into Pooiyee's hook, her jacket.
And Gordon threw a 2 dollar note into wanting's mashed potato's sauce.
Pretty random, but I think it's really funny.

Soon after the dinner more left for home and some went for basketball,
due to the demand and request of Peiyi, you know her ya.
I went because I left my bag with them and they took it to the court.
But it was fruitful at least! They got to know this guy named Raymond.
He study the same course as gordon, digital media design, year 2.
I really pray hard that this guy will come to join us in Hope as well!
God bless us please with converts and responsive hearts!

And oh ya....
I am very encouraged by this sister, Jolene.
She is always very gentle and encouraging with her words.
Thank you dear sister, and Im glad I can make a difference in your life as well.
Continue to grow strong and be focus on Jesus!
Let's look forward to the overnight and delicious supper =)

Another thing that I am concerned with is...
this friend whom I got to know around 4 years ago, came to talk to me today,
out of no where, suddenly, about religion, christianity.
Well, the conversation was pretty tense, because he is quite firm,
with his perspective that success have to be earn by our own sweat and efforts.
There will be pretty much to talk about if I were to pour out the entire thing,
talk about it again next time..

But really it strikes my heart at that point of time,
this friend really need God in His life.
He need God to help Him see clearly.

God use me, use us to continue to help more people see what You helped us see.
Love You Jesus!

Genesis Jorris 3:50:00 AM

When you faces rebellion towards your good intentions
Swallow the sacrifices and remember His rewards

When negative times haunt you and surround you with pain
Pour everything out and be filled once again with positivity

When situations are not in favor and forces you to think of giving up
Remember His word and allow it to encourage you to continue pressing on

No matter what,
I will not let go.
Hold on,
not to give up.
You will make me strong.

Genesis Jorris 10:29:00 PM

IFLJGU.

Genesis Jorris 1:00:00 PM

maligned.
cries.
deafened crowds.
soloness.
creeping pain.
tearing hearts.
tears.
hurt.
wrong to ignore.
wrong to care.
nothing seems correct.

random.
Nobody cares.

Give me a reason for your hatred at least.

broken.
sacrifices at this point of time
seems to be of no significance.

Im just a nobody.

Genesis Jorris 2:05:00 PM

A beautiful kite soar amidst the deep and wide sky that reflects magnificent beauty.

The soft and massive clouds embraces the blue and gentle sky,

highlighting the already near to perfect background surrounding the beautiful kite.

A flock of swans flew by, admiring the flight of the kite that flew in stability.

Not even the advancement of planes that pass by can be compare,

to the beauty that spreads and cover the entire sky from the simplicity of the kite.

Sun rise, sun sets.

Storm strikes, Rainbow blew across.

In times of good and bad, the kite continues to flew in stability.

Passer-bys were amazed by the wonderous performance from the kite,

for kites cannot fly by it's own, but are controlled by circumstances.

For they are attached to the string of the world,

owned not by nature, not be freedom, not be their creator.

For these kites are tied to their owner of this world,

tied to commitments, tied to what they can't let go.

Let the string snapped, and not to worry about the vast sky that awaits.

You may be in fear, how being a tiny kite can survive amidst such a wide sky.

You may be in doubt, how is the kite going to find directions, and not to get lost.

But the nature will show you the way, once you took the step out.

I am a little kite.

In many eyes, I am like a beautiful little kite.

Surviving well, amidst the beautiful sky that reflects the challenging world.

When I faces the different circumstances in my life,

I managed to hold on, I managed to pull through.

But despite the fact that others regarded I've succeeded,

I've failed.

I am still bound by the string that attached me to a start that I am not aware.

I want to head towards the end, and finish this race.

But I am bound.

Only Him, with His nature, can assist me to snap the string,

so may I be grant freedom forever,

and be soaring in the wide and blue sky for eternity.

Me, the kite.

Him, the sky.

His power, the wind.

His beauty, the sun.

Snapped string, my sins.

The start, this world.

Genesis Jorris 2:03:00 PM

development, gradual increase.

growth.

Our Vine the Lord,
with us His branches.
The call has arrive,
to harvest and reap.

Fruits are overflowing in abundance,
workers have to be alert,
to receive what that are going to be pour.

Praise GOD.

Anybody with me?
We're charging.
His sake.

Once again, the Lord speaks:
I am the vine, you are the branches.
If a man remains in me and I in him,
he will bear much fruits.
Apart from Me you can do nothing.

We need the Lord to water the seed that is planted.
Have you ask from Him for His divine water?

=)

Genesis Jorris 2:16:00 PM

Age.

What's your age?

And what's the age of your heart and soul?

This two word strike my heart recently,

SPIRITUAL MATURITY.

It's a pretty much discussed topic among many,

perspectives varies and there's a big range of answers.

So what exactly is spiritual maturity?

How do you measure the age of your spirituality,

in which determines you gradually maturing towards,

His plans for your life.

Was striked with a sharing recently by a brother,

whom which is someone I respected and look up upon.

He mentioned:

I don't find myself much mature and experienced with the word,

despite after reading and exploring it in depths.

In my heart I was wondering,

even for such a brother who has wide knowledge of the word,

acknowledge and confess his thin maturity in knowing the Lord.

What about me?

What's the measurement?

Somehow it is impressed in my heart,

there's an endless depth towards maturity.

But yet a genuine follower continues to seek for maturity,

in faith and relationship with the Lord,

because he/she ask not for return or a recognition to his/her spirituality.

It's the need,

for reconciliation with our Creator,

our Father,

our Lord and Saviour.

My heart now boils down to an urgency,

to grow in my faith and my perseverance to align with His plans.

For I long to bring application of the word in my life,

to allow truth to guide me on the right path.

I evaluate and question who am I in the past few days,

and I recognise that I have much to grow,

much to realise and be mould.

I am still a child, yet to reach the finishing line.

Thus all the more is there this desire within me,

to ask of His strength and help for my character to be groom,

for His purpose.

I humble myself down,

and ask of Him to make me new.

Make me His.

Genesis Jorris 1:02:00 AM

Siento-me somente tão abandono ou antes, perturba de por que somente de qualquer maneira im como unlikable e não pleasable às pessoas.

Sei que Im somente recebendo um pouco ou talvez bem um pouco emotivo por aqui, mas eu somente não posso deixar para comportar-me e para sentir-me esta maneira quando todas situações vêm esmigalhar para baixo sobre mim. É somente tão tenso e rasgar meu coração à parte, e está o que eu chamo hemorragia.

O que está de qualquer maneira eu penso que eu estarei bem, mas im justo sofrendo outra etapa de situação emotiva e também ainda estabilizando por minha etapa instável. me perdoa para meu comportamento e sentimentos imprevisíveis e reações, talvez menopausa.

Espero-o ninguém vai a entendimento o que eu bato e diz por aqui, mas se aí iam estar alguém que faz esse tipo de esforço ir cheque para fora que todo estes meio, eu aprecio o que você fez e quer contá-lo Im bem, somente ignora estes ya. O Im somente esvaziando, e então estarei bem.

Tá bom, isto é todo que devo dizer. sente-se tanto melhor agora mesmo. Deus! Segurarei firmemente e eu não soltarei no fim do dia. porque sei que você é minha fonte final, e quem eu posso ir a homem se éramos abandonar em você? Isso é somente tão estúpido de mim se éramos fazer isso. Agradece Deus, eu amo-o ainda e irá sempre.

Genesis Jorris 12:24:00 AM

Had a wonderful day,
because God bless and answer my prayer,
to have a successful and peaceful caregroup.

For days I had been bothered by things like studies,
therefore hadn't been able to focus on planning,
an official first caregroup for SP3.
I keep asking God and praying for His guidance,
but nothing much was reveal, which left me panicking.

Somehow or another, I was stress out further,
when some of the role-takers had some problems,
in fulfiling their roles, thus resulting the actual plan,
to unable be fulfiled in the end.
(it means that I have to replan ultimately)
So I am further stress out with this situation happening.

But God is faithful and will never leave me alone,
facing all these problems alone.
(so long I trust in Him until the very end!)
Guess what, until today before the caregroup,
I still keep praying that prayer in my heart:
God I believe in You and I need You desperately,
no matter what I trust that You're going to do something,
and I am waiting for Your hands to come upon me,
so may this desperate situation bear Your fruits.

God suddenly bear fruits in my mind,
where I am impressed in my heart of what to do.
Indeed He allows plans to flow suddenly,
and I know very well these are not within my ability.
It is Him indeed that have allow every single plan,
to come true in my heart and be fulfiled as SP3.

God I thank You for blessing the time SP3 spend together,
indeed You were there with us when we fellowship,
Your presence is so strong when we come to You in prayer.
I give thanks to You as well that You open every heart,
so that the sharing session of ourselves turn out successful.
You blesses individuals with honest feedbacks and advices,
as well as great encouragements with affirmation through ourselves.
God you're awesome and I praise You in Jesus Name.

Help me to continue to learn to focus and depend on You.
I NEED YOU LOTS.

love God.

Genesis Jorris 1:08:00 AM

Tell me who am I.

All I want,
is rest from your irritation and frustration.

Genesis Jorris 9:10:00 PM

Blessed is the man who walk according to the book of His law.

His word had been a strengthening source for my life,
and had it not been Him who have spoken great wisdom,
I would have long fall deep into the valleys of hell.

There's this girl I know,
who always ask herself or rather is always questioning,
about her abilities and how far more can she do in her life.
I will often pause and wonder for a while,
and then answer:

why are you in doubts and questioning your future?
Don't you know that Jesus is in control,
and He is sufficient for you to be confident of your future plans?

A repentful heart often arises,
but yet she will comment that though she knows the facts,
as in the truth that God is indeed in control,
but it is a different thing to believe and trust and be freed from doubts.

How many faces the same thing as this girl?
You're not alone. In fact plenty do as well.

But I believe in a way or another,
God have His ways to assist us to come back in focus on His plans.
This is where our perseverance comes into the picture.
Be persistent in our faith in God,
trusting in Him even when we don't feel Him.
It doesn't means that Jesus is not alive when we do not feel Him.
It only signal to us that all the more should we stay closer to God.
For those who pass the test and persevere throughout,
will definitely get to experience His presence.

An encouragement for all who are discouraged,
He will pull you through so long you hang on tight.
Just don't give up, and don't let go.

Genesis Jorris 3:01:00 PM

I want to be His vessel.
A woman whom He will use greatly for His kingdom.
Not for my glory or my receival of praises,
but just simply because I want to have more chances,
to praise Him for His wonderful deeds in my life.

I am not somebody great.
In fact Im a nobody.
Im neither rich nor powerful,
nor do I have extraordinary abilities or surpassing looks.
Yet I am filled with such confidence for the Lord,
is the reason for my trust and faith.

I thank Him.
Do you?

Stop doubting and allowing such depletion of your confidence be contained in your heart. Trust in His greatness for He can make it successful in your life. He'll transform you.

Genesis Jorris 10:32:00 PM

random pointers:

congratulates david, davin, mark, gabrielle, bree for their water baptism!
celebrates the conversion of Jorghi and his decision to receive Christ
congratulates in joy for Yushan's decision to commit to Hope Church Singapore
a prayer for Zhanhong's decision to reconcile with Jesus
my heart is burden, His hands yet comforting
I love my sheeps and my armour bearers, your support had been comforting
To love unconditionally, that's my wish and your command
use me greatly, I want to be your missionary in east malaysia
bless us in pioneering, use us to see a fruitful Poly ESS
a prayer for dear sister guisiang, that Lord you shelter her in her family
my heart was broken, mend it for it wasn't broken intentionally
Love is just so unpredictable, tell me what is love?
I love my family, I love my friends. All are precious to me, Cherish them
Jesus gave me life, He restore the chance for me to live, praise Him
Father give me what I need, to lead the men of SP to growth n Harvest
I need your providence, I need your anointing in order to claim revival
I pray you help me in my studies, that Lord I'll succeed
Bless Joella, bless her whereever she goes, may the Lord be with her
Thank you for my leaders, Jasmine, Colin and my shepherd, Meihwa
Help me to know how to deal with the problematics
Bless us with more conversions and rededications
We want to see more year 1 brothers coming back to the KOG
use us for Lord we want to be use by you, work in us with your hands
Create in me a new heart for God I want to always move anew for you
Take away past memories that will hinders me, start afresh
forgiveness in me, patience in me, love in me
Prayer for wanting and laiteng to grow strongly as your female leaders
Let me use my spiritual giftings to the fullest: SING for you
groom everyone so may we learn of your plans for us
help us to witness a poly service at the end of this year!
help me find him soon, I want to know, or at least assure me
stay focus, help me remain focus on your plans not my thoughts
all things to you my God, in Christ alone.

Jesus I must Praise.

Genesis Jorris 2:12:00 AM

The heavenly Father dropped His powerful word upon His humble servant:

I will use you greatly.
Not because you are good,
but because you believe that I am good.
Continue to trust me and depend on me,
and you will witness revival among the SP brothers.
I will pour my anointing like streams of water,
to provide for you everything you are in lack.
When you cry out to me in tears and pain,
I will wrap my arms around you in comfort.
Your faith in me shall not be in vain,
but it will come in great return of my rewards and blessings.
Remember, I am the vine, you are the branch,
without me you are nothing.
But together with me,
nothing shall be impossible for you.
For I have spoken, In Christ you can do everything.
Nothing shall be impossible.
DO not doubt, do not fear, do not be disturb.
But take up courage in my power,
for I will bring you through to witness what I will be doing,
in this entire ministry of brothers in SP.
I have chosen you, I have picked you.
Trust in me, and not doubt or wonder about your abilities.
It shall be me that you will focus,
not upon yourself, or anybody that you have with you.
I will unite your team together,
I will provide everything that you need to lead the group.
You plant the seed, they come along to water the seed,
and I will make the seed grows.
You can't do this alone,
your team can't do it without you,
and you all can't do this without ME.
But when all of us come together,
the revival shall be CLAIM.
WE will witness the growth and transformation to the guys,
coming to a pass in this prophecized year.

Trust me,
Focus on me.

I love you my Lord.
Let me put my 101% focus upon you.
Im waiting.

Genesis Jorris 12:53:00 AM

I realise somehow, it's been quite a while since I last blogged..
Wow, seems like alot of things happened in the past few weeks..
Do not really know how to say, just problems and problems on top of each other.
But well for those soulful friends out there who may be concern,
Im very fine currently so do not worry =)
Just a little irritated and locked in thoughts by them..

Bet many people are aware that a few days ago was my birthday,
I expected somehow or rather, it's not going to be a very happy one?
I thank God for all those who tried to celebrate my birthday,
and I apologize that I didn't really reveal the "surprise" n "joyous" look..
It's a little hard for me to put on that smile after so many things,
happen in my personal life recently ya.
But like I said, and I say this again, no worries!
Because philippians 4:13 had been my support and is going to,
continue strengthening my daily life.

Just to assure those who are worried about me,
Im already discharged and am very fine already,
so don't have to still keep thinking whether have I recover already!
Talking about gettin hospitalise, I think Im used to it.
At an age of 20, I've been hospitalised countless times.
It's a lifetime health problem that I'll be attached with,
therefore I am prepared to face it somehow.
wanted to just speak to all who are healthy and well,
do cherish your health, because there are really plenty of people,
who hope for your health but never get the chance to.

Since just had a relapse not long ago,
I am facing the same problem: losing a portion of my memory.
Have to say this time round it really frightens me,
because it is really no kidding to forget and can't recall,
even to very simple things that had happened not long ago.
Forgive me people! If I somehow seems forgetful,
I don't want to be like that yah.

Have been facing conflicts with my family, or rather my sister,
once again.. Yet somehow I am assured,
because my conscience is clear together against her.
Let not my faith be diminish just because of the disagreements,
but let my faith continue to be firm for I trust that God,
will make a way out for me somehow or rather.
My prayer is that Lord will bless my parents,
not to be affected by the conflicts.. And that they,
will be able to continue to live each day joyfully.

Not to talk about all these!
Right now I am leading a challenging group that God have called me to..
And He gave me a vision, a burden, a heart for them..
In the beginning I was still questioning, whether am I ready..
But indeed God has His timing, He make me ready,
when the time has come, NOW.
Now Im ready to charge and go all the way out,
and I really want to see these guys in SP,
to grow strong and fruitful.
Seriously it's not going to be because of me,
but this entire team is going to be the reason..
For He is going to use every single one.

Let's come together to see something happen.
Last but not least,
I love you Jesus.
Thank you for being here with me,
in every single battle.

Signoff,
genesisjo.

Genesis Jorris 1:30:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak