.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

6 Weirdest things that JORRIS do:

dots dots. Kanna "transfer" by the GREAT LENNON's blog which resurrected a few days ago and have no choice but to do this thing. Hmmmm.. Well before I proceed, an announcement to all that the GREAT LENNON have mark the history with his return to the blog! Laughs. I said I'll blog about it so, yea, here's the promise. Now LET'S SEE! what weird things do I do?

1. Jorris likes to sleep on her stomach (Dun ask me why, I felt that it was more comfortable..)
2. Jorris likes to eat Macdonalds with mayonnaise, sweet chilli and curry sauce mix together. (I thought it was yummy!)
3. Jorris love to sun burn herself (Despite knowing its going to be HELL after that)
4. Jorris tends not to bath (Its just lazybone... Please! I dun stink!)
5. Jorris talk to herself (Im not a sadist lar.. Just like to talk to myself LOR..)
6. Jorris likes to be very dramatic and extreme (You may say that I have split personality..)

So Now my turn!
I shall "transfer" this to.................................................... All those from Occidental! If you dun have a blog, you got to post on caregroup blog k! hehehe. hear from you guys soon.

Genesis Jorris 2:23:00 AM

Crying.

I feel a swelling of discontentment and unworthiness in my heart.
My rebellious self breaks out.
I wanted to scream my way,
but I wanted to follow the one and rightful way.

Tears flowing out of my eyes,
and I can't seems to stop them.
This unstoppable anger and sorrow contradicts my heart.
I wonder, what exactly do I feel now?

The attitude to serve is strong and firm;
Excitement building up like bricks with superglue.
But this insecurity of my possession keeps haunting me.
And I hate to feel it in this way.

I have this awful thought in my evil mind,
And I hate myself for carrying them.
I just can't seems to stop and peace out the disruptions in my mind,
so may I just have a time of my own,
in rest and silence.

God you know very well my heartbeat and impulse.
On one hand I scream Jesus I serve everything for you,
on the other I betray you with my unlikely salt and light example.
I feel so ironical and distorted.
Could you give me the answer to my heart?

I just want to settle down my heart.
Focus on you, and do your work.
Be a full time servant of yours.
Giving my best to offer my life to you.

I want this whole group that's with me to grow so strong.
All of them to surpass me in their relationship and faith in God.
Occidentalists to blossom in blessings from Jesus.
Everyone to taste the sweetness of following Him.

May you cure my heart.
Calm my soul.
Save my spirit.
Lift my life.

All in all, Jesus.

Genesis Jorris 1:37:00 AM

Excited.

Am excited to serve God in this new semester.
With a whole new attitude and desire.
With more exposure and experience.
More opportunities to explore areas to give.

The interesting drama module pumps my heart faster.
Wanted to get to know those friends very much.
Store management sounds creative too.
Believe its going to be a challenge for me!
Somemore in the same CRS class with Baorun.
Get more chance to interact with her during lesson..
And sow on her classmates with her!

Many activities coming right up in the calender.
Amazing race, Leadership training camp and CLCs.
Not forgetting prayermeets, corporate and regions.
Can't wait to attend and give my best to all!
Taking up relative roles in each event..
Hoping to serve my all this time round.
God answer my desire!

Love the excitement. Love to continue and be excited for God.

Genesis Jorris 9:15:00 PM

Schooldays.

Pretty much for a schoolday for me, as I begin my lesson for the first day on a wednesday.
Missed 2 days of lesson due to the fact that my timetable was not ready yet.
But thank God finally yesterday I met up with my PT to settle the admission stuffs.

Gotten a horrifying timetable that scare the freak out of me.
It was quite a headache because the timetable is so packed.
One of the worst day of the week is wednesday.
From 8am to 3pm with no breaks.

God you better help me in this!

I was pretty pleased with myself for having wake up on time this morning for lesson.
I hope this will be consistent and I'll continue to attend my lessons on time.
God you must discipline this set of lazy bones in me!
I do not want to commit the same mistake again..
This time round, I truely want to excel in my academics and not let my parents be troubled over my studies too.

Later on will be the drama appreciation.
I seriously pray hard that I'll get to know alot of new buds over there.
God please place some responsive souls in there so that I could outreach to.
Let my academics be utilise fully to glorify your kingdom.

I want to be excited for school!

Im beginning to feel a little burning in me for lessons.
I want to excel in my career in the future.
And I got to do it well again this time round.
I can do it in the past, why can't I make it for the present and future?
God will pull me through all these!

Haaa..
Just talking about it makes me excited.
But I do not want it to be a three minute thing.
This is going to continue to burn in me.
I'll grow consistently in my desire for growth.

later on will be having DMM..
A long waited DMM with lennon.
Let's just pray that it is going to be a fruitful one.
I love meeting up together with the leaders.
Strategising for the group.
Planning for activities.
Praying for the people.
Brainstorming for solutions to problems.
It is always inspiring and good to come together and encourage each other in leadership.

May God bless the wineskins of SP.
Help us to bloom new leaders.
Delegate to the young and new.
And release the mature for greater responsibilities.

Genesis Jorris 10:31:00 AM

Vindicated.

My heart perishes,
with the bloom of the term.

Much is expected,
and twas my fears overwhelms.

A cage made of the densest element in the world is created for me.
The element of fear.
It captures me with naked defence,
throwing me into a dimension that screams of pain.

I struggle to set our benchmark of goal.
A hope that carries extraordinary confidence?
Or a safe one that assures no challenge?
A hope that's too high brings morale down when we fail.
A hope that's too low brings morale down when we succeed.
Where should the benchmark be set to ensure evolution?

My stronghold had it's grip tightly on my ankle.
I can't move.
I can only drag along with it.
It restricts my movement.
It contains my desires.

I need a breakthrough.

No fears but courage.
No stepback but forwarding.
No failures but only experiences.

Genesis breaks,
crosses challenge,
overcome fears,
walk through success,
receive peace.

God help me.

Genesis Jorris 2:08:00 PM

When do you know you're ready to write a careleader manual?

When your heart really aches for the group.
You can't sleep at night just because you're thinking about them.
You've cried for them. Countless time.
You gave up your entire right for your life to lead them.
They are more important than you.
You will choose to die to save them.
No sickness or inconvenience will stop you from meeting them.
No matter how they cause you to grieve, you never give up on them.
When you give up your rest to just keep planning for them, so they can have the best at least.
You can feel together with their emotions.
You put in every effort to lead life with them and try to understand them.
You tolerated their nonsense.
You put up with all the shames and insults just to tell them Jesus loves them.
You pray until you can't stop panting in tears.
You get confused before with yourself.
You keep trying to improve so they can have a better leader.
It gets so exhausting but you will keep asking for revival.
You'll put the blame on yourself but not self condemn.
...
...
...

My tears contain pain. Every drop represents my conviction of how much I really prioritise this group that God place into my hands. I feel like a knife cutting across my heart everytime Im unable to see them benefitting fully from the group.

The pain is excruciating.

But I know you the Lord have your plans. I'll hold on to this faith and never curse you for all these you're putting me through. Learning from Job's spirit.

God please sustain me.

Genesis Jorris 11:53:00 PM

Psalm 117 (New International Version)

Praise the LORD, all you nations;
extol him, all you peoples.

For great is his love toward us,
and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever.
Praise the LORD.

Psalm 117 (The message)

Praise God, everybody!
Applaud God, all people!
His love has taken over our lives;
God's faithful ways are eternal.
Hallelujah!

Sing Praises to the Majesty.
Our Lord and King.

Psalms 117 happened to flash in my mind and I take it as a prompting from God to read it as the verse for meditation tonight. Then I came to realise, God is reminding me how important it is to praise Him for His goodness and everything He have done for us.

Some may wonder, why does God make it in a way His followers sing praises and worship Him?
Perhaps you might think that God is a sadist God.
Or that He just wantes people to praise and worship Him to make Him feel good.

What is praising and worshipping God to you?
A regular church activity that many delights in?
A routine that the christians follow?
A hobby because you like music and singing?
A time for you to relax?

Or is it..
A conviction to give thanks to God for your life?

God is not a sadist God.
He is not one who purposely forces His people to praise and worship Him.
But His intentions are meant to remind us to be grateful for the grace He given us.
To remind us of the fear of the Lord.
To bless us with the joy and peace when we humble down before God.
To relieve our sorrows when we express ourself through the songs.

The true attitude to carry along when we praise and worship God, is a heart of conviction to give thanks to God and cherish the beautiful opportunity that we have to give thanks through our voices, the songs, the lyrics, our tongues and the soulful music.

I believe at certain times many during praise and worship will notice that ourself can't focus on giving thanks fully to God despite you wanted to. After thinking through this area quite a few times.. I realise the reason often is because of unrepented sins, troubled minds, and the priorities in our thoughts. When one have not fully confessed the sins that he or she have made, they can never come near to God. It is only when we share a transparent life with Him then will we be able to draw nearer and nearer to Him through worship. During the time when we sing to the Lord, there should not be any other worries and thoughts flooding in our mind.. Definitely if we keep worrying about matters of this world, we can never be able to find the answer from God. It takes a heart of faith to believe that He is in control and leave the worrying into His hands.

Other than corporate worship, one other thing that God highlighted is personal worship.

Do you enjoy worshipping God in private?
Do you regularly sing praises to God during your devotion with Him?
Is personal worship a joy to you or a duty to accomplish?

In fact. The regularity of personal worship in christian often reflects how much they values in giving thanks to God. Perhaps some might felt only those more musically inclined person will practise personal worship more often. And thus maybe might not agree with me about personal worship reflecting thanksgiving from a person. However we need to constantly remember, praising and worshipping God is not determine by the level of this person singing abilities or musical talent. But God listen to the heart not the voice or instrument.

Therefore, if the person really have the heart of thanksgiving, personal worship will be a joy and a conviction no matter when he or she is musically inclined or not.

Sing to God tonight. Sing off your sorrows in rest.

Genesis Jorris 9:16:00 PM

Sacrificial Conviction.

What does it mean by sacrificing?
Why do we have to sacrifice for the sake of this conviction?
How great is this conviction?
Why must we be convicted for God?
Why don't we just lead a life so free by our own will?

I can't answer you if ever you're going to pop me with these questions. The only answer I can speak of is, Im willing to give my whole entire life for this Jesus who loves me despite all that I have sin against Him.

Sometimes I too wonder why do I give up everything for God. But more often I ask why, do we ask so many questions? The answer is very simple. It is worthy for us to sacrifice for God, worthy for us to be convicted for His purpose, worthy for us to lead a sacrificial conviction for Jesus.

Let me share a little story of a girl.
You can give her any name. Around year 2004, this girl was an independent lady, successful in her studies and part time job, leading a life so carefree and luxurious. Not really wealthy, but she had her own big share of hard earn money from the part time job at this not very well known shoe shop. She's beginning to plan for her future despite at an age of 16. The plan was detail and long term, even to the extend of what kind of friends she's going to mix with in order to succeed in her career and friends circle in the future. To put it simply, she had make such a detail plan to ensure her best in the future years. Everything she planned for her own good.

Until one day, she came to know this person call Jesus, she used to believe it was a myth, it was just something for weak people to depend on. Definitely not for her, who is successful in leading her life so far. But somehow deep in her heart, she know very well she's struggling, and the gap in her heart is expanding. She needs something to fill it up, but money, friends, success, love just can't seems to mend the hole. She decided to receive Jesus, hoping that He will do something.
And He did.

She gave herself the name of Genesis, to remember that God marks the beginning of her life. All that was before became a past to show how great it is to know God and have God to guide the way we lead our life. She came to commit herself totally to God, to be zealous of God despite of all the sufferings that came upon her when the entire family persecuted her. She put up with the shame she have to tolerate when people rejected her and laugh at her for the ridiculous gospel that she shares. She cried in deep nights when she grieve for people under her care who are not able to walk right with God. The conviction always grip her heart. No amount of sacrifice she have to make will cause her to leave Jesus's side.

This is the conviction that she carries everywhere she goes.

She may not be very strong. In fact she is still very weak. A weak leader still. A weak follower still. A weak sister still. A weak shepherd still. But she never fails to try. Never fails to improve. Never fails to pick herself up when she falls. Never fails to sacrifice when she have to give in.

Will you have the same Sacrificial Conviction? Its not that hard to imagine. We are all the same. Its just a step of faith, a heart attitude of zeal, and willingness to play a part in God's kingdom.

Genesis Jorris 2:44:00 PM

I thank God for such a successful imaging process despite of the hectic schedules and the stressful changes that keeps making its way against us.

The process was tiring but enjoyable. Get to mix around with quite afew interesting people from other units and congregation through the ministry. People like charlie who is the shepherd of my ex sheep, people like ruiqi who was titled as my look-alike sister, people like vanness(a) who was real sweet and commentative. Saw many willing hearts present. Thank God for Germaine for her perseverance in runnin the entire image for the anniversary performers. Thank God for Ziying experience to lead the team with great joy and confidence.

I slept ard 4am in the morning at randall's tiny room and woke up at 6.30am. Rushing my makeups and putting my clothes on for we're almost late for the meeting time already which is at 7.30am. Im so tired that my eyes couldn't open. But thank God although we slept late there was a great chat together where we open our hearts. Thank God for randall too for all her efforts put in for the anniversary.

I was really glad that Im given alot of opportunity to put on makeups for the stage ministers for my forte lies in thick makeup. Initially when being place to help the ushers and dancers to makeup I was a little upset though due to the fact Im unable to release my best. Well, thank God for all His plans when He arrange me out of a sudden to do makeup for the stage ministers and really I gave my best to do whatever I can to let them shine on stage! There are pretty much things to learn too as I realise stage makeup is really much thicker than you think. Thank God Im pretty fine with the thickness of the makeup. The many comments that comes from those you help with can be quite negative and discouraging too. Have learnt many times you can't just take every single comment into consideration. Got to filter some away for most of it may be just some opinions that arises from ignorance of makeup. Such as some people do not understand why the make up need to be thick. And some do not wanted any makeup.

Nevertheless... I was really honoured to receive many feedbacks that I did really well for the makeup on the performers. Thank God for the improvements again and His blessings of the giftings in this eye for art. Make up actually is like art! Its subjective too.

Anyway.. The service was fantastic. It was awesome. Though the praise and worship was a little long. I was alright with it but worried about my mum because she can't stand for very long. Im glad so many parents turn up for service.. Hanhong's, Peiyi's, Mine's, Shawn's and Yiheng's. Chinliat was present too.. Im glad! Everybody from the caregroup make it too.. Except for those who are overseas.. I miss Baorun and Santono! I wanted to respond during the service to commit to God.. But was worried about my mum thus I did not step out.. The conviction in me is flowing so powerfully in my blood vessels.. I really am convicted to lead Occidental to great heights!

Can't wait to meet them up this friday.
I love Occidental.
I love God.

PRAISE JESUS.

Genesis Jorris 11:18:00 PM

Prayers.

Pray for Thomas to recover his lost wallet.
Pray for attendance during anniversary to break 15.
Pray for my sheeps to be doing well.
Pray for members of OCCIDENTAL to walk right with God.
Pray for a fruitful night with Randall.
Pray for the hurts of Peiyi to be healed.
Pray for Shawn that He will recover his strong joy in God.
Pray for Edmund to return to his path of light.
Pray for my family to resolve conflicts.
Pray for my registration of modules this semester to be successful.
Pray that our unit will be able to get into the same gems.
Pray for tomorrow anniversary rehearsal I can learn alot of things.
Pray that I'll be able to look good during service!
Pray that the meeting with my group can be soon.
Pray that my FYP will be fruitful.

Pray for conversion during anniversary and JUMP concert.
Pray for great fellowship among the unit and visitors.
Pray for unity within the people.
Pray for strengthening from God of our soul.
Pray for God to revive our dry and weary souls.
Pray for my conviction to be even stronger.
Pray for greater determination to carry out my plans.
Pray for a heart of compassion for lost souls.
Pray for greater patience over those who are weak.

Pray for those who are sick to be heal.
Pray that the excitement in the group will be heighten.
Pray for God to be with us!

God pls remember me! The one who serve you faithfully for 2 years plus.. The one who named herself Genesis because she wants to remember that everything before she get to know you was simply not life. My life only begins when I receive you into my life! Though I have been a sinner all along.. But God please remember I never stop trying to grow and learn! Please help us!

Genesis Jorris 1:14:00 AM

Phew~

Hectic weeks.
First time see God answer my prayer so fast. HaHa. I mean.. I prayed to get more packed with serving Him, and He really pack my schedules like so tight! But still, thank God!

Was busy planning for FYP earlier on today. From morning discussion to afternoon outlets scanning for eye products. Now at night we're having intensive online discussion of the 4Ps for the meiji supplement. That's quite alot. But it was fruitful. I got the news that I was appointed the leader of the phase 2 business development. That was quite a shock for me as I never thought I will be arrange to lead the project. But fact is the contract listed it! I have mix feelings about this. First Im pleased and excited that finally I got a chance to display my leadership in academic areas.. And I'll be able to lift up God's name through this! But yet Im fearful that I'll do a bad job and resulted God's name to be shamed.. During discussion today.. It is apparent that my suggestions are not really taken into considerations. Im worried cause the group that Im in are cliches for a long time and Im like a new member to the group. God help me to be a good leader and blend well with these people! use me greatly!

Have to sort out the mess for tomorrow's matthew event. Sort of the chairperson went MIA, and the leaders have to clear up the mess. But well.. Nothing will goes too wrong if we trust in Jesus! Indeed so many last minute changes but things will be fine during the event. I believe God you will make a way! The friends will enjoy, the event will be fun, a good impression will be left behind, and these friends shall be bridged to anniversary service! And praise God for conversion that will come soon for these souls!

Im delighting to see more friends and families joining us for anniversary service this saturday. I really hope to witness conversion after they really saw how God moved our church and the people's lives.. Have to make plans for the unit for gathering before the service.. For some fellowship, ice breaking and introduction! Having taken up the role in image team makes me more stretch than before. But I never regretted for pursuing after this role because I really want to serve God in more areas other than pastoral. Just like my passion to sing for God. Really am excited to help everybody look nice during their duties of the service! Isn't it great to plays a part in helping everybody build up their confidence in serving God? Looking Good boost confidence!

JUMP concert is coming too.. manage to get shiyun come with me.. I really have a burden to help her. Help her to do what is right, and to quit what is wrong.. Help her to leave her painful life and lead a fruitful one! Help her to stop those hurting emotions and let God heal her wounds in her heart. Furthermore God really bless me with an opportunity to share christ with her when she invited me to go her house overnight and help her in accounting. God use me to share your gospel! Share your love and grace! Soften her heart so she will be touch by you!

Last but not least I cant wait to meet up my people! my coreteams! This plan can't wait anymore.. I desire to share this burden for the next one year to them... And allow them to carry this conviction and ownership for OCCIDENTAL! I want to share the heart of compassion to my fellow coreteams.. So may they desire to bring their friends and people out there who we have not know yet to know Jesus! I wanted to inspire the new believers... To tell them how Jesus really loves them and the need to desire for growth in the word and the relationship with God! I want to tell those fringe members... That the real value of life lies in God and not in this world! I want to tell my sheeps.. How I really plan far for their future and how I really pray that they will lead better than me! How much I want to tell all those close to me.. That it breaks my heart when they despise Jesus or drift away from God!

This meeting have to be soon =)
Baorun and santono pls comeback fast!

Conviction grips my heart.

Genesis Jorris 12:20:00 AM

Been a long time since I blog.

Alright. Its not a long time afterall. But consider long for the rate of posts on my blog. Ha.

Recently I was hung for dryness for a moment, but God remembered me, and draw me back to Him. Thank you Abba Father.

It was that stagnancy, that period of no challenge, too peaceful, too dull, that drains my spirit.
I rather prefer to get myself hectic for God than not doing anything.
But rest is important too. Its how I rest that matters.

Its contradicting of how sometimes I pray for rest when Im weary with the schedules, and sometimes I pray for challenges when things get too easy and simple. I believe many out there can identify with me =)

Thank God for always constantly reviving my half dead heart, resurrecting my spirit to lead the group to greater heights. And just few days ago, He inspired His magnificent plans into me for my caregroup, and within an hour, I make plans for them of the following year.. In details until march 2008. I was convinced totally that those are not from me, but from Him.

I definitely dun have such brains to do that in such a limited time. It is all His giftings for me. Thank God my provider.

Im glad that my ex sheep is doing well over there in adults and that I've always been able to support Him as an advicer and friend despite we're from different congregation now. The regular calls from His camps to share His thoughts and struggles to me, was indeed honouring. Thank God for another opportunity to serve His people despite such gaps in between. Having to receive the latest news that he desire to set up a new ministries and the sypnosis that he discussed with me, I feel really happy for him. God I'll pray hard use this man greatly. And Gideon? Stay close with God for His greater plans.

Now I can't wait to get the whole caregroup to fire up for Jesus. We must fight strongly together! It is definitely not impossible to witness everyone serving God together. We can stop fringe members. We can stop stagnancy. We can stop dryness. We can stop discouragement. All it takes is faith in God, love for one another, and a spirit of perseverance in tough times! Sometimes, no matter how hard things can be, we can enjoy in peace and fruitfulness too.

OCCIDENTAL. We can do it!

Genesis Jorris 1:38:00 AM

1. Revolution
a. Testifying to God's Love
- Giving testimonies of God realness and His work in our lives
(being willing to share about our daily testimonies to everyone & eager to speak about God's work in us)
- Sharing the Gospel
(Evangelism to lost souls by actively reaching out to new people that do not know God)

b. Offering to God
- Leading our life as a living sacrifice to God & giving our life fully to God
(Willing to give up our time, money, future and schedules of life for God's purpose)
- Leading a righteous life with the fruit of the spirit
(growing to be like Jesus)

c. Radiate for God
- Being a salt and light generation to lift the standards of christian living
(setting an example of not diluting God's standards in the current corrupted world)
- Making an influence everywhere we go
(Examples in areas of ministries, academics, external activities, competitions, etc)

d. Communion
- united under one common vision and identity of the God chosen Group
(to share the same objectives of OCCIDENTAL and work in unity for it to be fulfiled)
- encouraging each other and being there for one another in the community
(spreading God's love and warmth for those in need)

e. Holiness
- Holy and pleasing to God
(not to be affected by the mocking of the people that do not understand holiness)
- Leading a life closely with God
(conducting quiet time with God regularly and ensuring the relationship is strong)

2. Uncoming Events and Activities
a. Discipleship
- on-job-training for current coreteams in regards to evangelism and leadership
(ensuring members and coreteams are equip with necessary skills for growth)

b. matthew event (unit based)
- year 1s to take the lead in planning
(purpose to grow in relationship and stage with current contacts. An upcoming matthew event when school reopens is meant to target at more new contacts)

c. New wineskins
- Training of new coreteams
(goal is to witness all current members to have experience being coreteams before)
- Intensive meetings for sharing, teaching, activities
(purpose is to punch in more conviction and abilities to learn)

Nothing makes it possible except YOU.

Genesis Jorris 2:08:00 PM

Brand New Start.

Im witnessing a crisis and am facing constraints in the amount of things I can do.
Im not even sure now whether is it God's prompting for me to enter into the situation.
Oh Lord.. You got to speak to me and stir my heart.
You got to soften the hearts of my leader and have Him understand this plan if its true.
Come on Lord. I got no time to lose.
I know there's much that I still have to learn.
Oh damn it. My brain is suffering from similar problems as before again.
Its getting so filled up with so many things that I wonder.

God you know this few problems in me.
Im still wondering why can she still be there?
Despite all that she have done.
I can't bear to pardon her sins.
But I do not want to judge.
Therefore I choose to avoid her.
What's happening over here?

Seems like another he is sliding into the paths of self centeredness.
He seems to find everything against him?
Is it true Lord or is it not?
You know it well what's the love that is present.
I believe that people dun take us for granted.
Though sometimes as a leader, I have thoughts of it.
Nevertheless, I would never trust the lies of the devil.
People may have neglected you, but it doesn't means they take you for granted.

Mocking sounds so bad.
Sounds so evil.
But it is often one who judge the other that he or she have mock against you.
If in the first place we speak that the other have judge,
then we are the ones who have first judge.

I remember one thing that esther have taught me, and I never forget:
" Do not self pity yourself, that's the path to sliding yourself to stagnancy."

I just want to quietly focus on my OCCIDENTAL and make it strong.
But I just can't sit back and relax with my group.
I know there is a prompting for me to enter the situation.
But I do not dare! I fear of the confusions within!
How hard it was for me before to exit the conflicts..
Yet I want to obey.
Obey His calling and do what He needs me to do.

God!
Please send somebody to challenge me!

Genesis Jorris 4:58:00 PM

Day 31: Corrupted.

Im beginning to sense corruption in my mind.
Im sensing an unbeatable ego and confidence in me.
This is good somehow.
And yet bad to certain extend.

Im being dealed with someone of pride and boasts.
Its not right.
But Im not doing it right too.
Im returning with boasts and trying to raise myself above.
God stop this stupidity in me.

Forgive me for my absurd behaviour.

Genesis Jorris 1:22:00 AM

Day 29: Ambitious Me.

Im not suppose to blog right now so I'll keep it short and sharp.
If not Im gonna be late for the meeting with lennon.
Just have this urge to say something about this stirring that grips my heart.
Its so powerful that I can't pretend that I didn't sense it.

I know God has a big plan for me.
So big that I'll be amazed and shocked if I ever heard of it from Him.
I believe its going to be fulfil.
And I sense that the phases are coming at full speed towards my way now.
Lord, am I ready?
You will know Lord. If I am, make it come all the way with no held back.
Im willing to give my everything.

Ambitious me!
I have been convicted to lead a bigger group.
Convicted to stretch my hands over to lands beyond my boundaries and grooming the plots.
Many constraints strike my heart, but Im going all out.
I know definitely objections from certain people will arise.
But if this is the prompting,
I shall obey.
Its not only about leading the group, its about lifting the group.
I believe there's always somebody that had to take over.
For the meantime, I'll be there to assist. And groom it well.

Alright!
Im so excited.
My mum just ask me whether is there any big events from my church, that she can attend!
I invited her for anniversary and she can come!
Praise God =)

Oh Lord, stir in her heart.
Stir it up and speak to her.

Genesis Jorris 1:51:00 PM

I am

I know

I Speak