.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

today is the very last day of august. the beginning of the month that i've been talking about will starts tomorrow. SEPTEMBER. the month of challenge. the month of changes. the month of trials. the month to adapt. the month of growth. the month of breakthrough. the month of faith.

yesterday we had our very first SP praise and worship night.. it was very enjoyable.. considered a success besides the areas that we can improve.. it was a breakthrough for us! everyone were greatly comfortable with the flow of the event and new faces appear among us.. John and elisha was refreshed by the worship session.. gar meng rejoining us for caregroup.. yiheng shared his faith testimony.. zul and esther have their coordination of e-guitar and acoustic guitar done well.. randall lead very well as the host of the event.. Jasmine manage to turn up despite she was grounded.. people were draw back to god! all returned back home!

after this very night it will mark an end to weariness. an end to stagnant growth. an end to weakening spirit. an end to discouragement! the month that follows, september shall be the month that renewed everything in SP unit!

this shall be my prayer for my fellow warriors in this battle against the enemies of the land of SP, the land that shall perseveres through storms and thunders to receives the final promise!

father! hear my cries! like a widow who cried out to you for you to resurrect her just born child.. Lord let your arms be upon this land that have cried "why" out to you for all these while.. allow us to be able to linger in your embrace after all the tough times we suffered in dryness and pain.. Lord let your harvest pour sparingly now! Stirred the hearts of all the weary warriors to get ready to fight the battle once again! Remind those who have forgotten to return to your tents and eat your food to revive their energy in your countenance and be filled with the holy spirit! Oh your greatness have amazed all those who have been faithful to you.. but lord return and answer our prayer fast.. for we can't hold on for too long.. Give your vision now to the chosen one! Let those who seek you hear you, who cry for you find comfort in you, who are desperate for you see you face to face.. In store in our hearts not to dwell in the past failures.. but to have faith in the future that contains hope and success! Father discipline those who have potential to lead people in your ministry.. assist those who were born with your giftings to discover their ability.. grow and stretch the faith of the new followers.. Let them all rise up and serve in the name of Jesus! Bring them together with the commander to the front line and fight with all their might!

Lord prepare my heart to get ready for the battle.. Lord anoint me with your power, favour your chosen servant to be able to bring the army into the wild land and fight off the battle.. we are small, but we have a big big heart! Help me to stay discipline in my life and to always remember the foundations so may i be in line with your word of truth to lead the people to greater heights.. Bring me far to bring them far! Lift me high to lift them high! Guide me through to get them through it all! Jesus i shout out loud, AMEN!

Genesis Jorris 7:46:00 PM

wow~ realise im blogging lesser and lesser.. im sorry my dear audience, am really packed with loads of things to do.. a new encounter.. new direction.. new enlightenment.. new growth.. new faith.. new focus..

this month is a breakthrough month. a month of growth. a month of changes. a month of testings. a month of leading. a month of uniting. a month of persevering. a month of transforming. a month of faith. a month of truth, a month of anointment.

my heart is filled with assurance from the lord of his anointing. Of his presence and his guidance to be with me throughout the times as i serve in his ministry. im serious about what i want to achieve for the sake of the lord.. all for him! planning planning... Lord! help me in this.. need ya assistance in all the works and deeds!

YOU CHOSE ME

AND CALLED ME BY NAME

Genesis Jorris 2:44:00 AM

We're going to the zoo zoo zoo,
so how bout' you you you?
You coming too too too!
We're going to the zoo zoo zoo......

YEAH! its the nature appreciation day, for the twamers and choir/singers ministry to come together as one in the BIG FAMOUS zoological gardens! Had a great time fellowshipping with them and indeed it was a fruitful time..

The nature explorers are: Jo-n, cherish, Joel, Joe, Jincheng, Jessie, Randall, muahmuah and Jen! These are all ministers of god who are serving faithfully with all their hearts using their skills and talents! never really have a chance to mix with them until today came by.. glad to know them well today! Realise one thing.. often people tend to felt that the twamers are very different from the rest of the congregations, in a way that, they have lesser chance to blend around.. perhaps, both parties wanted to mix but dun have the chance! Today i felt that, they are just like us! All the same, Childrens of God!

remember the song?
All over the world,
People just like us..
Are calling your Name,
Living in your Love..
All over the world,
People just like us..
Are following Jesus!

We are all the same people! Joel was really very lame and crappy.. He is like, OMG, every single thing he can crack a JOKE! and he is so full of energy from the beginning till the end.. never RUNS out of things to say! Jo-n was sharing alot of her "language" and "moley" jokes.. hahaha. (due to covenanted reasons, i shall not reveal more. LOL.) cherish let me realise her PENGUINS madness today.. as she really CRAZILY took photos of them! i think at least 20 shots.. OMG. and she is so afraid of reptiles! especially snakes.. she actually SCREAM during the amplitude show.. haha.

Jincheng likes to enjoy the serenity, the scenery.. haha. like some very sophisticated guy who love the quietness of the nature.. Joe, was very quiet too! remember he was my floor manager in usher team too.. haha. still the same.. MUAH MUAH attracted the penguins alot.. when she reach over, all of them came over to her! keke. RANDALL was like a little GIRL out with us making all sorts of noises and nagging that she haven't seen many other animals.. PARTICULARLY the white tigers! Jen was really a great companion.. haha. felt really comfortable with her around.. too bad she didn't catch the "he ma".. LOL.

in all cases.. it was really a fruitful DAY! thank god for Jo-n to have plan this wonderful trip together.. really gain alot from today, with the building of relationships with the brothers and sisters i rarely mix with and to understand the musicians and singers better!

LOVE YOU GUYS. LORD let me serve you more.

Genesis Jorris 9:23:00 PM

This blog is totally about RANDALL. every thing about her.
STAGE 1:

haha. after two week of experience tonning at her house on saturdays.. you know what? she surely cant get married for SURE.

the reasons are:
1. she laughs like coffee shop uncles.
2. she behave like a GUY at home.
3. she run like PEACOCK to turn off the boiling water.
4. She eats a KEYCHAIN from the cracker freebie. mainly it means, she eats without LOOKING.
5. Her pyjamas got HOLES. (and i wore it last week.)
6. She use johnson and johnson baby lotion to remove makeup.
7. her ROOM is equivalent to my storeroom.
8. she IMPOSE me.
9. she IS a pig.. want to sleep EVERYDAY everytime.
10. She have a WEIRD sleeping position.
11. She want to eat maggi mee in the middle of the night after a packet of crackers.
12. She can get MAD at night.
13. her power sockets can get really SCARY. (i think i might get a shock)
14. She's getting fatter.
15. She getting fatter and she not going to do ANYTHING.
16. she got BIG nostrils.
17. She have bowled-like hair.
18. She have a GREEn flowery blanket.
19. She likes to read those UNCLE "wan bao" - newspaper of gossips.
20. She watch TV in the middle of the night.

the above comments are subjected to the official opinion of genesis jorris alone. Not meant to influence people's opinions of randall. in all circumstances, i will still love this sister of mine.

STAGE 2:

the imposter act. IDENTITY switch.
we have a damn stupid time imposing each other on MSN. i log in to her account, and she did the vice versa. everybody was tricked.

a message to all.. who suffered that night.. especially the following people: lennon, yiheng, edmund, josephine... didn't meant to give you all a hard time just now, but do tolerate with a little sister madness when we are together.. hehe. we're not really stupid, that we're just having fun with each other. making everybody blur!

randall is hard to be. jorris is hard to be also. final conclusion. we can never be each other. we are unique! jorris eat very little but is fat. randall eat ALOT but is getting fatter. the typical SISTERS of SP, authentic drama twins. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS.

you know one thing?

randall fall in love with me. OMG. she simply love me. what to do? when a person love you with all her heart.. you will MELT. OMG.. she says, she is like the sea, and i am like the lobster, cant do without each other.. damn it. so mushy!

NO GGR in tertiary. so, randall im sorry but to tell you i cant reciprocate your love for me..

The above plot of the identity switch is not meant to be absorbed ane remembered. it is just for entertainment sake. so therefore my faithful readers, dun mind US.

=)

Genesis Jorris 1:32:00 AM

wheee~

with my DAMN RED skin i actually dare to step out of my house and went for caregroup! well well, it doesn't matters... " i dun care what people will say................." keke. this is a very famous tag line with many people now! you know what im talking about.. haha.

caregroup was fun and really great! we have some truth or dare gaming together...... really CRAZY time saying the truth and daring each other.. haha. edmund, the SUPER DUPER noisy boy, kester was really excited, randall DAMN malu, gideon damn PATHETIC ( kanna KISSED by edmund... ahahha.)

the dinner was really nice! the curry was really tasty, with my favourite potato, and some soy sauce lean meat.... wheee~ had a great time eating together as a unit, one thing for sure, everybody agrees the food was nice! edmund really have a stomach as big as the universe, he ate three BIG bowl of rice! darns. i love curries! especially when you lavish it on your white beaming rice...... OMG. you can melt.

after the dinner everyone sat in a circle with a DAMN full stomach.. and we chatted about the caregroups we used to have in the past... was talking about the most memorable caregroup, every body was sharing about their first CG! haha.. its always the first time that give you the best impression! i was sharing about my first time planning a caregroup... that time, randall was my CL, she was abroad! and i was like in the church for 3 to 4 months.. dots. have to plan for the CG! simply dun no anything.. but just gave my best.. it was a wonderful experience.. very humorous too... haha. cause we sang god he reigns, then perhaps god listen wrongly due to our very BAD pronunciation, "god he rains....." and it really rains! thunder strikes... rain pour..... WAHAHA.

gideon was upset a little by the WRONG colouring of his highlights.. and he insist ME, the hair stylist to help him redye his hair! sooop, as the caregroup come to an end, was helping him dye off the reddish area and hoping that we will get a good effect after that! yeah! it turns out well as we wash away the dyes... haha. he should be happy now! believe its going to looks great with some clay and matt styling on it. randall cut her hair too.. BY ESTHER. she got the very nice CHINA girl look now. really nice! i tink. if she do more to her hair. the fringe suits her lar. =)

wheee~
felt really happy nowadays. perhaps because...
my days! are really fruitful in a sense!

I LOVE YOU. ALL!

Genesis Jorris 11:49:00 PM

wheee~ damn happy recently.
just realise its been very long since i actually post long long posts about my days.. sorry my readers, due to exams i can't focus! haha. now im back.. to give you my LONG LONG day... YEAH!

with a further request from the marlboro guy, im here to POST. keke.

today was a damn exciting day i tell you! though im now sitting down with my LOBSTER look and is burning like hell... but im still VERY happy!

before i start on today.. yesterday i went celebrating was damn fun! went to esplanade with gideon and xueping. THANK god for my dear buddies who come along to go WALK WALK! we had great dinner and a super enjoyable walk, enjoying the sea breeze at night. =)

i went suntanning! as promised. AFTER EXAMS! with xuexue, we embark on the journey to get ourself BADLY tanned. LOL. yeah. we DID. we are damn RED now.

I LOVE the sun today i tell you guys.. its so strong and powerful! i was under it for like 5 hours.. SUPER long, and SUPER satisfying. cause i know im damn red NOW. yeah! the trip there was great and spice up with lots of P&W singing together.. we take LOTS LOTS of photos! haha. xue xue was damn affected by the fact her camera was BLURRED initially.. we prayed, and the camera WORKS! yeah. happy. we take so many like there's no TML. keke.

went with her after that to meet gideon... to collect his jacket! (he is damn HAPPY. because it LOOKS nice on him and he is so glad that it suits him GAM GAM.. keke. he keeps SMILING to himself. OH man.) then on the way, we knock into zejun and marlboro guy!

haha. curious about marlboro guy?
it stands for MR SAM GAN. you know why? i gave him this NICK. marlboro "guy". because he was wearing a polo tee, white with different colourings of green strips across. you guys know marlboro light package? the packaging colours and style? YEAH. he like exactly LIKE that. haha.

we went to collect the jacket! and mr marlboro was attracted to a denim jacket. and there he starts his story that he LOOK GOOD. keke. ze was like, -____-"... xue was like =.="..... haha. but well! was assuring him YA, you do LOOK GOOD sumtimes.. haha. sure to brighten HIS days.

yeah.. after that, marlboro guy brought us to milennia walk! went to LJS to buy some combo and we sat on the grounds of the BIG concourse next to the very unique water fountain.. it was very beautiful.. dim, a bunch of five sitting and relaxin in a very natural style.. the wind was so strong, and GOOD. keke.. me and ze was postioned at a very GOOD angle, the wind just blow right to our face. felt damn SHIOK! the funny conversation goes...

lol. too bad dear SAM you cant out talk me. OOPS. sorry.

we have water fight after that. BAD INCIDENT. we play and i was in a damn good mood, dear my marlboro guy try to play a trick on me. he POUR water. ON ME. well it was a wrong spot, he actually wanted to aim my leg, but it got on my PANTS. i look like i just URINE on my PANTS. keke. was like, ARRGHH! immediately, well, of course, i will go after HIM with the water! aye. cant get him. but its okay.. was not angry =) was having fun. thank god it was fun. so i was not ANGRY. haha. thank him alot for bringing us there! it was damn NICE!

in our act to return............................. we do our last ATTEMPT! we pull sam into the water fountain. but.... mission failure. conclusion is: he is too heavy. we can't move him.

NEXT STOP: chocolate fondue!

we went to the very pretty marina square foodcourt. the place where you get to have an open space and admire the esplanade! we bought chocolate fondue, my fruit splash and gideon's cookie chocolates! it was very nice! as we were eating. we have the ATTN-SEEKING marlboro guy who tried to get people's compliments. keke. OK. kidding lar. he is "knowledgeable" and got "good taste" and is "unique". (muahaha. ze! you know it!)

yeah! we going back home! had a great time talking to every one of them: SAM, GIDEON, ZEJUN, XUEPING! thanks my peers. it was really a great day.. thanks xue especially! hope you enjoy the TAN.. rest well k? look tired everyday lor you. =)

something for you guys! my dearies. forever dear to me. HEEEEEEE~

Zejun: aye! finally meeting you up! really god's plan isn't it.. haha. its like few days ago was like saying why can't seems to catch you and today we found each other! miss the times we went out... arrggh! haha. how i wish we can have some time together! sun tan! dun worry gal? we're definitely go together ONE DAY! heehee =) do well in your attachment and your walk with god, am really glad to see god guiding you and your life growing stronger! continue to serve god to the fullest with this life that he have given you k? LOVES you LOTS.

Xue: yoyo my dearies! i still remember the funny PLOT of being my mistress. DIAOZZ. keke. im so glad to have gotten to spend days with you! you've been a very real person and its good! continue to develop yourself and your focus.. catch it and know it well! lead your life in glory yea? you're still very tired.. keke. rest well k? get ya your favourite subway some day. =)

SAM: alright.. shall give you the privilege now to call you sam, instead of marlboro guy. LOL. you've been a great leader and caring person for your people! i will not change my statement made two weeks ago. keke. had a great time of sharing along the way back home. thanks alot! i will take heart better of what i have in store my life and use it better... i should be glad that people are willing to share with me! keke. continue to lead your units in your leadership style, i believe, focusing on your core competencies, will bring you the answer! =) smiles* gambate dear SAM.

Gideon: whee~ so happy for you. that you finally gotten your ROCK jacket. yeah! haha. rockstar is nice.. im falling in love with MAGNI! lol. ( for people who dunno, i mean he, which is magni, is really good at music. that's what i admire. haha.) you better pray hard for toby.. keke. he need to get hold of that factor! you too eh? jiayou in pursuing your dreams and focus.. go for not just what you want, but what you can do to serve god greatest with your talents! gambate, be supporting you de.. when you have performance, i will make sure i go for every single one of them! yeah. =) takecares zul.

Genesis Jorris 1:03:00 AM

i felt like eating everything in this world. all that taste NICE. hahaa.

Genesis Jorris 12:54:00 AM

Oh man. now is 23rd august 2006. 4.07pm.

i FINISH my papers for semester one year two! though do not know how i score, but im not going to be bothered by this, i just want to stay focus on what i want to do the most now! GOD! assist me.. let me walk this time in a fruitful way.

PAPERS. EXAMS. are the worst scenario of my life. OH MY. finally its OVER. but then, next semester here they come again.. next time must be more prepared so it won't be so RUSH.

anyway, im going to go celebrate the end of my exams now! just gotten a phone call to rush me to go over to city hall NOW. haha.

my dear companions, xue xue and gideon.. maybe RANDALL. but well, its okay, the two of them is enuff to make me luff the whole evening.

there i go le!

byebye people. muacks. i love you. i love today. WHEEEE~

Genesis Jorris 4:10:00 PM

announcement for all the dog lovers especially XUEXUE.

KIKI is FINE!

she cures herself with her super duper miraculous saliva. but of course, with my super thick bandage which i change for consecutively three times thru out the night.

THANK GOD.

my dear kiki. she is precious to me. very valuable. i LOVE her. more than anything else. of course. god is not a thing lar. HEHE.

Genesis Jorris 5:16:00 PM

crimson red. arrgh.
my clothes are all stained with blood. my hands my legs my neck paint red. the whole marble flood of my flat are flooded with bright red blood. she's injured. and the blood cant stop dripping out. i freak out. i don't know what to do. i became the red cross for the day. saving my dear. KIKI.

my dear mum and my brother in an act to cut the nails for her accidentally cut too deep. i notice the flesh have been chip off a little. thank god its not serious till she have to enter HOSPITAL.
i was really worried. even till now i cant relaxed. thou i have already done an extra THICK bandage for her. she's precious to me.

my dear baby. it must have hurt alot isnt it? i cant imagine if it was me. but she is always so dear. she look at me and give me a smile when i help me bandage her injured nail on her left leg. then she gave me a thank you sneeze after the bandage. she look intensively at me saying its ok, it be over soon. aye. my dear KIKI.

Genesis Jorris 8:47:00 PM

wow~ i cant believe i actually didn't blog for two days.. those people who always visit, you know what i mean.. (im an intensive blogger =p) Well, many things happen last week am im glad to proclaim a stronger person that god have mould me in these times.. fighting the battle once again, STRONGER.

how many knows what is the feeling of bungee jump? the type of feeling when your heart sanks as it falls right deep down and you are pull up once again! hmm, let me use a scenario to describe my encounter with god.

its like, im climbing a mountain, and was lifted higher as i pulled thru the obstacles that block me from elevating, the view was clearer, more beautiful, and im nearer to the destination. Out of a sudden, i was thrown down from the heights and fell deep into the valley.. And once again pulled back from the depths into a greater height that the fall have brought me to.. It was a short period of time compare to the ascending of the mountains, but it is enough to let you experience what is the greatest depth and what is the greatest height. Now being thrown to a greater height, i have a even greater view, a even more beautiful assurance, and a nearer distance to my final destination. the top of the mountain.

GOD allow me to learn it HARD. was telling god, "abba, you really have a unique way of letting your children learn things huh.." But im thankful for god to have let me learn it this way, for it makes me realise a greater depth of my faith and the importance to depend onto god. It makes me realise the seriousness of this battle, and i should keep myself alert always to prepare for what has to come. I learn the arts of focus, not to let your emotions carries you, but to let your importance motivates you. dun mess everything up and confuse yourself, but do it ONE by ONE. it will be done.

had a wonderful time on saturday with the africans.. really thank god greatly for allowing me to see the different tribes and tongues coming together to serve god. to praise and worship him. got to know a few of them better: yokai, dorothy, leonard, judith.. and two who were not present, abi and senani. I can feel the fire among them, they are just like us, childrens of god, one body of christ. the UWC caregroup will definitely shines for god like a diamond.

A talk with my dear shepherd.. hopefully, it helps. god! allow both to have the understanding heart for one another.. allow both to be open and trust one another.. allow both to help one another! Let each realise what have been wrong and start afresh again. I pray for a renewed relationship and a breakthrough.

wheeeee~ had a great time tonning at randall house.. we have a deep heart-to-heart chat.. we shared many things with each other.. things individually we have to overcome, identifying our strengths and weaknesses, pouring our burdens, our encounter with god in current spiritual life, the calling and the assurance from god.. it's amazing how both of us comes together.. its really amazing.. god! i cant believe you do this for us! a long time ago prayer answered!

people who may know us from the beginning knows randall and me are like fire and water. we cant be together. when we are together, disaster falls. keke. But now! i thank god for this blessed SB for we have been there for each other as we fight for the land of SP.. god you really change us. thanks alot.

this part is entitled just for my dear SB, randall:

you know my girl? i cherish you more than a sister, more than a sheepmate, more than a person who is with me on the frontline, you are like a part of me. we are all parts of the same body, and to me, you are like the brain, and im the heart! keke. (so mushy, vomits*) thanks for being there for me, and i hope when you need me, im there too... when you tears are falling down, my shoulders are there alright? left or right let you choose.. =) we will fight strong against the devil in this battle, and we shall help one another to oversees our life! in times of joy, we share laughters.. in times of need, we cry together.. in times of truth, we be frank to one another.. in times of wrong, we correct each other.. in times of departure, we give our greatest blessings.. let's cherish the time we have together to serve god in the same land alright? PRAISE god. for his transformation on you. take cares.

Genesis Jorris 5:59:00 PM

Psalm 143

A psalm of David.

1 O LORD, hear my prayer,

listen to my cry for mercy;

in your faithfulness and righteousness

come to my relief.

[you heard my tragic cries.. my heart of pain that shouts.. Lord come to comfort my heart to those who earnestly seeks you]

2 Do not bring your servant into judgment,

for no one living is righteous before you.
3 The enemy pursues me,

he crushes me to the ground;

he makes me dwell in darkness

like those long dead.
4 So my spirit grows faint within me;

my heart within me is dismayed.

[Not measure my life against yours.. for im not worthy..SATAN have push me to my limits.. bringing me encounters of weakness in me.. Lord witness my soul that have exhausted from the battle.. My heart that have been discouraged..]

5 I remember the days of long ago;

I meditate on all your works

and consider what your hands have done.
6 I spread out my hands to you;

my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.

[In times that i seek you with all my heart, my soul, my mind and my strength.. How i long for those good old days that i lay upon you.. Where your blessings and protection were with me when i lifted my hands and live my life for you..]

7 Answer me quickly, O LORD;

my spirit fails.

Do not hide your face from me

or I will be like those who go down to the pit.

[Come my lord.. and help your humble servant.. Im lost in these confusions, and i need you to be there for you.. let me feel your presence.. let me meet you face to face.. Lord, not let me fall to an endless end!]

8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,

for I have put my trust in you.

Show me the way I should go,

for to you I lift up my soul.

[In all these circumstances, you mould me. I trust onto you for all my life.. For the victory that may come after this final battle.. Lord guide me your directions not mine, for i live myself in your hands..]

9 Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,

for I hide myself in you.

[embrace me in your arms.. away from the devil's doings.. Come to my rescue oh lord.]

10 Teach me to do your will,

for you are my God;

may your good Spirit

lead me on level ground.

[Transform me to become a better person for you.. Be my grand shepherd. Let your anointing pass down onto me..]

11 For your name's sake,

O LORD, preserve my life;

in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
12 In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;

destroy all my foes,

for I am your servant.

[As all my life crowds with problems.. let me understand that you are my master. and you are there to protect your servant. for you are a god that is righteous. help me. come help me.]

Genesis Jorris 6:55:00 PM

with a pair of swollen eyes i shall post this.

Im fine.

better.

STRONGER.

Indeed, i had a close to death encounter. To the extend that i nearly left god. God allows me to experience a time of loneliness. a time that was lost. I grew. I was mould. I was reborn yesterday night.

I went to the dark playground near my house, sat on the parapet, and i cried like never before. I flooded my cheeks, redden my eyes. i scream to god, why? why let this happen? I sang the song.. god will make a way. God? are you making that way now?

Finally back home but i still cant hold my tears.. I quarantine myself. i switch the phone to silent. i sign out of my msn. i went to my room.. and cried. God do you know? God are you here? God where are you? God come help me? God please........

I fall alseep in the tragedy. many things happen that have strikes me. i was discourage. i was over burden. i was upset. i was alone.

When i woke up, my eyes was swollen. My heart was heavy. My body was burning with a very uncomfortable heat. I cant see anything. Because the tears have dried up and create a veil over my eyes.

When i cleanse the dried tears away, i felt refreshed.

Suddenly. I understand everything.

Suddenly. I have a new heart.

Suddenly. I have a new self.

Suddenly. I felt i have everything. no longer alone.

Suddenly. My hear can beats.

Suddenly. I know myself better.

I learnt something. God is not a God who will take away your problems. Because he is the one who gave problems. There is a secret behind this strategy. TO MOULD. TO BUILD. TO STRENGTHEN.

I was strengthen.

I was revived.

I was reborn.

I was ignited. like gunpowder.

Let me move on. Im ready. for i realise. this is no longer a life. It is a Battle. It is just the beginning. I have to hold on. I MUST.

Genesis Jorris 2:04:00 PM

at the end of the crossroad.
i chose to walk back.
let there be cries.
im off.

Genesis Jorris 11:59:00 PM

COME BACK.

Genesis Jorris 9:49:00 PM

[a ball of rubber bands]

Stretched.

stretch me and let me discover my greatest potential.

i want to learn something from the rubber. It's simple, its everywhere, it can be bought with a few cents for a whole chunk of it, it had never been valued when you don't need it. But those that creates it have an awesome fact for it. If we take a closer look to our surroundings, many things needs rubber. What's so special about it?

It is humble. Never once have it complain that it have been taken from granted. Never once have it stop to give its best contribution to the world.

It may appears to be nothing. But until you stetch it then you will realise the property of flexibility rubber possess. It is rare. And powerful when you use it appropriately.

It is not special. But it is chosen. And any piece of it have the potential. all of them are equipped with the property to stretch its potential.

I want to be a rubber band. A rubber band that don't earn its appreciation and understanding from around its surroundings. A rubber band that only earns its value from the one who creates it and only the creator knows its purpose.

I want to be a rubber band that can stretch my potential. I want to learn to be stretch and witness it myself being a rubber band that looks simple, yet can perform powerful happenings if i try. my creator. stretch me.

Im not special. im the same as all the others that have been created. all of us can be stretch. all of us are capable of being stretch. all of us contain the potential in us. Of all those the creator have produced, many are created, but few are chosen.

Lord let me be chosen.

Genesis Jorris 6:01:00 PM

IM HANGING ON.

no frets.

Genesis Jorris 6:00:00 PM

i need the time to pause now.
every little matters to stop continuing.
every issues to stop processing.
every life to stop operating.
just pause.
for a rest in you.

i need you abba.
im tired.
tired by the fact i been working and working and toiling all day long.
but i see nothing.
im tired.
tired by the fact that many times i build it up, another pile on top and smash my beautiful castle.
there it goes away again.
im tired.
tired because i cant feel compassion from the others around me.
never was i understood.
im tired.
tired of the days that im leading that is not moving.
thou i know it is ME.

you speaks of trust in you.
you told me to have patience in these circumstances.
you ask me to persevere on despite it dun feel good.
you want me to seek you.

LORD.
i know my life can never be perfect.
but it can also not be in a mess.
thou my heart longs for you.
but all these is hitting me.

"Im a very weak leader.
a person that have no self control."

why he never understand me?

help me god.
help me.

from the beginning im never strong.
its you that is strong, right?

convince me my lord. that you are always there. that you never forsake me. come. come in. im waiting at the door now.

Genesis Jorris 5:49:00 PM

I'LL NEVER BE UNDERSTOOD.

BUT YOU WILL.

LET ME FIND MY SECURITY IN YOU.

ONLY YOU KNOW ME WELL.

Genesis Jorris 12:11:00 AM

the thoughts in my mind are so mess up. i just want to stay focus, but why?

God why do you allow so many issues to tumble into my life?

Why allow the devil to get its way and confuse me?

Im still firm that this BATTLE will be WON. But will i be part of this winning team?

Lord not let the devil take her away. SATAN! if you want take me then! I rather die for her place!

Please father enlighten the hearts of my leader, enable strength, wisdom and joy to filled him!

Give those who are willing your harvest and mercy.

Help us. Help me. I just want to do your work.

The devil is very powerful. But i will never succumb! Father pour your power over!

WE NEED YOU.

COME.

Genesis Jorris 9:21:00 PM

i can feel the intensity in me as im fighting this war against the devil now. and WINNING.

the adrenaline in me is rushing into my face and its blushing me with a whole new fighting spirit, and brand new armour from god, a revived faith and a refreshed heart.

IM READY.

i want to stay focus on the few things i want to do.
1. Connect the africans and make them feel welcome in this land of HOPE.
2. Grow the CG size.
3. Be a strong leader and armour bearer.
4. grow quantity and quality both TOGETHER.

let me use this life that does not belongs to me to glorify your name oh LORD. i want to grow to become a strong woman for you. i want to lead the group to greater heights. i want to help the people that is dear to me to supervise their life and give them the best advice i can with your word. allow me to be the CHOSEN ONE.

YOU CHOSE ME

AND CALLED ME BY NAME

Genesis Jorris 10:58:00 PM

I cant stop proclaiming of his goodness.

every single song im listening just reminds me of his love.

My father, my guide, my friend, my saviour, my life, my god.

I just want to surrender my life to you.

You're forever majesty in my life.

And by your grace i lived.

I want to sing beautiful praise to you.

I long to lift my hands up high for you.

Peace.

Sweet.

gentle.

alluring.

Genesis Jorris 3:04:00 PM

im filled with an unknowing sense of joy.

A joy that i know god is in control.

things may rush into my life as usual.

Problems, tests, trials, circumstances, situations.

But this time is different.

I felt assured.

God been in control. and im grateful.

A sense of assurance that everything is alright.

Even though to many it may seems its the arrival of testings.

Its the arrival of dryness.

Its the arrival of obstacles.

Its the arrival for a breakthrough.

The Joy is overwhelming.

It covers my heart fully.

JOY.

Genesis Jorris 2:44:00 PM

YOU CHOSE ME.
AND CALLED ME BY NAME.

let your anointing falls upon my head like the way you anoints me with your oil. amen.

Genesis Jorris 1:23:00 AM

went to adult service with a weary heart this morning because of the little sleep that i have catch. Am suppose to meet alvin with the africans to bring them to service and be their PR manager for today! keke.. i obey the spirit and my leaders to go forth despite it is going to be a tiring day and i have not started my revision for my FMA..

but it proves that god's plan is nevertheless the best. god shown an encouraging group to me who is going to be rise as greater heights for him. im convicted that the UWC caregroup will grow really fast for they have fervent servants among them for god.

ABI, DOROTHY, SENANI and YOKAI.

their joy and deep worship to god impresses me. this lady, called yokai is really going to be a powerful minister for god.. she shared her conviction with me, her burden with me, her vision with me and i can really sense the intensity in her heart where the fire of the holy ghost is burning! can really learn alot from her.. and they are coming to tertiary services! amen amen!

im starting to regain my focus. thank god for disciplining me. i love you my lord.. bless them bless them!!!

Genesis Jorris 5:22:00 PM

today my knowledge have grown. and i learn and receives many enlightenment today. it was once again a fruitful day. i decided to restrict myself, out of my own accord, for the better of my service in this god's ministry. the following are the things im going to do:

1. Wake up early. for quiet time with the companion of the sun rise. i want to make this a breakthrough for god. to seek him in the most beautiful moments on earth.

2. Return home early if there is nothing much. i want to spend more time with the family in order to influence them, assist them, build strong foundations with them.

3. Organise my weeks regularly. to assist myself to know what im going to do, and be clearly planned of my priorities so as to ensure they are properly covered.

4. Be mature and have fun at the appropriate times. learning the essence of fellowship which is for the blessings of others, not ourselves. Be a counsellor for the brothers, and advice them. nevertheless, a support.

5. Bible reading. the completion of the bible by the end of the year. currently at book of leviticus. im faith-filled.

what exactly happen today is really natural and simple. its the same as other days. but its the burden in me that have suddenly exploded. due to prompting of leaders and what god have spoken to me.

i want to be a great support to my ushers' ministry. i want to assist them to grow out of their solemn attitude and bring forth an exciting mentality among them. i want to grow together with them to witness great joy in serving as an usher. usher ministry shall grows, GOD, anoints ME. today.. i learnt from my duties. and im glad i been a joy support to the ushers there.. to always brighten their days. hopefully, by my laughter and indian dances? keke. i just want to be dilligent in all areas of my life that im leading now for god.

i saw my people grow. no longer dependent on me. they have the sense of burden in them and the bond within the CG is building up. i really thank god for the quality life that he have build into the people im taking care. and im really glad god anoints me as his vessels to guide them to lead their life closer to him. Love you my god. Love all my people.

many things i compromise and let myself go deeper into situations that weren't called not good, but its not beneficial either. but today i want to control myself and not compromise to circumstances. i want to be a god-honouring leader. and i really want to go on greater heights. i don't want to dwell in these situations that is going to pause my walk with god even closer. i want to grow to be a leader that knows how to juggle fun and responsibilities. i want to be a leader that people shall come and approach for advices and counselling, rather than just for the fun of the person that i am.

Let me lord to stay focus on your glory and your grace. let me lord to ask you to come and guard my heart from others, guide my life to follows your plan. i just want to lead my life in worship to you. i just want to put myself in a position that bears your name not in vain, but in fruitfulness. amen.

Genesis Jorris 2:24:00 AM

yesterday was too tired after a crazy time of praising god in dance and voices that i slept without changing, without blogging, without reading, without closing the lights, without pulling my blankets, without drinking any water, i SLEPT.

wake up at 9.42am to give gideon a wake up call and then i go back to sleep. wake up at 10.48am to double confirm gideon wake up. wake at finally at 12.05pm to brush my teeth. what a lazy PIG i am. but nevertheless, the day before was a fruitful day, i have a lot of fun, a lot of time dwelling in god's presence.

before the concert at EXPO started, me and randall have a tough time indeed. but it tested our faith, our team wor, our coordination of the crowd, our sacrifice for the rest to go the long way, our MATHS [for the money of the tickets, keke], our patience and our adaptation of the surroundings at a short time. THANK god for all these circumstances that we learn, and we enjoy serving. amen!

the day goes on like that.....
SWIMMING! i went swimming with our dear mushroom randall and it was very enjoyable. we have PPG fight in the water, we have great sharings of the time we two abruptly rise up as CLs, we were discussing about the "uncle" gang over at the deep pool section, we done stunts in the water together, we tried our best to sun tan, we swim the doggy style together, it was simply stupid but nice. soon after, we change into our very best [too bad randall brought the wrong clothes, keke] and went to meet our contacts. fruitful time also, because they were very responsive and willing to talk together.

PAY SCHOOL FEES after that... LONG QUEUE.. its ok.. i take a seat and waited. soon after randall finish.. gideon arrives.. PAY SCHOOL FEES again. thank god his one is cheque, can do direct payment... LOL. next we proceed to EXPO! on the way, me and randall have a seat in the MRT and we discuss many questions.. one of it is the uncle's anointing, keke.... [edmund].. of course, the auntie's anointing too! gideon keeps hitting my head with his wallet [careful you PP].... its ok, proceed to next spot the BK! we steal gideon fries to eat.. realise im that hungry.. finally we proceed to 7 eleven to gather people! OMG... this is the start of the agony.. haha. but its OK, im still fine with it.. i enjoy the time agony still. learn something.

the agony goes...
people are late. have to collect money, and im like so thick skin.. people dilly dally. people MIA suddenly. people still far off in the west haven't arrives. people starting to feel bored standing there at the entrance blocking people.. Oh my.. the tickets haven't arrive yet from our friend.. the people supposed to pay have not arrives yet so where we get the money........ its ok, borrowed from eugene the large sum first then return. finally... people arrives then we went over to entrance of EXPO.. aye.. problems again....

xiao kel MIA. he waiting for John.. and John is very very late.. aye.. the total sum of the tickets there is a lack of four bucks, so we may have to fork out the money ourselves.. we waited in the hot and humid area outside the EXPO hall for them.. me and randall.. we were perspiring like mad but yet.. we were enjoying! haha. [trying to make it sound so tough but actually i've enjoy]

the time took to wait, it tested my patience.. and im unlike last time where i will start to scold people on phone or even show some black face.. i was thrown into a peaceful state and the noisy surroundings dun affect my mood at all. i just long for the entire session to start right on time when everybody have arrives. planet shakers.. hmm, suit my preference, i love rock. keke.

great testimony we have.. there was an extra ticket. there was a shortage of four bucks. me and randall decides to sell it off. it was really quite MISSION IMPOSSIBLE but thank god for the faith in randall.. and there it goes, SOLD! the four bucks covers the shortage and everything was good! yeah.. lennon arrives on time, Kelvin and John too shortly after.. yeah~ when we enter it was just nice.. about to start, only the beginning warm up we missed. [its ok, we dun need warm up since it was so warm out there]

YEAH! me, edmund, randall, yiheng and Joella we went right in front to praise the Lord.. amazing time as i really gave my all to him.. felt like falling down on my knees in the midst of worshipping him "evermore".. god, i love you so much! the sharing was fantastic too.. as the time comes where the speaker leads everyone to pray to god, i kneel down and gave him my best prayer i can.. it was awesome to kneel before the lord.. for he is almighty and worthy!

keke. i burst balloons. i LOVE bursting balloons.. after it ends, we burst balloons on the one who are afraid of BALLOONS. keke. OK. [lennon, hahaha] we proceed to go to changi airport for dinner, or like supper? after that.... had MARYBROWN, was tasty, but it just that the service was not GOOD. keke. [as commented by BOSS lennon] but wonderful time of fellowship... but well, as we went into the train and it strikes 12am. i know my madness will erupt. YES. it erupts...... my laughter!!!

a notice for all; everyday after 12am, my laughter and lameness will erupt. so if you felt that i suddenly become over heated with typically every thing, dun be alarm, im still normal, as in the NIGHT mode. keke.

i keep asking them to laugh. especially donnavan. he got funny laughter you know! [donnavan, luff, donnavan, luff, do......] including everyone of them who was on the train.. yeah.... lennon, gideon, jiahui, celestine, donnavan, edmund, joseph and me! we have the "da bao" joke for donnavan after some editing.. keke. FUN~~~

never mind... proceed home. i enjoy the time. i love to praise and worship. had a great chat with lennon over the train. haha. he is some how sick but according to him it is not consider as sick. OK. take care and dun eat tom yam noodles anymore! your throat must PROTECT!

love ya guys all. love god all.

Genesis Jorris 12:22:00 PM

i love sunset. i love the beautiful setting lights that god have impress in this world to remind us of his greatness. the sun sets as my heart melts with it. sweet.

Genesis Jorris 10:55:00 PM

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about you
You are a Creator
Your imagination, confidence, willingness to explore, and appreciation of beauty make you a CREATOR.
You are independent, and you enjoy your self-sufficiency.
Defying convention, you are very innovative, and you have a vivid imagination.
The look of things is important to you, and you have a keen eye for aesthetic beauty in multiple arenas.
You have a strong interest in what is new and exciting—and that includes forging ahead with new ideas, not simply discovering what is already out there.
Your eagerness to seek new and varied experiences leads you into many different situations.
You're not set on one way of doing things, and you are creative when it comes to finding novel solutions to complex problems.
You trust yourself to be innovative and resourceful.
Your confidence allows you to take your general awareness and channel it into creativity.
You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.
You are a fashion maven, up on trends, but distinct in your own style. You don't follow trends, you set them.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
If you want to be different:
Appreciate the earthly, practical elements of things—there is beauty in form as well.
While you are good at thinking abstractly, focusing on details a bit more may help you discover things about the world.
how you relate to others
You are Benevolent
You are a great person to interact with—understanding, giving, and trusting—in a word, BENEVOLENT
You don't mind being in social situations, as you feel comfortable enough with people to be yourself.
Your caring nature goes beyond a basic concern: you take the time to understand the nuances of people's situations before passing any sort of judgment.
You're a good listener, and even better at offering advice.
You're concerned with others at both an individual and societal level—you sympathize with the plights of troubled groups, and you can care about people you've never met.
Considering many different perspectives is something at which you excel, and you appreciate that quality in others.
Other people's feelings are important to you, and you're good at mediating disputes.
Because of your understanding and patience, you tend to bring out the best in people.
You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.
You are a fashion maven, up on trends, but distinct in your own style. You don't follow trends, you set them.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
If you want to be different:
You spend a lot of time taking care of others, but don't forget to take care of yourself!
Sometimes you can get overcommitted, and when you sacrifice spending time with those close to you, it can make them feel unimportant.

Genesis Jorris 4:23:00 PM

wanted to share something about my life now. alright. let me share about my vision that i have recently acquired.

it was a cold and windy night. it was raining heavily. the wind howls very loudly. and there on this very unique evening god drops a seed into my heart. a vision.

i want to plant a church. a church that blossoms with its powerful god-honouring band and its p&w sessions many are aware of its anoionting from god. During services, people shall receives christ into their life during the worship response time rather than altar call. The band will be simple. not extravagant instruments or stage. not powerful voices like mariah carey. but the awesome gathering of ministers who long to serve god with all their giftings for the people. ministers who understand their role. to serve. to lead the people into the holiest of holies.

my aspiration is to be a worship pastor. imparting my experiences of deep worship. leading people to come together with me to enter the courts of god, experiencing god's presence strongly.

the vision seems far enough for people to say impossible. but i trust god for this seed in my heart and i shall lead my life in worship, not just the time that we sing, but the life that i lead to be honouring to god. then my waitings shall witness fruits. god grant your servant wishes. allow your servant to serve you greater in all these areas. in jesus name i pray, amen.

Genesis Jorris 3:15:00 PM

This post is specially dedicated to three brothers in my spunit, yiheng, edmund and gideon. for their growth i witness, and im grateful for the grace of god that was poured onto their lives.

yiheng:
your passion to pursue knowledge in the foundations of god relive the child-like heart in me. im inspired by your courage to ask questions and your desire to learn more, to grow more. not considering any issues of whether your questions are valid, whether it is sum stupid questions anot keke, or is there an answer to that question, you will still ask for the sake of understanding christianity more. like to take this chance to encourage you to take the word of god with greater faith! use your curiousity to explore what the word of god have to tell you, and use it to apply into your life!

your charisma is unique and you are a very sincere person. im really touched to witness a genuine convert like you who receives christ into your life because you really want to feel god again! holy spirit will surely be activated in you, just have faith! continue to grow in god and use your desire to boost your walk with god. i trust that so long you follow his ways, your life will be changed and you will discover the greatest purpose in your life. amen!

Edmund:
had a great chat with you over at lavender area, and i can really sense that you have mature in god! the way you evaluated people, issues and your burden to do something for your caregroup have really grow alot from the old self that you were last time! the man you are now is a man of love for the people, a man who thinks from both side of the coin, a man who wants to expand the kingdom of god. continue to impart your spirit to the brothers in the unit and develop your burden with your devoted life to god!

the choir practise sharing was interesting. i like that part that goes, if you in keep in heart of god's grace with a grateful heart, you will go a long way.. therefore, ed! give thanks to god for everything, and its only when we are weak, then god will be strong. hand everything to god and let yourself be his servant. when you serve him fully, god will pour down his strength and harvest! jiayou.

gideon: thank god for your support to the sisters. and your unfailing "sister" actions that brighten my days. you've been an encouraging brother and your presence have makes many smile. im so glad that you're on fire now, burning for god in your vision and dreams! glad to hear your conviction to be a worship leader, to use your giftings in these areas to expand god's kingdom. give your best to serve god in this area! for his people sake, amen!

looking forward to the unit praise and worship night.. where we shall see the fruits of dependence on god come to a pass. i was praying to god to reveal to me how to be a good minister for him. he told me. have a serving heart for the people. the rest i shall covers. yes! let's make the effort to bring people into the holiest of holies by a heart for god sake! jiayou gideon, anything need me, i be there. let's work for our vision, our passion for music. for god.

Genesis Jorris 7:42:00 PM

SOMETHING IS MISSING IN MY LIFE.

TODAY.

It must be you. the one that draws my heart away. why you commit this perfect crime? as you steal mine and as i steal yours. i lost my heart. and its missing. missing you.

Genesis Jorris 1:43:00 PM

my heart strikes. god suddenly impress in my heart that im not staying focus enough. i need to be focus. among all the items that crowds my life. identify the priorities. follow god's will. his plan shall be the best. his strength shall be sufficient. his power shall be strong enough to keep you focus.

fear of the lord is what i need most. dun take god's grace for granted. dun forget god is in watch. stay focus. do what you suppose to do. please him with your life.

1. i want to get a job. to support my family financially. and to contribute to the church.
2. i want to lead the unit and my caregroup to greater heights. i want to bring them to a breakthrough in culture. i want to witness harvest and growth. i want to train potential leaders. i want to be a good model for god.
3. i want to be a strong armour bearer. i want to support all leaders with all my heart. i want to be there for them when they needed assistance. i want to serve them out of my comfort zone. i want to affirm their leadership. i want to assist them to grow together.
4. i want to be a god-honouring shepherd. i want to guide my sheeps to lean onto god, depend on him. i want to be available for them in times of needs and joy. i want to guide them to be a strong believer in god.
5. i want to learn dance. i long to praise god in rhythm and jumps. i want to learn dance as a new skill for me to develop on.
6. i want to increase my knowledge. i want to learn to read more. i want to research more. i want to be able to draw out shepherding notes to teach my sheep individually. i want to know more about christianity to build my foundation.
7. i want to dwell in deep worship every time i worship god. i want to learn to focus on Him and nothing else when it comes to worship. i want to be able to clear my thoughts off my mind and stay focus on him.
8. i want to sing. sing for god. sing with a voice that is blessed in Jesus name. i want to be able to train my voice strong so may i sing greater for god.
9. i want to brush up my guitar skills. i want to be able to play the guitar anywhere anytime to worship god. to bring people in to his presence. i want to be minister for him. a musician for him.
10. i want to be in good shape. i want to be fit for him. i want to groom myself well.

i know my focus now is to know the values that lies behind all things that im going to do. father guide me. guard me. show me the way. dun leave me alone. be with me thru this. i need you to be there to persevere. i want to accomplish all these for your sake. lord. help.

Genesis Jorris 1:06:00 AM

i learnt many things in these few weeks.

i learnt the arts of walking and strolling.
i love the time i walk alone or with the brothers and sisters along streets, alleys, roads, centres. no matter how tired i am, the time i spend walking past many areas never fails to brighten and wake me up. i love the time as i stroll thru with somebody and sing a worship song to god. i miss times where i disturb people with my voice as i sing some hokkien songs to make them smile.
i went walking around orchard alone today.
it was magnificent. the lights that shine from the different building i pass by was beautiful. the scenes in front of my eyes kept changing and surprising me with things that i never notice before. have a sudden urge to learn photography. and own a shock-proof camera. i want to capture every single image that have brighten up in front of my eyes.

i learnt the arts of letting go.
many things when we hold too tight we tend to lose it even faster. i remember times where i badly want to achieve success and fulfilment in areas of my life but it never comes. i remember forgetting and giving it up but it just came back to me very naturally. i remember once i lost my voice, and when i learn to give it up for god it came back, more powerfully. i cherish the time that i gave up love for the eternal love that is found only in Jesus. i learnt to let go of chances to take up roles and learn for the sake of the people to learn. i learn to give up myself for others to learn to take themselves up.

i learn the arts of love.
i learn the best way to love is to wait. i learn love is not to pursue, but is for you to admire. love does not means possessing. love means giving your greatest blessings. i learnt to love unconditionally to all. i learn one can never love everyone. we are not god. i learn love is a journey for us to walk and learn, to persevere and continue to impart the love for others. we love not for ourselves. we love for others. in all things we do. bear in mind. LOVE.

i learnt the arts of positivity. the arts of faith.
i learn faith is meant to be positive. i learn humans are born with a nature of negativity. have faith in god. and all things will remain positive. its not about being optimistic. to think on the brighter side. but its about having faith in god, eventually, all things will be good. will be positive. none will fall short. for god is in control. my faith was stretched. i waited for harvest. but all things come crashing down all together. im burden. but now i learnt. that my faith will be answered. im waiting. for god. god.

i learn about the brothers. better.
i know the brothers better. i know how they think better. i learn their dilemmas. i learnt their passions. i saw their fighting spirit, their visions, their care, their respect, their love. i met brothers of inspiring character and dreams. i learnt there is no difference between the different genders. all serve god. all are leading the same life. i learn to break the culture. to focus on the love between brothers and sisters. to go all out for the opposite gender. for all are children of god. for all are here to learn from one another. praise god for the brothers. i respect your faith.

Genesis Jorris 11:03:00 PM

my mind have not taken a rest for the past few weeks. as i was flipping thru blogs of many people that i know, i saw something. and it hits my heart.

its august. 8 months have past. 06 is coming to an end in another 4 months. why have it not come yet? many things take place in the past 8 months.

1. i planned a matthew event and it was cancelled the day before.
2. i was appointed to be a careleader at an abrupt period.
3. generation next camp allowed me to experience greatly as a fundraising executive.
4. i have a sheep that have grown miraculously under god's grace. evan.
5. i watched CHC emerge dvd and it was powerful.
6. the evo retreat was fruitful with a poweful beach worship. [sing. your love]
7. urban groove i sang [wu ding] with a guy i dunno and many knows how i sing. (BADLY)
8. got to know other unit people very well
9. SP is still at 30
10. my CG is still at 4

i think the list can just go on. but i cant go on when i reach the last two point. my question is. why have the harvest not come yet? why have the work of the farmers not yet fulfiled with fruits of the harvest? why is the seed not ripe yet?

we toil so hard for it. we work all the way out for it. but i know one thing. its not that the harvest is not coming. it is the heart that is not ready. god is now upon us. moulding us. searching for leaders to anoint. preparing us for the abundant harvest that is going to pour. lord. unite us all again. bring the UL, the CL, the CT, the MEMB and the NB all together! all of us. lord. help.

im convicted of your promise. i strongly believe we will grow. but lord. strengthen our hearts so we can hold on till the day comes. lord. restore the joy and strong hearts in the sisters. reunite the bonding among the brothers. place trust in the workers. inject security of the promise in the group. ignite sensitivity in the leaders. lord come dwell in us. forgive us. lead us with your grace. thank you lord. hallelujah.

amen.

Genesis Jorris 12:58:00 AM

went to chatsworth this morning.. rather afternoon, cause i overslept.. keke.

wanted to donate blood so badly and was really excited for it. in the end, i cant donate blood, cause i got sorethroat. didnt know that if i have sorethroat cant donate de lorx. its okay... but i went there, had a great time fellowshipping with the brothers and sisters impromptu.

donald, jiasheng, aifang, wenli, yuhan, joey, creamo, yuhui, and many many more.. fun time mixing around together. the Hoppies! donald was commented by the nurse that he wore a pants that is torn.. cause his jeans was design with patches of green cloth, but to the nurse, this art was regarded as tattered. lol. jiasheng wanted to donate in the end after much pursuasion, but he is underage! not fated to save lives with his blood. aifang, joey and yuhan fake blood donation by wearing the bandage but never donate.. lol. so as to go out and distribute phamplets!

went over to kallang find gideon for FOP after that. randall was there too! they were studying.. sooo, i too take out my notes to study. OOps.... i decided to not to go FOP in the end. wanted to study with randall..... sorry gideon? didnt meant to "fly your aeroplanes", next time okay? heehee.. i promise! but i did accompany him to kallang indoor stadium to queue up, and then book seats, and until the others come then i leave lorx. we are nice sisters, somebody say amen!

had a great time chatting with randall at macdonalds while we studied. managed to discuss many areas and issues and it was a great time baring thoughts about many aspects of the church and lives. i studied actually! praise god for another disciplined day... to have studied HRM!

i miss sometimes back then. i miss somebodies.

- i miss the times the DMM come together and have fun
- i miss the esplanade lame sessions with sam
- i miss the computer lab in SP with gideon and randall
- i miss my dear jasmine, singing worship songs with me
- i miss my caring leader
- i miss the times where people are strict with me, not like now. im thrown to run far far away but nobody catch me back.
- i miss my primary school mates
- i miss FOP times where i dance like mad
- i miss lakehouse
- i miss chinese orchestra performance at the indoor stadium
- i miss my sister one year back then
- i miss christmas service
- i miss the times where i go shopping
- i miss harvest
- i miss serangoon gang
- i miss WFL with nel
- i miss CLC with meihua
- i miss my sheep
- i miss praise and worship practise session in CG
- i miss jasmine poon
- i miss my family at east coast park
- i miss myself

god. many things i miss out. but thank god i never miss out your love. help me lord. to recover.

Genesis Jorris 12:07:00 AM

it was a day full of ups and downs.. a day full of emotions and infilling of love.
thank god for the wonderful time of fellowship and learning from one another.. thank god for the caring hearts of my brothers and sisters that have build my heart stronger after today.

my heart was indeed discourage in the beginning as the presence of the SPians dwell together in weakness and dryness. with the added on weariness and insecurities in the sisters, the disunited spirit among the brothers, i was heavily burdened with the burden that im carrying already. was asking god, why does it affects me so much and so great? he says: cause you are a mighty warrior to me. not somebody who is weak which you think yourself is. i immediately shut myself up.

the praise and worship i cant focus on god. for my thoughts are packed with too many worries and disruption of all the problems i am carrying in this dear unit. wanted to kneel down and just cried out to the lord.. the last worship song was you are awesome. i sang yet with tears in my heart. lord you are this great, but why lord you've yet pour it into my unit? why have you yet anoint many of us to be your mighty warriors.. lord im weak, and you are strong.

yes... the past few days i felt like a failure... cause everything came falling apart and things just never once work right. but god been telling me this for the past consecutive nights..... he said: dun condemn yourself. you are doing fine. im with you. just move on. and you will find me there whenever you need me. it was really comforting... especially this time as i come into contact with the nature that god have used to speaks to me! the nature. you can never know its awesome power till you experience it. wonderful and ministering.

the sermon today by alan tea was a great impact to me. i learnt alot. that god really thinks highly of us. in addition to the FOP, what the speaker has revealed of god has a better opinion of us than what we have on ourselves, i finally understand what god is trying to speaks to me. god wants me not to question my abilities. for he is a god that makes all things possible. with his grace.. i shall be a mighty warrior. i shall be more than a conqueror in christ. AMEN!

i went sneaking around joining different units people for fellowship. was great. awesome. firstly, we have our house keeping unit session.. LOL. i heard the ns group singing their own composed songs..... the guys are all so built for their endeavours in the army, and all ready to "chiong" for the nations as warriors of god. god! bless this group of mighty men as they come together to shower each other with prayer and faith to pull through the tough times of NS. lord! let them be a salt and light in their platoon and enable them to go higher heights!

then... we have SP gathering at meridian.. Food was nice.. but it gets boring at the end when we started the super famous SP style, DILLY DALLY. alright.. thank god not long after i embark in my bored symptoms of reading stuffs in my bag, xuexue arrives! and sam gang too! immediately i left with them.. lol. its better than anything else than to sit there and rot. heehee.. sooo! went to PS.. fellowship again. had a great time with xuexue.. but well girl? got something for you here..

xuexue: saw your tiredness all over your face and body.. its like typically written everywhere.. want to encourage you to seek god for strength! he will gives you comfort in all circumstances.. believe now is a time where you have to persevere and the trial is here for you to learn how to juggle well among all the pockets of tasks you have to accomplished. but xuexue! god is with you and he will oversee this thru with you! expects for the day to come. =) i be there for you. love ya.

mixed with the famous NEL gang.. rather, the serangoon gang. at the foodcourt tables and chairs... my magic cards turns out to be useful, as NEL picked the same card over and over again. lol. SEE! nel shall meditate on that verse that god have spoken to her. hahaha.. and well, my famous PP is there too..never fails to irritate me with his, why? why? why? tell me? tell me? tell me? i will tell you in school alright PP? its fine and alright le. really.. thanks for the concern and probing anyway. =)

then! sam arrives! he is coming with us to esplanade! we are walking there.. imagine with me... from PS to there. lol. so, there goes the group of crazy people: me, sam, joella, xuexue, huishan and jasmine! we walked... well.. halfway thru we drop by at the tauhuey shop(famous at dhoby ghaut area) to have some great chilling stuffs! over at the alley..... we chatted and cracks lame lame jokes like nobody business. SAM was frozen nearly to death. but well, he enjoyed his time GREATLY with the SP girls. one sentence he used to describe us: SP girls really their self entertainment ratings is 100/100. hahaha. we entertain him and laugh UNTIL he become similarly as mad as us. HE actually sings. hahaha.

something for this brother who encourage and inspire me today...

SAM: whee... you are a inspiring brother who have demonstrate your unfailing love for your people out of your comfort zone.. can really feel your love for them and your concern over us! thank god that you are serving god together with us in hope church and i pray for you to lead the NP and NS group to great heights! god can never give you something that you cant handle, sooo! be ready to rumble and grow the ministries! anyway, your kbox sure ON. dunno you be reading this a not.. well, we will sing very soon! and we will have this type of outing oftenly. do join us when you are free. i know you be interested in another esplanade trip. lol. see ya ard! jiayou =)

im encouraged at the end of the day as god impress in my heart things are not as bad as i think. im seeing the return of a sister and the transformation that god have brought into her life. i see the maturing of leaders in the unit that learns to values their authority. i see people like elisha taking the role as a sower more regularly. i see people like gideon realising his life now and working for a breakthru. god. i repent for my heart of negativity before. and now that your grace have reveal to me that there is HOPE, i shall not worry. as you have told me not to. god shall be my pillar for all things.. and i shall be able to move on to greater heights, bring the unit to harvest and celebrate it together in the name of jesus!

i shall not live in the name of the lord in vain! i shall work, serve and fight! jiayou, genesis. you can do it. with god. i love you. god.

Genesis Jorris 3:55:00 AM

I am

I know

I Speak