.You make the GENESIS out of Me.

It's spicy rumble bumble lumble whee~

Had a really fruitful time spent with the faithful image team.

comprising of my dearie Jenny,
not forgetting the wonderful Jeremy,
and my sweetie Evangeline.

Although the ministry is not firm up well yet,
and it's definitely not something that's easy to serve,
(Image is really hard to define, I'll say it's like the grey area between white and black)
these people had been really faithful in giving their best to up service image standards!
Let's give them a round of applause =)

We're not very experienced professionals,
but we are keen to learn and attempt new things to express creativity.
Surely we long for Image team to contribute greatly in POLYDINS!
woohoo~

And today's meeting was exciting and fruitful.
We talked about training classes for singers, musos and ushers,
self improvement and experimenting with image among ourselves and sacrificial friends?
Not forgetting to discuss the direction of this ministry,
planning and finalising the structure.

We talked about Image for all the upcoming special services till end of June,
and we are all so crazy over the projects!
Have lots of ideas and things we never tot of in the past rushing into our mind,
I believe it's going to be BIG.

Pray for the Image team! We're going to rock your soul in Nexus,
as you stream into the auditorium for the special services. =)

Keep a lookout.

And did I mention my visit for the camp supplier of the souvenirs?
I get to finalise all the stuffs today!

Excited for it's really good. Anticipate for it! =)

Genesis Jorris 12:57:00 AM

A lesson learnt in PSPT sharing:
- Guide Our Thought Life -

Anchor Verse:
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. ~proverbs 4:23

Our mind itself is like a nuclear field. It needs special and specific guidance, if not it will explode and leads to destruction.

We need to know that there is no sin in this world that just happen on itself, but only after we entertain to sin in our thoughts. The devil tempted eve, into doubting the word of God. And that is where it leads to sin.

James 1:14-15
but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

James 4:1
What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?

Mark 7:21-22
For from within, out of men's hearts, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.

Notice the highlight in all these verses, within? your own desire? enticed? It all starts from within. Yes, we should try to act properly, respond in the right way. But all the more we should deal with our thoughts and emotions.

Stop entertaining those temptations, stop fantasizing.

Matthew 23:26
Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.

Look at the importance to dear with our inner being. It's only when we get right our being with God, then can we get right in our doing for Him. We must never allow the emotions and thoughts override the truth, which is what we need to save us from destruction.

- How can God help us to escape? -

1) Impure thoughts are not sin

Impure thoughts only become sin when we entertain them. It's only when we allow them to be rehearsal in our mind, refusing to repent and pray to God for help in getting away from them, then they become sin.

Romans 13:14
Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature.

Why not just focus on doing the right thing with God, and ignore the wrong things. When we are busy with doing the right thing together with God, we will have no time for the wrong things. It is not about serving blindly, but doing it with Him. Yes, clothe ourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ.

2) Ask God to search our hearts

Never ever forget about the being when we are in the process of doing. Remember, we can never build depth in speed. The only one thing that will stop us from receiving God's truth is because we choose not to. We have decided already which way do we want to take, and in the end we reject everything God shows that is not align with what we think.

Be humble. Surrender. Sometimes, or many times, God's way is just not the same as the way you think it's going to be. But follow. Even though it is going to be tough. Ask Him to search your hearts, check your attitude and motives, get right your intentions.

3) Analyse why we are tempted

There is always a reason behind everything. You commit sexual immorality? Always flirting around? Probably it is because of a deeper reason, insecurity. Or that you are always complaining? Upset? It may be because of your pride? Cause you're unwilling to face your weaknesses and keep putting the blame on others and circumstances? Or because you are always taking things for granted and not giving thanks?

Note down whatever that happens. When you cool down. Read through, and analyse why you behave and react in that way. Know the reason. Repent and pray over those underlying reasons. Pray for God's reserve instead of getting these substitutes for those emptiness in your lives.

4) Reject sinful thoughts

Stop yourself from brooding over those things. Stop yourselves from moving into sin. Pray for God's intervention.

5) Repent of pleasant sinful memories

Sin always comes with certain pleasure. That's how the devil tempt us into sinning against God. Eve was tempted to disobey because she was tempted in the pleasure that she will be receiving upon eating the fruit from the tree of wisdom and knowledge. Repent from committing those sin which brings pleasure.

6) Choose wholesome thoughts

Sometimes our thoughts comes like the rain, it's hard to control and predict. But surely we can choose the wholesome thoughts. We need to discipline our mind.

Romans 8:5
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.

Philippians 4:8
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Put your mind on something right! Focus on giving thanks to God. If something bad happens to you, why not take a break and pen down God's blessing, whatever that you want to thank God for. You will find there's so many to give thanks, and that's enough to bring back the smile which that bad thing that took place took away. Live in the spirit, for we have the holy spirit in us since the day Jesus died for us. When we live with Him, surely our mind be peaceful in the spirit as well.

7) Pray to choose wholesome thoughts

I know that it's easy to say, let's choose wholesome thoughts, and difficult to do it when it comes to the point for decision to be made. But don't give up because God loves us. Pray. Pray for His strengthening and His help in this area. Ask Him to remind you, help you to be more determine, help you to persevere, help you to pick the right ones.

2 Corinthians 13:11
Finally, brothers, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.

Our weakness can be our greatest asset too - keep us humble.

Tell the devil, yes Im weak, so what? I sometimes get tempted by your tricks and traps, I stumble and fall, Im really a fool. So what? This is me, yes it's me. But I know God loves me for who I am. And He really died for me despite He knows very well I am just somebody who perhaps, will not really appreciate fully. So let me tell you, I just want to love this God who first loves me. And for you, I feel sad for you. Cause you will never understand. You're a bigger fool I find. Anyway, don't bother me, Im off with Him. =) - Jorris

Genesis Jorris 1:39:00 AM

His blessings.
My Thanksgiving. =)

I thank God that He bless a fruitful shepherding between me and Alina.
I thank God He open our hearts to each other for deep sharings.
I thank God He speaks to me and Alina during that 2 hours plus.
I thank God for such a wonderful sheep.
I thank God that He is going to work in Alina's life in a big way.
- believe not in what that is seen, but in what that is unseen, my girl. Let's go through this together, be there to listen, really. Gambate -

I thank God for a wonderful time of brainstorming for camp mama's shop.
I thank God for Sarah and Geckting, my wonderful partners of the project.
I thank God for committed hearts to serve, despite the limits.
I thank God for the opportunity to serve in the camp, in an unique way.
I thank God for His creativity and ideas that came throughout the meeting.
I thank God that He is going to make this MAMA shop a BIG thing.
- trust in the Lord, with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. -

I thank God for the jog.
I thank God for the rain.
I thank God for my family.
I thank God for the ministries.
I thank God for the caregroup.
I thank God for my life.

It is the season of giving thanks. It had always been.
Have you give thanks for your daily portion?

- He never fails, to give us this day, our daily bread. -

Genesis Jorris 12:54:00 AM

My second Jog with Him! <3

Im glad I finish the same journey in 15 mins? Around there.
Improvement!

Continue the habit, acquire good temple for Jesus! haa.

Going to meet up with my dearie Alina very soon,
Can't wait for more life sharings!

God, be with us. =)

Genesis Jorris 2:18:00 PM

Oh yeah it was combined service.

But to me, the thing that matters wasn't about it being combine or not.
There was something in it, that's unique.
Not because of the special day and plans of the event,
but because Him.

Had a fruitful night, in a way spent with the usual clicks,
and my beloved buddy whom we lost touch for long.
Mr Zewl Pink.

We had long sharings about life, problems, experience, thoughts, random issues.

And there was a part, where was asked, what do you think about the combined service?
Plenty drives it's way into my heart and I broke into words.

"I got to say, this service was like a normal service to me, but yet it still shakes me. How should I say this? Yes it's bigger, the spiritual atmosphere is mega, the sound and light is extreme, the singers and P&W leader were all so excited to minister us into God's presence. But the thing that shakes me was not all these things, it was His word, His affirmation to what He told me in the past few weeks. Repentance, love and committment. He was telling me to depend on Him, repent from my actions and learn to let go for Him to control. Remember His love, and that's enough. Only after these, then can it leads to committment. The whole sermon led me to tears, for it was like confirming His messages to me in the past weeks that have mould me in a big way."

It was phew and I got to say Im so pampered by God. Because I thank God really that He is moulding me stronger to grow with Him. Not in that sense of pampered yea? Cause God don't really like pamper people in the bad way yah. It's a exclusive term for me and God to describe. =)

God seems to me telling me something else as well.
And I got to really learn this man.

I don't want to lose this, with Him, you know.
But He was saying:

Relax my girl, let it go and just let it be. The more you try not to lose this, the more you are controlling over what's happening. And you're not going to let me lead you, you know? So my dear, let it be. Just remember to stay close with me by reading my story and telling me your story. I'll be there, promise. =)

Love Him manz. And yeah. That's how God speaks to me. ha.

Genesis Jorris 9:11:00 PM

"Give Us This Day Our Daily Bread."
by Max Lucado

What a statement of trust! Whatever you want me to have is all I want. Some days the plate runs over. God keeps bringing out more food and we keep loosening our belt. A promotion. A privilege. A friendship. A gift. A lifetime of grace. An eternity of joy. There are times when we literally push ourselves back from the table, amazed at God's kindness. "You serve me a six-course dinner right in front of my enemies. You revive my drooping head; my cup fills with blessing" (Ps. 23:5 MSG).

And then there are those days when, well, when we have to eat our broccoli. Our daily bread could be tears or sorrow or discipline. Our portion may include adversity as well as opportunity.

This verse was on my mind last night during family devotions. I called my daughters to the table and set a plate in front of each. In the center of the table I placed a collection of food: some fruit, some raw vegetables and some Oreo cookies. "Every day," I explained, "God prepares for us a plate of experiences. What kind of plate do you most enjoy?"

The answer was easy. Sara put three cookies on her plate. Some days are like that, aren't they? Some days are "three cookie days." Many are not. Sometimes our plate has nothing but vegetables--twenty-four hours of celery, carrots, and squash. Apparently God knows we need some strength, and though the portion may be hard to swallow, isn't it for our own good? Most days, however, have a bit of it all. Vegetables, which are healthy but dull. Fruit, which tastes better and we enjoy. And even an Oreo, which does little for our nutrition, but a lot for our attitude.

All are important and all are from God. The next time your plate has more broccoli than apple pie, remember who prepared the meal. And the next time your plate has a portion you find hard to swallow, talk to God about it. Jesus did. In the garden of Gethsemane his Father handed him a cup of suffering so sour, so vile, that Jesus handed it back to heaven. "My Father," he prayed, "if it is possible may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will" (Matt. 26:39).

Even Jesus was given a portion he found hard to swallow. But with God's help, he did. And with God's help, you can too.

Genesis Jorris 12:43:00 AM

"I do not wait until the church is right before I join it (again). I do my part to get it right. Will church ever be perfectly right? No, until Jesus has returned for her. So is it a futile attempt, a chasing after the wind? No, Jesus never told us that it will ever be perfect or 'right' in our time here, but to be part of the process of making it so. Through this, more people will be able to know Him personally, to see a demonstration of faith in action, to experience family, to be strengthened in their life and testimony, and it doesn't take a perfect church to do that, but a forgiven church, a church that does not give up doing what is right. Would you and I be part of such a church?"

- abstracted from http://reflectionsofadisciple.blogspot.com/2008/12/reflection-on-one-thing-i-love.html; wenjiang; UNI congregation; Hope Singapore

Was greatly bless by the post by wenjiang, as can be read through the above link. The question that was post strikes my heart greatly and is the question that I will like to post equally to all readers of my my blog.

Would you and I be part of such a church?
- Stepping out of comfort zone to commit for God's work to imperfection -

Genesis Jorris 6:54:00 PM

I looked out the window and the breeze was blowing against my cheeks

Had an urge to jog and there I go =)

I knew somehow God had a plan within that half an hour

I mustered my courage to start jogging again after 4 years?
And the first thing that happens, God encouraged me.

Within my first few baby steps, I brush across an Indian uncle

I sense joy and health in his brisk steps

His smile of a passing stranger motivates me

Unknowingly, I took it as a smile from God Himself

Half way through the running track

I can sense my body getting a hold on me

Thoughts ran in my mind about giving up and get back home

But there and then I was reminded what is Persevere =)

He was there I know for sure, disciplining this act to keep my body healthy

This is the temple of God, and I have that responsibility,

to make sure it's in tip-top condition!

The nature makes my day

I was amazed by the scenery that I pass by every single step I took

Praise God for His creation, His works

At the end of the jog, I sat down on the bench

Humming and singing worship songs to Him =)

Was enjoying the time so much, until I had to leave some what

For the Hornet is here to chase me away =.=

The jog will not have been beautiful

If not for Him who was running with me

It was like a lesson learnt, even though it's only 30 mins

All the more I bring Him praise,

I will rejoice, and I will declare

For God is my victory and He is here =)

Genesis Jorris 5:06:00 PM

My first time sitting on a motorbike!

Thank God. I didn't fall or cause the biker to get into an accident.
LOL.

Anyway..

Recce of campsite is fruitful.
Really nice place, praise God for the site.
Thank God for pastor Chris.
He was really hospitable and even drive us out of the site, to CCK.

Thank God for Meiyi, Lestari, Kaien and Bingquan.
All stayed late to discuss for decor.
Quite a headache for us but we will prevail!
Pray for Lestari's exam, despite that she still came!
Pray for Bingquan's safety, careful with that bike yea. And thank God that you still stay so late despite you have camp on the next day!
Pray for Meiyi, who is having competition. Thank God for you to give your best to decor despite you are tight with involvements!

Thank God. =)

Genesis Jorris 12:47:00 AM

He is my portion.

My Lord and my shepherd.
I shall not be in want.

My cup overflows.
In praises I rejoice and sing worship out of my heart of melody.

He makes me a conqueror.
Through Him who love me.

Even when I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.
I shall not be in fear.

Do not be discourage, do not be afraid.
For I the Lord, shall be with you.

Overwhelmed by His love.
Continue to do your work in me.

Genesis Jorris 2:49:00 AM

found a picture of the food that was cooked on that CNY feast 09.
Looking at this make me hungry manz.

Anyway, I just realise it's really alot at that time when I found this photo.
People, enjoy being hungry after looking at this photo!

If tempted, remember to turn up for CNY feast 2010. ha.

Genesis Jorris 2:28:00 AM

Love those whom I dislike.
Embrace their weaknesses.
Magnify their strengths.

Love others like how you love urself. - Jesus told me.

"why?"

CAUSE I LOVE YOU DESPITE YOU HURT ME.
CAUSE I FORGIVE YOU WHEN YOU SIN AGAINST ME.
CAUSE I STILL HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS DESPITE YOU'RE IMPERFECT.
CAUSE I ALWAYS SEE HOW GOOD YOU ARE.

I will love the hypocrites.
I will love the sarcastic rebukers.
I will love the superficial acquaintances.
I will love the belligerents.

Because you told me so.
I will love.

Genesis Jorris 2:18:00 AM

Im more than a conqueror,

through Him who loved me.

=)

Genesis Jorris 5:00:00 PM

It was valentine and single's awareness day aka SAD,
but nevertheless it was also BFF day. =)

It's a day I came to learn that friendship is golden.

It's a day that I am even more convince,

the love from God was more than diamond.

It's a day I realise you can't measure relationship,

it's infinite when a person say I love you with his or her heart.

Whether a friend, your husband, your lover.

It's a day God somehow stirs in me,

don't find love, let love find you. I am one of them.

Yes, He found me despite I didn't heard him for 16 years and 1 week.

I want to take this chance in this season of love,

to express a love message to all of my friends. =)

Dear friends of Jorris,

I just want to say this 3 magic words out of the depths of my heart, not just for the sake of saying it on the magic day, but because God wants me to, and I want to please God as well. I want to thank those who takes my nonsense at many times, those who tolerated with my emotional past, those who soothes my tears and sat by my side till the sun rise all night. Thank you my friend, for being one of those friend that were true to me, willing to break hurtful truth to me because you knew it would do me no good if you kept them as a secret. Often sometimes I assume your intentions to be discouragement, sarcasm, and many other negative thoughts that runs before in me, yet you guys never fail to forgive me and continue to be my side, loving me, caring for me, taking care of me.

Just want to say some names that I really want to say thank you specifically in my life, for you guys make a big difference.

To Lennon, Randall and Joella, you guys brought me to this church and help me to experience God in it's most holy way, helping me to grow in my relationship with God. Though there are past that shakes our relationship and gets us in difficult situations, God bond us back and bring us together because his love brings unity. Thank guys, and let's continue to walk this journey.

To Yiheng, Baorun, Jeremy, being the second generation of leaders that lead with me in SP unit, I like to cherish you guys as great friends, people whom went through the desert and dried valleys with me, and always there to encourage each other because we want to believe together that God have his timing of blessing for us. I am glad that all of you have grown and Im part of the process in witnessing as a friend, as a sister, as a fellow leader. Jiayou Yiheng in the NS ministry, and jiayou baorun and jeremy to continue leading the sisters and brothers in SP. Love you guys.

To Meihwa, I love you. No words can express.. I find that it be better to tell you face to face, because I really want to thank you. Personally. =)

To Terence, great friend. Thank you for offering biblical advices and encouraging me to stay close with God at times when Im falling apart and dry. You are indeed one true friend for you bring the truth to me and encourage me with this great friendship. Just want to say thank you and let's continue serving God and fulfiling our visions for God. Gambate!

To Magdalene and Lestari, my beloved sisters. You both never failed to encourage me with your loving spirits and I am so glad to witness both of you rising up very soon. I thank God He plan us to be in the same mission team where we get to know each other. It is amazing that God answers your prayer back then in the STM so soon! wooohoo~ Anyway my dear girls, love you girls alot alot. Thanks for those little acts of service because they really warmth my heart. thanks.

To Jolene, Gordon and Kaien, my dear late night hang-out gangs. Thanks for all those night of fellowship, you guys have always brought lots of laughters to my heart. Im some how glad that you guys are growing stronger recently, it really bring joy to me! Thanks to Jolene as well for you've been a great sister to share lives. Looking forward for more growth in all our lives. =)

Thanks to every single friend as well, really. Love all. =)

Genesis Jorris 4:46:00 PM

CRAZY WIIing.

We went to this place call GameHaven yesterday,
with a bunch of people call Donald's caregroup and friends.

It was madness.

I played the rabbid racing thingy and burping,
playing catching around the coconut tree..

Guess what.

I HAD MUSCLE ACHE WHEN I REACH HOME TILL NOW,
AND I DIDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT CAUSE IT WAS VERY PAINFUL.

IT'S NOT MILD PAIN BUT EXTREME PAIN.
MORE PAIN THEN TEARING MY SKIN OUT WHEN SUNBURNT.

But still I praise God for this event,
it was so fun and so fruitful.

Had a great time with Alina and Cheryl!
And also got to know quite alot of new friends,
as well as this 2 ladies named Joanne and Angie.

Nice.

What a Valentine's day.

Anyway. I got no plans tonight.
LOL.

Genesis Jorris 12:30:00 PM

It was those days.

Those days we gather and sang worship songs to God in one voice.

It was in one of those mornings.
We'll pray like never before for the rising of the leaders and growth of the group.

In those late nights where we came together.

We will cry like never before in one another's arms.

I remember.
Those days.

Laughters and joy were like oxygen.
Hurts and negative comments are healed with love that is patient and kind.

I miss those days.
With you guys.

SP.

In 2006. - 4 girls CG. Mix CG.
In 2007. - Occidental.
In 2008. - Crippled Beggars. Guys group.

Unforgettable.

Genesis Jorris 1:24:00 AM

In my loneliness,

you are there.

To reveal your righteousness,
in my despair.

Jesus, I live for you.

Men still do fail us.
But you never fails.

Teach me to do your will,
help me to love like yours.

Application point: Keeps no record of wrongs.

Genesis Jorris 1:17:00 AM

Psalm 143:3-10 (New International Version)
The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.

The devil had been cunning and intelligent with it's strategies,
He ran after me with stress and heavy loads of things to do,
pushing me to my limits and leading me to depend on myself.
There I was alone, I lost the light of God.
Those darkness indeed weaken me,
breaking me in headaches, can't think with the right mind.

So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

Without the Lord it was terrible.
My spirit needs your strengthening.
You are the source of my spirit,
when I depart from you with those burdens pressing on me,
nothing in me seems to be working in the right manner.
I am depress by the devil,
and I know without you everything falls apart.

I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

Suddenly I was reminded,
not to focus on what that is around me.
I begin to recall on your great works in my life,
how you have led me to return to your side.
Indeed Lord you are great and faithful,
you are always by my side, never left me.
You created the bright moon that shines in the night,
always reminding me you're the creator of all things.
You are powerful, and you are definitely greater than all these problems.

I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. Selah

Thereby I reach out to you and shout for your presence,
come fall upon me like oil pouring down from my head.
In the middle of the night I walk across that stretch of road alone,
I felt your presence and your joy fills me.
It was sudden and peaceful, never forcing your way in me.
When I thirst for you like I never been so dry before,
You gave me that assurance, you will be there.

Answer me quickly, O LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.

I pray to you and ask again,
that Father come support my falling bones.
Listen to this prayer of mine,
my Shepherd who satisfies me.
This spirit of mine is failing in the midst of the devil's trap,
I need your power to chase away his hidden plot.
Come quick my friend,
for I do not want to be like those who fall away from you,
and not realise how much they missed out,
from your love, your joy and your purpose.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.

In the morning when I awake to devote my first hours to you,
speak to me Oh Lord, let me hear from you.
Let your word of truth be placed deep in my heart,
so may I be led according to your word.
Guide me please, I plead.
For right now here and then I submit myself to you.
My soul I surrender fully to your control,
you are my Lord my God.
Your ways are my ways,
and your thoughts are my thoughts.

Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,
for I hide myself in you.

You are my shelter, my refuge.
I will reside myself in you, for you are a strong protector.
Help me not to be in captive of my enemies,
but rescue me from their attacks to my heart and mind.
My healer, heal my wounds and help me to grow stronger.
I put myself in you, for you will shield me from the traps and plots.
Oh Lord, what can I say,
but give thanks that I have you to protect me from all things.

Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

I will long to follow you,
so Lord guide and teach me to do your will.
For you are my Lord,
the Lord of everything in my life.
If there is anything that is not pleasing,
correct me and help me to be transform.
I long to be your good servant,
leading my life in balance to your purpose.
My determination shall not be enough,
but let your good spirit brings me through.

Amen.

Genesis Jorris 3:52:00 PM

Happy Belated Birthday to all CRIPPLED BEGGARS ALUMNI =)

If not for Kiu's reminder,
I would have really forgotten I guess..

Time flies so fast!

It seems like only yesterday that crippled beggars had their last caregroup in our very own SP HQ at dover, enjoying the amateur farewell video made by me, and performing the act of humility and love for each other by washing legs for the disciples. It was memorable, and I tear in the dark while the video plays. And there it goes...

The times we had together, I never once forget.
The first outing @ science centre,
then the mini caregroup @ fort canning,
sort of like become a part of the gallery @ the spice tent?
And those times together where we camwhore in the museum,
dressing up with stickers on our face for the first service..

Memorable.

Just want to take this time.. To express mini messages, to my dear crippled beggars alumnis..

Jeremy Kiu - It was part of the toughest period, where I trained you to be a shepherd, also the time where I witness you growing to take up the challenge and serve God out of your comfort zone. From a boy who is afraid of putting up his photos online for he is fearful that his parents will find out, to a man today who willingly leads for God not because he have what it takes but because he wants to obey God's call. I am proud of you, and am glad that I have that chance to be used by God as your shepherd. Just want to encourage you, continue to grow stronger each new day, knowing God deeper, loving Him more, and He will shower His blessings upon your life and your group. =)

Gordon - Never was easy being your shepherd, I still remember it was hard to get you to share things with me.. I still remember the times where we discuss about your ministry and your pastoral involvement, the process in CB when we grew together to help you be convicted in your pastoral role. Nevertheless, I am so encouraged that Im seeing God working in your life, convicting your heart to shepherd your sheep, and witnessing how God bless your dreams for His kingdom as well when you obey His call! Continue to give your 101% to SP Unit, and let your dreams in Marcom soar, in His name. =)

Wanting - Often still see each other due to SM module, got to say I miss those times together where we have some crazy girls activities in CB. Thank God for you when in CB despite you were quite a newB back then, for you have been a great support to me. Your perseverance to share the love of God to your BFF, Laiteng have bear fruits as well, where we witness her cross the line of faith! You have been faithful as a followupper too, and till today as a shepherd, giving your best to help newBs get rooted in the caregroup. I thank God for your life as well, how you influence your family. Know that somehow here and there you have problems and burdens, just want to tell you, I'll be always around to listen to you! Take care. =)

Joella - Dear sheep, hadn't have the time to meet you up regularly after since CB ended their lifespan, really wanted to say sorry my dear. I want to take this time to thank you for your understanding, thank you for being a support to me as well in times where I get stress up especially issues to do with my family. Just wanted to say I am really very encouraged by your desire to serve God in missionary, how God bless you with everything that you need to go to Dubai for the exploration trip, and surely I believe He is guiding you for which where He wants to leads you. Want to encourage you to continue trust in Him and have that faith in what that is unseen, surely He will make your path straight. Take good care, Joella. =)

Jasmine - The end of Crippled Beggars was also the beginning of your walk with God in the young adults group. I am so happy for you that you are doing well in adults service, continue to keep it burning girl! Though back in CB I will say the memories hadn't been much for you since you had been busy at that point of time when CB was formed, furthermore it only had such a short lifespan, I really hope you share the same sentiments as me, which is that the caregroup had been memorable in a way. Every single minute we did spent together, will be remembered. And you will not be forgotten as well! Love you lots girl, and grow strong alright. =)

Laiteng - You came to know God not long before CB had it's last days, but I really believe that you enjoyed the little times that we spent together. Your presence have added great joy to the caregroup, and even though before you receive Jesus into your life, you had already been sort of a part of our group. Now that Im seeing you growing stronger in God, Im really am comforted by God for it really bring joy to my heart to see younglings maturing in their faith in God. Im very glad to see you serving well in Usher ministry! Keep the spirit going and do your best in everything, I believe God will reveal more of His purpose for you in your life, and use you greatly in His kingdom. Be willing and humble, and He will show more of His ways. =)

Jason - Now that you're in NS group, am really glad to still be seeing you around here and there. Just that you're getting busier since you are going to become an officer! Woohoo~ Glad to see an officer birthed from CB. hahaha. Well, you're one of the few that spent little time with the CB cause you seems to be pretty busy, but I hope that you have taste goodness and joy while together with us, because to me, you are precious to the group. Remember the times we all had at sentosa? Which after that we took a Maxicab for $40 to serangoon to makan supper? haa. The stars that night were beautiful. So was the farewell. Anyway, Jason, continue to grow strong with God in your life!

Huiru - dear girl, things had happen somehow in the past, but Im glad to hear that you are back on the track and doing well in the uni group. I just want to say, it had been a joy in the past getting to know you, and I hope that somehow in the future we have a chance to meet up together again! Had been pretty fierce to you last time I guess? haa... But I really hope you had understand my intentions. To see you back in Hope have really been a great comfort to me. Girl, jiayou. =)

Edmund - Hey ya, been so long since I ever see you around.. Heard that you're busy and stuffs. Well, I hope this little message here reminds you about the times we used to have together as Crippled Beggars. Those lovely times as a caregroup together bring warmth to my heart, and I hope it does for you as well. God brought us back then together to assist each other to walk right with Him, and it was a memorable time of moulding and loving. I thank God He places you in my life in the past for you have been a great friend.. I really hope, I did make an impact as a friend, a shepherd, a sister in your life back then! And that I can continue to play a part in your life. =) Just want to say, do continue to remember God in your life, walk right with Him, and I hope to see you around in Hope! Miss you lots and many do as well.. Shawn, yiheng and vincent, going NS soon.. Jason already inside for so long, going to become officer! Let's catch up, okay? =)

Love you all.

Genesis Jorris 2:28:00 PM

I sat there in a corner of my room,
on my little bed staring into the space,
took the guitar and played a song,
intended to worship the Lord my God.

Im coming back, to the heart of worship,
and it's all about you, and it's all about you Jesus..

With melody that rings from my mouth,
I suddenly broke out in tears.

For when I sing,

Im sorry Lord, for the things I've made,
when It's all about you, it's all about you Jesus..

Many things I have done and regretted,
many of them that leads me to repent..
There are so many areas in my life that had not been pleasing,
and the Lord has been good to me,
even though I am not deserving.

When I think about how He forgives my sins,
and how His love embraces me despite I sin against Him,
I am filled with shame and amazed by His great love.
I got to say Im really undeserving of His grace,
but yet He chose to love me. Can you understand?

I don't want to make empty promises,
and I do not want to say forgive me and repeat my sins again.
But allow me God to simply say, Im sorry..
And please be patient with me as I change my attitude.
I like to be firm in my decision to change and be transform,
but I can never do this without you.
So Lord please assist me in my life,
and I do my part by trusting you, loving you, following you.

Sanctify me. Consecrate me for your purpose.

Genesis Jorris 9:07:00 PM

Things I want to be happening when my time is up.

This is just for fun somehow.. But well, guess I just want to entertain the readers, or put it in another way, if I ever die somehow, you know what to do for me!

1) The one I love to hold my hand till my very last breath =)
2) Probably I don't want to see anybody crying!
3) I will like to enjoy 1 full day before I die.. Maybe go KTV and spend one entire night having little talks with people that I can really share my life to?
4) I want to give thanks to all people that make a difference in my life.
5) I want to encourage my family to continue and be strong after I leave.
6) Hand over everything that I am leading to my successor.
7) Spend a moment with God, alone.
8) Get the doctor to ensure that I'll die peacefully, no pain.
9) Donate my organs to people that need them.
10) Tell the one that I love, that I love Him. (If I hadn't had the chance to, before)
11) Let all grudges be dissolve, forgive other's sins, repent for my sins. Let there be peace.
12) Write my life story.
13) Die with a smile on my face. Like if, I slept while having a sweet dream, in mind.
14) Do something crazy.. Like telling the whole hospital, Jesus loves them.
15) Indulge in His peace.

In the last days of my life, will you be there with me? =)

Genesis Jorris 1:56:00 AM

The greatest thing on earth is to love and to be loved.

They sang:
Come what may,

I will love you,

till my dying day.

People of our age, may envy the lovers.

Long for love that burns in passion,

but who fulfil the price that is to be paid?

Many desires for love,

but who can bear the pain of love,

when love disclose itself in an unnatural way.

Do not seek for love,

but let love comes to you.

Let love progress in it's most natural walk,

for only through the one and only way,

then will love brings joy and peace.

He may live in your heart.

She may live in your heart.

But You may not live in his heart.

And neither will you necessary live in her heart.

Take heart.

Poetry for the world. Not meant to be apply.

Genesis Jorris 1:22:00 AM

Long for that Hug.

A hug that brings warm.
A hug that takes away sorrows.
A hug that brighten my days.
A hug that makes my heart, beats faster.

Heart my heart.
That's the hug that I long for.

Genesis Jorris 12:28:00 AM

I am

I know

I Speak